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Yamada Ryosuke: Hidarime Tantei EYE

2012-01-31T18:08:00.000+08:00

KYA, kawai, do you recognize who's the boy in the pic? >.<
Yes, Yamada Ryosuke from Hey! Say! Jump! Cute, he were biting his lips. This the last scene from his drama hidarime tantei EYE. He's always using a very serious troubled and depressing face thorough the entire drama. DOn't get me wrong, I totally love the boy with that serious look.

Yamada Ryosuke in last episode

And back to my topic, So, this is the only scene when he smiled so brightly that I had to stop and replay for at least 3 times just to see that smile! LOL! That totally melt me.
hmmm...........................................

Hidarime Tantei Eye Episode 6

why did I put such a long .............. there?
Reason is, for a long time, I never get why girls are so into Hey say jump, nor am I interested to find out.
In the very long due past, I watched jdrama because of certain pretty actress. Note: it's female actress. But now, I'm looking more on male actors. Okay, why did I keep on deviating from my talk..? Right,
Thanks to the recent event of finding out Yukito Nishii,

Pic grabbed from Yukito Nishii's blog

I turned over to search for more his-age-alike young cute actors and I accidentally came across this guy, Yamada Ryosuke.

Episode 5

Because his look in this drama caught my eyes immediately, (I think I'm a goner for guy with cute face, long thick straight hair with fringes.. T.T), and the interesting plot gives the story a more plus plus, this drama makes one of my top fav japan drama now. But, I had to shamelessly admitted, I fixed my eyes to this drama entirely on him. >.< oh gosh...

A bit review of the drama:
A detective drama.
Mystery, thriller, drama, and family.
A great combination for a drama.
The storyline came off very good, I think it's expect-able to be very good, considering that the writer for this drama is the same writer who wrote for Detective Conan.
All the cases were related, and the final biggest mystery is...
better not spoil you all..
The plot is interesting that makes your stomach twisted in knots, goosebumps all over the body when truth is revealed each time. Some moments where Ainosuke (Yamada Ryosuke) fought with his brother, and got depressed scenes because people were killed when he voiced out the truth touched me. I nearly cried.

But then even for me, after finished watching it just awhile ago, I don't like how the drama left in me.

It doesn't have a very mass effect of leftover thoughts. I think the last episode was the worst of all and thus spoilt it all.
I still do not understand what his elder brother intend to do by destroying the city.. the last few scenes were illogical as well (spoilers ahead!)

1. the stopping of the bomb with nitrogen liquid (tension were less, where normally in the last episode, the tension and climax should be at highest, the bomb which he deactivated in the mall was even higher than this.)

2. the journey to his brother's aid (he was shot, for god sake, if he really want to save his brother, doesnt he know how to call an ambulance where all others has been doing FIRST thing in all the other episodes? even if he wanted to help the citizens, the first thing he had deactivate the bomb is to get ambulance. and yet he carried his brother until morning with all the movements and time wasted. of course he died! -.-)

but cause it's drama, I tried my best to ignore the illogicals..,
that's all for my plot review.

I loved his hair and his attire in this drama. His hair and look in Scrap Teacher doesn't suit my taste, probably because he was younger at that time. *check* two years ago to be specified, but for his sake, I'll keep "scrap teacher' on my next to-watch list. I heard lots of *love love* on Chinen Yuri, which until now, I don't find my interest for his peaks very high, at least not as high or higher if compared to Yamada Ryosuke.

Ops.. I just replayed that scene for another two times. XD Ops, did I mention that he bite his lips? yes, I did! Kyahaha. here's the pic for you!

Yamada Ryosuke as Tanaka Ainosuke.

sceencap of the last scenes in Hidarime Tantei EYE

CUTE CUTE CUTE~!

*Melt to water*

headache

2012-01-28T22:05:00.000+08:00

It feels like the temple of my head is squeezing everybit into my mind.

It is aching pain..

Results from getting all tensed up for the ACLS I"m taking on Monday.

Well, why tense up..? cause it's the second time I'm taking and I don't want to fail it again.

I think I give lots of 'what if' situations when I'm studying the algorithm, and ends up with ' what if she (examiner) came up this... oh no.. what should I do?' questions.

I know where I screwed up in last exam. When my friends were taking the exam, I can answer the questions that the lecturer asked them in my heart. I know where I should be going. but when it reaches me...

I panicked, kept my mind focused on the second part of 'getting the bp set, oxygen mask, iv lines' cause I scared that I might forget. THAT leads me to forget the straight away thing after checking responsiveness and call for help is check pulse..

A total wrong right from the start and I lose all the confidence.

she says no pulse.

start cpr immediately.
get defib, give oxygen bag mask, set up iv lines, and cardiac monitoring. This is where it should come.
the cardiac monitor shows this:

the second part I get wrong, is I didn't figure out it's a PEA activity.

the screen shows sinus tachycardia.

the examiner looked at me saying "are you sure?" when I said 'shock' patient.. then I took a lot at the screen again.. I know I'm not wrong. It shows "sinus tachy." THEN after like 5 seconds of looking, the chart pop into my mind. only VT and VF is shockable. I was like.. 'OH HELL!!' and it's a 'pulseless' and so it's a PEA. should not shock the patient! this is non-shockable rhtyhm.

continue cpr for 5 cycles and then add in atropine 1mg iv every 3-5 min.

check rhtyme and pulse.

then she continued saying no use. no use for two times and I repeated my answer with atropine two times..

so what should I do?

yes, investigate the causes..

I listed out the 5T and 6Hs. but took some time again listing cause I was panicking already..

I was all 'crap crap'

then she asked me what's the most possible cause in this patient.

pt is young asthmatic.

I said "hypoxia"

what else?

eh...

what others in young asthmatic?

so. then after I paused for awhile i decided to give it a shot since it's the only answer in my mind, so I said "tension pneumothorax"

correct..

so what should I do?

needle decompression.

landmarks?

second intercostal space, midclavicular line.

and you'll hear a hiss sound after poking

then what do you do?

check rhtyhm and assess vital signs.

take x ray

patient returned normal

pulse present.

yay.. then..?

what did you do just now?

I think think back.. needle decompression...

insert chest tube!

take x ray.

asssess vital signs.

patient returned normal

monitor.

post resuscitation care.

so the most important thing for me is not to panic.. and have confidence. oh well.. I got the most difficult twisted case.

I studied hard for this time.
I must pass this time.
I can be a leader when I want.

best wishes for me.

Kuroshitsuji Musicals 1 and 2 Download and Comments: Yukito Nishii

2012-01-24T17:27:00.002+08:00

First Musical is named: That Butler: Friendship.
Ciel is by: Shougo Sakamoto.
Sebastian by: Yuya Matsushita

Download: http://aarinfantasy.com/forum/f218/t141178-kuroshitsuji-musicals.html
Sub softfile go to http://saeju12.deviantart.com/journal/Ohai-218368940

Ciel Phantomhive is busy preparing his manor for a ball when three new guests appear from Japan. As part of English hospitality, Ciel invites them to the ball. At the party, though, an unwelcome intrusion occurs, and it is the start of the mystery surrounding the three Japanese guests. (taken from kuroshitsuji wiki)

First Musical is named: The Most beautiful Death in the world: Fallen Shinigami.

Ciel is changed to Nishii Yukito (probably because Shougo was too 'adult' to play Ciel anymore at that time? and his schedule was busy)
Sebastian remained the same.
Summary: read here

Comments on both musicals:

First Musical is more hilarious (Sebby-chan dropping utensils XD ), have more jokes.
Second Musical has more actions, less jokes, but lots of BL hints (kya!) even in the backstage videos.
Musics wise, I love both, esp by Yuya's and both Ciels' songs.

Comments on both Ciel:

1. Shougo Sakamoto as Ciel Phantomhive

He's cute in the musical as Ciel at same point, especially when he tried to *flirt* with Sebastian with his cane when Yuki mentioned his flute can exorcise demons. His way of speaking is fluent and doesn't seem to be awkward if compared to Yukito Nishii. The most amazing part that I love about him is his singing. Gosh, he sings really well and I totally fall in love with the song he sang with Yuki named Reminiscing by the window.

2. Yukito Nishii as Ciel Phamtohive

I actually watched the second musical first because that's the first subtitle that I'm able to find. (Quite hard to find the softsub english version.. took me lots of time to dig it up.)

Yukito Nishii is a complete version of Ciel Phantomhive for me. kya! fangirl-ing squeal.

The first entrance he made in the cage took my breath away.

His act as Ciel truly brought out the child's version of seriousness Ciel should have. His face shape suits Ciel more as well. and I love how they put up the black smoky eyeliner on Nishii's eyes. XD

His acting is really good. Why do I say this?

I watched his backstage moments and the curtain call moment.

He is a cheerful person, a completely different person from the Ciel he's acting.

He is quite shy and uncomfortable with camera on him when he's not acting, shown esp during the talkshow, he kept on playing with his cane, and backstage, where he kept on playing with his zip of jacket.

He got really excited and smiled all over his face during curtain call. He came out to dance the shinigami dance, and I couldn't help stop, replaying it over and over again. His smile, his dance... awww.. He's just so cute! Ciel's dancing. XD

I watched Confession, where he is one of the 3 main YOUNG actor and actress. By mean young, I mean all of them were just 15-16. He was the best actor acting psychotic and bipolar. He killed without blinking, carried his evil plan with smirks. Words just can't described it.
The drama won lots of titles. I can see how good the drama is.

Though I have to say, if compared to Shougo, one thing is that his voice doesn't sound natural. Probably because he's soft usually, (or is it not reaching puberty yet, so his voice hasn't cracked. :P) and so during acting, he has to purposely lowered his voice to make it sound firm and serious.

Nonetheless, his hard stare as Ciel is enough to melt me. he does give off the aura of a noble! :D

did you see the eyeliner?? XD

and he dressed up with the pink dress that appear in the anime! kya, look so cute and alike!

And these are him at backstage

kya Yuya! what are you doing to Nishii!? XD so cute!

... ... ... um .. .. ..

o.O

comforting. :D :D

with Aberline

with sepai william and ronald

uwa.. he sticks out his tongue. XD this is the talkshow

"kawaii... so cute that I want to eat him" said by Ronald. (played by: Yosuke Crawford) the one besides Ciel's left is William played by Nagaoka Takuya, the right is Aberlain played by Ise Nao.

Strange, I can swear I sense that Yosuke and Nagaoka take care of him very much. ^,^

So, yeah.. thanks to this musical. I'm officially Yukito Nishii fans. :) go Yukito Nishii! I wish you all the best for the future journey, and I'll keep an eye out for you! keep up the hard work!! Pray you'd be casting in more drama. ^.^

Another song from Kuroshitsuji II that I loved from this song is unmei (destiny) by Alan Humphries and Eric Slingby (played by Matsumoto Shinya and Taisuke Saeki)

Their voices when duet together gives me upmost goosebumps.. It's soo beautiful! I can't 'tear' my ears away from it. so in love with this song.

And although the song keeps on saying that they are friends.. we can see that what Eric had done for Alan were more than just friends. Eric turned into a fallen shinigami for Alan's sake. How is that possible between just friends? :P Though we all can't wait to group them up as pairs in this musical. Their story are just so beautiful!

Although these two are not present in the anime itself, nor the manga I believed? but they are still characters created by Yana Toboso. Actually, they appeared in the OVA kuroshitsuji II, named The tale of William the Shinigami. If you don't purposely go look them out, you'll never notice them! Because they only appeared for 3 seconds in the OVA, to be specific, 2.51 their death syncthe, and until 2.56 where you will see Alan and Eric chatting away on the coach! I went like ... "WTF!" with their 3 seconds appearance. :D

Yuya's singing again touched me.

The first time when I see kuroshitsuji II ED, I fell in love with the song.

After I learnt that the musical sebastian is done by the same person who sing that song, my interest quirked.

Indeed, the musical didn't disappoint me. I love all the songs inside, and the casts that they find: Grell and Mei Rin to be specificed, I have to say, they are both VERY alike to the anime-character.

Kuroshitsuji Season II Ending, New Moon Drop Special Translation

2012-01-17T19:33:00.002+08:00

SPOILER AHEAD!!

First season of Kuroshitsuji ended with Sebastian trying to take Ciel's soul.

Summary:

Second season begins with introduction of new characters i.e., Alois Trancy and his demon butler, Claude.
Sebastian re-entered the scene with lifeless Ciel, and he re-awakened Ciel at the start of season 2. Up until now, we are all in puzzled as to why Ciel has not died.

Story portrayed Alois Trancy, a character that never appeared in manga, as having a contrast opposite personality with Ciel Phantomhive. Alois Trancy shows his weakness to his butler, cling desperately to him, and considers him as someone precious. HOwever, Ciel Phamtohive never shows his weakness to anyone, including Sebastian, disregards his help, and considers him as his pawn in his games. This was portrayed well in the Opening song of Kuroshitsuji II.

This characteristic personality makes Ciel a special soul that even Claude wanted to consume his soul.

Ahem.. forgive me for the perv mind. :XD:

It was later revealed that Claude had stolen Ciel soul when Sebastian was about to take Ciel. Sebastian was angry as he who waited by his master side for so long, carried out all his orders and in the end, would not be satisfied to consume an incomplete soul. He returned to the mansion with Ciel, who apparently has lost memories that he had already avenged for his parents. The demons then made a pact, for they both did not want an incomplete Ciel, to made Alois Trancy as a target of Ciel's revenge.

Alois and Ciel faced each other finally in a duet when their butlers are fighting.

Alois wins?

guess again.

Alois beg for his life.

but he didn't succeed.. this a pic of ciel slapping sebby for stopping him. watch on youtube, and close your eyes, listen to the slapping sound.. something dirty came to your ears. :D :D :D this only for fujoshii!!

another fangirl service. :D

Okay, on with the story..

When Claude first tasted Ciel's blood (i.e, his soul) he realized that Ciel's soul is that soul he wanted. He killed Alois who he came to detest and sealed his soul in Trancy family ring for further use. He mixed up his memories with Ciel's and made Ciel think that Sebastian was the one who killed his brother, Luka. (Luka was Alois's brother.)

Sebastian was ordered to disappear from his sight. He who still has the contract bound was forced to leave.

Hannah revived Alois's soul and conscious within Ciel's body and made Alois taken over Ciel's body.
He then made both butlers to go through a maze to obtain Ciel's soul.
In the end, we see that it was actually Hannah another demon who made a contract with Luka, and burnt the village, and thus having his soul consumed by Hannah. Hannah had came to love Luka. And thus, Hannah had stayed by Alois's side because Luka represents him very much. After learning the truth, Alois turned his back towards both butlers. When Ciel gradually regained his memories, he gave order to Sebastian.
"Come and eat my soul, until you have done that, to the very end, you're my butler."
to which Sebastian obeyed.

Ciel immediately loss consciousness and taken over by Alois.
Alois then made a contract with Hannah when both butlers struggled their ways to get to Ciel.

The final wishes:
are for the butlers to fight against each others. Only one demon will survive.
But neither will obtain Ciel's soul.
For Ciel will be reborn as a demon.

Sebastian won the match, but on his way to retrieve his prize, he was told about the wish.
Ciel awakened with the same red eyes as Sebastian in the water. To his anger, Sebastian plucked his fist into Ciel's stomach, OUCH... and blood splashed...

My thought was after Sebastian heard was Hannah said, he was trying to get to Ciel and killed him when he was still human. But Ciel woke up before he could deliver the death, frustrated, Sebastian released his anger into the little body.

Ciel of course.. survived, for he has became a demon who is immortal.
Sebastian is tied to him for eternity with no rewards because contract is still valid. He who could not consume his soul for his soul was no longer human, and because of the last order his master made (to be his bulter until the very end).

and Ciel Phantomhive died as a human.

First seeing the ending, I feel dis-satisfied.
This ending, made one feel as if Alois Trancy has obtained his triumph over everything even if he's dead. And Ciel does not at all sounds like himself after he became a demon.
From some angle, we can also perceive it as Ciel has won over this battle, he obtained his revenge, and at the same time, turned the table over on Sebastian and still has his pawn over him.
It depends on how you see it.
Furthermore, with this relationship, they remained to be master-servant for eternity, and the story gets to continue on.

If you had read my previous blogs, you'd have known I'm a fan of yaoi. So, for the rest of the story, if you're agaisnt yaoi pairing please redirect yourself away from this page.
Sebastian seemed to shows more affection towards Ciel. He regards Ciel's as his own, and shows jealousy and when Ciel let Claude kissed his foot. It made me giggled when I saw it.

This was also said by Ono Daisuke himself. If you don't know, Ono Daisuke is the seiryuu for Sebastian. He numerously stated that he has difficulty getting himself in Sebastian's character for he is not a person who can act so seriously with such low voice. Anyway, he says in a open seiryuu meeting with fans "New Moon Drop Special" after OVA
http://v.youku.com/v_show/id_XMjcxNDY1OTU2.html
were done that Sebastian shows more human side of himself. Aside from jealousy, he shows sorrow, and smiles.

Top five scenes that were chosen by fans during the New Moon Drop special:
5. Will looking for his specs

4. Alois killed by Claude in the end of episode 8
Seiryuu Sakurai Takahiro comments that his own character's personality was clearly portrayed in this scene. His demon personality. This scene, supposingly to be a slow-motion scene, was brought out so sudden yet so briefly in one blink of second. It shows how Claude was suitably a demon in origin.

3. Claude walking in the hallway, open the window and shout out, "ciel phantomhive's soul is trualy a good thing~!!" (Episode 10)
Other than to voice out his satisfaction, he said this to purposely annoy Sebastian too, for he knows he's nearby stalking them. hahaha.

2. The first appearance Ciel and Sebastian made in episode 1. When Sebastian took Ciel out of the suitcase and put his ring on. Fans stated that it was a total surprise because it was not expected that both characters will come back in Season 2. Same for me as well, because summary of Season 2 obviously stated nothing about this pairing. And thus I was most joyed as well to see them came back and that season 2 actually focus more on the first pairing rahter than the new one.
Ono Daisuke said that he was rather tensed when he had to voice out as Sebastian again for the first time after so long gap with season 1. Last year he was asked, "did you eat Ciel's soul in the end?" He said that it was hard to keep it a secret when he was asked to keep "Sebastian is coming back to the season" as a secret. It was burning at him that he wanted to shout it out to us during that interview previous year! And all the other seiryuus nod their heads incessantly. Hahaha. :)

1.... (rolls drum)
The last scene Ciel and Sebastian made.
Ciel becamse demon, Sebastian held the demon in his hand in bridal mode, standing in the field of roses, walking off with "Yes, My Lord" sounding at the end.

They are bound to each other forever...

Okay, there are some special events that seiryuu made their appearances.
All can be download from Aarinfantasy.com/forum.
First seiryuu event was in 2009, where they also announced as a surprise to audience that season 2 is confirmed.
Second seiryuu event named Red Valentines 2010 Jan, was held.
I had fun watching these events, but I hate to say, the translations available is very limited. I couldn't find a perfect translation for both videos.
As I can only guide you breifly where to get these translations.
First seiryuu event, read it from http://datekouji20.livejournal.com/tag/kuroshitsuji
Second seiryuu event, no direction, some suggested to find it on http://forums.blackbutler.net/ but I could not download from the section, i think you might have to register or something, but I watch the translated version in chinese from tudou.com.

Oh, and there's musical too.. I want to write about the musical parts in other blog. so here's just a brief direction to guide.Both Sebastian are played by the singer who sang the ending "bird" for season 2 ending.
Second musical: The most beautiful DEATH in the world:
http://v.pps.tv/play_30I2DS.html
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5aNkgb5flD4
In english sub: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B0pjXxNTjNk

More info go to my next blog: http://lisse88.blogspot.com/2012/01/kuroshitsuji-musicals-1-and-2-download.html

All my favourite BL books and recommendations part 8

2011-12-12T11:14:00.001+08:00

Stopped reading BL story for a few months already because (shamelessly boasting) I had read nearly all the great legendary Good BL stories, more than 200, some are not included here.

Last night, I finally picked up the track and found yet another great author that I had overlooked.

So here, I continued with the lists.

200.

《妖狐--育神之果》

类别：逃离，生子，HE，

文案：
看着狐王怀里换了一个又一个男宠，除了忍，他还能怎样？尽管对方左拥右抱，不过自己到底在他心里占有一席之地，只要这样，他就满足了……
要不是那个人类出现了，紫雅这辈子也想不到自己会有爆发的一天。那人类不但独占了狐王，还口口声声喊着要把所有男妾赶走？自己就只有认命地被赶走吗？不！他不服！只要能让王上重新注意他，他连命也豁出去了！
冒险怀孕，就能挽回爱人的心吗？当王上抱着新欢说：「孩子是我的，我说他娘是你，那就是你……」
紫雅的心碎了，再也无法复原。

My rating: ☆☆☆☆☆

211。

《雪奴儿》

内容简介：
八岁那年，他将自己从雪地中捡回来，取名苗雪卿。
从此以后，夏侯勋成为了他生命的主宰。
「我需要一个无可取代的人，一个永远留在我身边、忠诚于我的人，你就是我要找的那个人吗？证明给我看吧……」
男人的声音如魔咒一般萦绕在耳际。无论被如何玩弄，无论被如何伤害，他都不能反抗，因为这是他欠了对方的，更因为他埋藏在内心深处的爱慕与敬仰。
然而一次任务失败，将苗雪卿的命运彻底改变。
「废了他的武功，再丢到外面去喂野狼，这样行了吗？」
多年以来的忠诚，最后换来的就是这样的下场？
呵呵，既然自己的命是他救的，那就把命还给他吧！
无望的爱以此为解脱，未尝不是一件好事呀……

My rating: ☆☆☆☆

222。

《恨爱囚笼》

类别：现代，

砰！
一道枪声划破了黑夜的平宁静，余音在空旷的房间里不断回旋。
男人扑通一声，跪在地上，中枪的大腿淌出一片骇人的暗红。
“呜……”他痛苦地呻吟，摁着血流不止的伤口。一柄冰冷的枪抵上他的额头，他仰起那张英俊而魅惑的苍白脸庞，深深地凝视着拿枪的少年，子夜般的黑眸里没有一丝恐惧，有的只是无尽的深情和认命。
“动手吧……”他闭上眼，唇角勾起若有似无的自嘲笑容。
少年拿枪的右手忽然剧烈颤抖起来，冷若冰霜的伪装在这一刻土崩瓦解。男人脸上的平静刺痛了他的心，他努力调整自己的呼吸，发抖地以双手持枪。
枪口对准眉心，食指艰难地勾住了扳机，他屏着呼吸，使劲扣下去！

My rating: ☆☆☆

223。

《天神之宠》

类别：天神`，逃离，QJ，生子

内容简介：
他是狐王
他是天帝
一个是臣, 一个是君
无法掌控的命运不甘心的屈服
肆意的掠夺全心全意只为换取爱人的笑容、

My rating: ☆☆☆☆

224。

《我的幸运星》

内容简介：
主角：邝伟东、李昱峰
倒霉，倒霉，好倒霉！先是出车祸，接着被炒鱿鱼，钱包手机都被抢，房子还被烧了！天啊！为什么倒霉事都压他一个人头上了！算命的说会有个「幸运星」来搭救他的，幸运星你快点出现啊！我就要被流氓揍死，横尸街头了～～～
就在邝伟东走投无路的这一刻，「幸运星」果真出现了！！啊啊——
竟然是这个家伙？老天爷你不是跟我开玩笑吧？这个家伙，害我高中生涯的后半部分都在受煎熬，他怎么会是我的幸运星啊！
这可不？说要给他安排住处，结果自己却被压在床上了；说要给他安排工作，结果自己却被压在沙发上了；说要带他去旅游，结果自己却被压在飞机厕所的墙壁上了！
你哪是幸运星？你根本就是「压人星」！

My rating: ☆☆☆

225.

《父子关系》

超俗重生文，一个弱受如何成长为强攻的故事！

My rating: ☆☆☆☆

226.

《凌漫》

类别：血缘，兄弟，逃离，

内容简介：
他轻轻颤抖了起来，似乎眼前已经看到了自己的未来。
离他说的那个时候还有多远呢？
我还能坚持多长时间？

My rating: ☆☆☆

227。

《病人》

类别：QJ，虐身虐心

“我叫何允，你叫什么名字？”他的嘴唇又抿了一下，神情暗淡，刚刚稳定下来的眼神中又流露出痛苦，只是摇头。

“没关系的，告诉我名字我才能叫你啊，你不希望听我叫你的名字吗？难道你的名字很难听？不会吧？”我只是想开个小玩笑而已，没想到他咬着嘴唇眼泪都要下来了。“别哭别哭，我开玩笑的。”哎呀，我最怕见人哭了，手忙脚乱的安慰他，突然想起从他清醒开始，我就没听见他讲过一个字，在他怕的要命的时候也没听过他喊“别过来，别碰我，救命”之类的话，他的一切情绪和想法都是通过神情和点头、摇头传达的。难道……我用怀疑加征询的眼神看他，他点头，一直在眼中打转儿的眼泪终于滑了下来。
My rating: ☆☆☆
228.

《绛雪(上)》

为了到北方投靠在大户人家金府里工作的舅妈，左小草和母亲历尽了千辛万苦。
为求生活能就此稳定下来，小草希望能在金府中觅得一份差事，却没想到金府的背景并不单纯，竟是一个恶命昭彰的杀手组织。
瘦弱又势单力薄的小草没有反抗的机会，不但被强迫灌入药物改变外貌，甚而被打扮成金府的三小姐嫁入金府的对手──孙家，去当卧底……
孙颢只消一眼，就能看出他的新娘不是女人。
被欺骗愚弄的怒气，一时虽遮蔽了他的理性，但小草的美丽、善良与淳朴，却每每令他感到迷惑。
这少年分明是金府派来的细作，可为何能如此天真？

《绛雪(下)》

济南城有了一个传说。
传说里富贵的孙家大少爷，在大雪里捉到一身雪白的妖精。
从此以后妖精便被锁在孙家，只有孙家的大少爷才可以窥见雪妖精的美。
因为打击太过庞大，难以承受之下，小草失去了那段最疼痛的记忆……
他不懂为什么大家看他的眼光，好像是在告诉他你病了。
他不过是跟娘在家里种种田，过平凡日子──但世界好似跟他的记忆完全不同了，
不但娘变了，他的邻居福来跟他记忆里的也不太一样，还改了名，把福来改成颢。
但是他比较喜欢现在这个有着宽广的肩膀和温暖怀抱的福来……
只是，福来不是讨媳妇儿了吗？怎么突然之间又没有了？
然后，他发现，自己竟然变成福来的媳妇儿了……

类别：(虐心文+替身小受+虐身~+HE~)

My rating: ☆☆☆☆

229.

《早已盛开》

类别：逃离，黑心腹受，强受，衷情攻，后知后觉

段仲思一直在游戏人间中寻找，
寻找一个强悍的足以与他对抗甚至能让他俯首的人物。
然而当小猫们在他的温柔下渐渐收起了爪牙，他也渐渐得从欣喜走向了失望。
当段仲思再一次完胜归来的时候却被告知，这场游戏中他才是真正的输家……
叶晴奕一直在等，等待那个笑容温柔的男子将他如一只小猫般遗弃。
不过三年，他终于如愿以偿，把从天堂跌落地狱的感受还给了抛弃他的男人。
他叶晴奕那么早就已经看穿了结局，又怎么会成为这场游戏里的输家？
他是第一个让那名高高在上的男子尝到失败滋味的人，他用了那么多的算计和忍耐，还有这么多时间的等待，这一次，游戏要从他开始。

照好看的！小受用尽心机，只是要渣攻明白，爱不是支配，是共享。
文章也好，内容也好，讲的故事也好。望之处一片春和景明晴空朗朗；读之处满篇文笔流畅行云流水。与耽美界开门便是一片H、道具或是暗色系的□大有不同，实是一篇别样好文。虽是隶属与□文，字字句句冷笑嘲讽，然所行之处却丝毫不感觉冷酷，只是教人随着他们或欣喜或欢笑或拍案。为爱为情为机智为搞笑，或喜或忧或捧腹不止。全文虽已对话贯彻其中，却不感觉累赘；描写不多，不过寥寥数笔耳，然一个个人物却是有血有肉，让你感觉自是气质儒雅风度翩翩。虽也偶尔讲讲道理，却丝毫不嫌呆板，感觉就是这样水到渠成的事情。文笔畅然，字字如珠玑，不忍中途停止，非得一气读完方可过足瘾；笔调淡然，却不乏活泼之处
他们的爱情，原来早已盛开。
My rating: ☆☆☆☆☆

230.

我的同性恋人

本故事内容真实存在，只是在部分情节和时间上做了适当的调整和更改，生活中的原型人物也通过艺术加工，不断特殊化、艺术化.整篇小说分为三十章，四十五万字，细腻的讲述了一对同性恋人的情感故事。

故事从2000年的夏天在阳光沐浴和主流社会下偷偷发生和展开的，主人翁麦季平是某高校的学生，2岁时父母就已离异，造成他的性格孤僻而又懦弱，在学校总是受到同学的戏弄和欺凌，从小到大没有交到过一个朋友，然而性格决定了他的生活，他不敢反抗，也不愿意跟任何人诉说，内心的寂寞和痛楚、毕业高考的压力和胆怯，再加上父亲再婚，至小留在内心的阴影使得他更加害怕和恐慌，就在生活乱七八糟的时候突然柳伊晨闯了进来，他乐观向上，季平被他的快乐深深感染，并从他身上学到了很多人生的真理，渐渐两人成为了朋友，但是日子一天天过去，季平心里竟泛起一种异样的感觉，内心开始矛盾和不安，是不是他也可以尝试另一种恋情。

两人终于决定和上天，和世俗对抗，他们相爱了，爱得无怨无悔，但是社会容不下他们，同学、老师、家人的极力反对，使他们的爱情苦涩不堪，他们无法承受和面对，也曾经一度失落，甚至想要放弃过，但两个孤独的灵魂互相爱抚，互相激励着，于是他们决定离开这里，到一个没有人认识他们的地方然后好好的生活，虽然逃离，但是厄运和灾难并没有与他们隔绝，一次次的袭击和摧残，使得他们心力交萃，最终他们分开了，晨晨的背叛让季平崩溃，几乎失去了生存的信心，就在这个时候，上天又一次怜惜了他，赐给了另一个深爱他的人，这个故人的出现使季平的生活再一次绚丽和灿烂，然而生活在继续，更多的苦难在等着他们。

夜深人静的时候，我总是站在角落祈愿，愿天放过一对恋人，让该发生的永远别发生！

好长，看得我好累。。可悲结局却是个大BE。。
没有太多的H，故事主人公谁是攻谁是受也不大明确。。
两人分分合合，父母阻拦，背叛，堕落，染上HIV。。
描述真实故事，看了让我不禁想起当年，自己发生的事。。

他们的爱，很伟大。。遗憾的是，结尾结束的有点太突然，还想知道晨晨留给季平的盒里装的是什么，但却没有。

My rating: ☆☆

Messiah: BL game

2011-11-29T15:19:00.001+08:00

Hello everyone. it's been sometime since I posted something. :D
Just recently I started out with a new BL game, and I got addicted to it.
There I thought I had finished all the good BL games that I loved out there, and here came something that I realized I had never gotten my hands on. In fact, I had heard about this game few years ago but never bother checking it out because I thought the art was not my taste. Turns out that the art is not a problem AT ALL.

Game is focused on a boy named Takuto Katsuragi, a beautiful boy who 'subconsciously' turned all men around him to want to 'do' it with him. There are only two semes for you to choose from, Haishima Koh/Kou, a lonely gentle but fierce... get this VAMPIRE!!! yes, kya, the blood sucking vampire! and.A close friend, Sasamori Ryouta.

Story started off with introducing Takuto and Ryouta as roommates and Ryouta developed admires of 'more than just friend' towards Takuto and Takuto, who realized it, pretended not to notice it because Ryouta has been his one true friend and he wants it to remain the same.

Koh came into picture to florist shop where Takuto worked. Takuto took notice of him almost immediately, and realized they are the same kinda people, lonely.

One day, Koh tricked Takuto into coming to his mansion, Ryouta followed, both ending up locked inside the mansion with no way out....

And there goes the H scenes

Koh and Takuto

Vampire motions:

Koh is trying to turn Takuto into a vampire as well, through 4 ceremonies, but in the process, was actually intended for Takuto to come to hate him and kill him in his hands when he revealed the broken fragments of his lost memories -- he killed his own stepfather, the monster that killed his parents was Koh, and that to get near him, Koh killed the girls who were acquitance with him.

The 'true ending' story is very touching..

I broke into tears, not because Takuto decided to stay, but of how Takuto and Ryouta said 'goodbye' in front of the mansion when Takuto told him his decision. After which Takuto returned to the mansion and found Koh, told him his determination, and went through the last ceremony, where he too, became bonded to the darkness for eternity, with Koh by his side.

As for Sasamori Ryouta, choose carefully, as one wrong step usually turn Ryouta into the jealous monster, rape him and get Takuto over the edge of breaking.

Surprisingly though, there is an option of how you can turn Takuto into a seme and Ryouta into a uke, by making Ryouta fired the shot at Koh.

I turned out to like this ending very much, seeing Takuto as seme. :D

And another ending of how Ryouta destroyed Takuto, and Koh turned Takuto into his slave.

Some other vampires thingy are, the red eyes, that turned someone who looked at it to unable to resist commands that were carried out by that vampire. Kinda reminds me of 'the Vampire Diaries'.
Other than forcing Takuto to do 'embarassing' stuff during H scenes, he also forced Takuto to trigger the shot at one of the endings. I thought that was quite .. frustrating, especially when Takuto with trembling hands and tears fired the shot, calling Koh a 'coward!' for not daring to face his love.

All in all, rating (in my view):
Story plot: ☆☆☆☆☆
H scenes: ☆☆☆☆
Characters: ☆☆☆☆
Music: ☆☆☆☆☆

Love the music very much.

BY the way, this is the original version of the Messiah game, there is an extra game produced by the same company (core), named Messiah Paranoia Paradox, there is no translated version for this game, neither in chinese and english yet. I installed the game with ATLAS and AGTH to play the game.

Download:
Messiah BL game in chinese:
Otomedream chinese version

Messiah 攻略：
攻略

Messiah BL game in japanese:
Aarinfantasy

Messiah Paranoia Paradox:
Aarinfantasy

Messiah CG Packs:
Messiah CG
Messiah Paranoia Paradox CG

心情故事

2011-09-07T22:56:00.002+08:00

也许换了一个environment是错误的，但我就是这样。读了心理学，自己有avoidant personality disorder,太在意别人的想法，需要人认可，认为自己的一切都比不上别人。。

但是心里却是寂寞的啊。我不擅长表达，不懂交际，总认为每一个人看不起我，背地里批评我。真的。。每一个人。。。

我害怕被拒绝，被看不起。。

明知这是我的舞台，不该让人主宰我的世界，但我无法控制。

总觉得这症状越来越严重。。

好多时候。。。我也渴望。

渴望爱情。

我何尝不想快点遇到心目的白马王子。。但又有时想，以我这样的个性，会不会就这样孤独过下去。。。

风弄作品更新 july 2011

2011-08-02T22:31:00.006+08:00

都是风弄的作品·，感觉好像好久没读了。来update下吧！
最后阅读的
凤于九天 27部第九章
好像蛮难找的，到米·度· 注册吧，听说是上传最快的。
http://ww2.uei-shiang.com/Net/Mem/MemNew.aspx
http://mebook.comic-go.com/viewer_works_content.aspx?id=136
但是，到目前为止，还是停在这里，没有更新。。哭。。

惩罚军服系列也完结了。

金玉王朝

也到第三部了。V！！！

顺便提一下，liulige被人举报，关闭了。火大！！！哪个小鬼被我知道我不放过！！论坛换名唤地址了，暂时我不记得新地址，钻到派派小说网下载小说了。可能比较好点吧，下载不必论坛币，有快车 flashget可以免费下载。建议大家一起来吧。

派派小说网

All my favourite BL novels/recommendations part 7

2011-06-11T15:41:00.016+08:00

192. 《屈辱》

主角：罗岩、袁日
8年前因为袁日强暴罗岩未遂，反而被罗岩打中脑门留下伤疤，一直惦记着这点滴袁日在8年后成为黑帮老大，并且用卑鄙滴手段威胁身为警察滴罗岩……
在尝过了罗岩滴身体之后并无打算放弃他滴袁日，把罗岩一直带在身边调教……
结局也算HE了吧，袁日入狱，罗岩恢复警察滴身份……
《屈辱》第二部《誓不罢休》

My rating: ☆☆☆☆

193。一叶飘零

类别：虐身虐心，霸道蛮力攻，逃离受，BE？

小受的姐姐背叛了渣攻，叶儿（小受）是自十六被家人卖到攻家顶替姐姐，在攻身边长达七年多，攻对受是拳脚殴打，强上，QJ，禁止上学，到最后还将他送给好友伴睡，受终于对攻心灰意冷，带着姐姐的孩子逃离攻。攻不肯，对受追逐，更多殴打，受差点残废。。。

My rating: ☆☆☆

194。云归红尘

类别：民国，BE，受错怪攻，

195

但为君故

楚君笑是名捕快。

　　柳县是个极小的县城，然而可能是由于地处大江下游港口附近，常有沿水路逃跑的贼盗逃到县上来。因此县城虽小，五毒俱全，如果有人说南街头卖豆腐脑儿的赵老儿就是朝廷贴了五年皇榜出银三千的江洋大盗周一刀，你的第一反应应该是去县衙通报，而不是想怎么可能今天早上吃豆腐脑儿的时候还看到他被李屠夫打了一拳不敢还手呢——当然那个李屠夫也很可能是采花贼李飞花就是了。

　　楚君笑的任务，就是每天在街上寻找貌似通缉犯的人，在确定之后将他们逮捕归案。常有人说，若他不是捕快，拿到的赏金足够他吃上十辈子了。

My rating: ☆☆☆

196。《宫森》

祝融见到宫森的时候，宫森被绑在东海的岩石上。

巨浪打在岩石上，掀起一张来高的巨浪，巨浪退后，露出岩石上被困的人影。一个绝美的少年被十字形绑在岩石上，双目紧闭，苍白的脸没有一丝血色。又一个巨浪袭来，重重撞击在岩石上，完全淹没了少年。祝融轻轻靠上前，灵圈自动地将海水推拒到几丈之外，少年又得以从水中挣脱。九儿惊讶地睁大了眼睛，

什么人这么残忍？

少年雪白的身上伤痕累累，腰间围着破烂不堪的布片。四肢被用铁链钉在岩石上，浪来时全身被淹没，浪退时才得以喘息，咸咸的海水浇在伤口上，又马上因太阳酷晒而干涸。祝融轻轻触碰少年的脸，少年呻吟了一声，长长的睫毛微微颤动。

像往常一样，宫森无助而安静地躺在床上，没有了梦魇，他的神色安详里带着一些温柔。

前部虐心虐身，后部轻松现代，两人逃到人间。。。

My rating: ☆☆☆☆

197.

《圈里圈外》

类别：校园，现代，社会，直掰歪，心灰意忍受

纪莫其实并不寂寞，他在圈子里春风一度的对象可以参加全城马拉松。

他走回自己租来的那个破旧的小公寓，昏黄的走廊灯下，他看见一个蜷缩着的人影。

他呼吸一窒，那个人看见他，站直了身子，那一瞬间，纪莫以为自己会昏死过去。

然而他没有，他依然挺直了脊梁静静地看着那个决然从他生命里全身而退的男人。

人若永远停留在过去，如何成长。

三年了，他终于回来，还象往常一样地笑着看他：“纪莫，我回来了。”

－－回来了，又能如何．

他与他永远是圈里圈外，没有走到一起的可能．．．

很好看！！看完了才知道这是楚云暮的书，的确好！！

My rating: ☆☆☆☆☆

198.

《似是古人来》

类别：穿越，温馨，校园，3P

内容简介：

主角：谢子宇（穆离）、顾皓伦

明朝将军（武功高手）穿越到现代校园

这篇与《瞻彼日月》用一个楔子，不用说当然是同一个系列里的。

不过这篇是现代文，而且由於概念是平行时空，

所以这是一篇历史没有丝毫改变的现代文。

小受的的前世是明朝的将军，性格坚韧又不乏灵活性，

最重要的是他还记得那些武功，穿到了现代后，

身体虽然换了，但功夫还是超厉害的。

My rating: ☆☆☆☆☆

199.

《瞻彼日月》

风很大，天空乌黑一片，云层累积得厚厚几层，完全遮住了光。

　　T大教学楼主楼向来以自杀频率出名，据说每年都有定额，如果今年的用完了，那对不起您那，明年请早。

　　在一片昏黑中，有人爬上主楼最高层，打开窗户。

【作者】寒衣

《似是古来人》是描述古代人穿越到现代，这文和上一篇有关联，但有可分开看，这俩个文都是不同风格的，如果上一篇是用温馨来带过，小受也在很早最和攻在一起了，这一篇则是别扭狠心小受，但到最后还是喜欢上攻。

My rating: ☆☆☆☆☆

Korean Drama: 49天（49 days）

2011-05-20T10:52:00.005+08:00

Sypnosis:

Shin Ji Hyun was enjoying absolute bliss as she was about to marry her fiancé, Kang Min Ho, but her perfect life is shattered when she gets into a car accident that leaves her in a coma. She is given a second chance at life by a reaper, but it comes with a condition: she has to find three people outside of her family who would cry genuine tears for her. In order to do this, she borrows the body of Yi Kyung, a part-time employee at a convenience store for 49 days.

My review:

Just finished watching this drama. I have been following up with this drama since its first airing episode on pps. I was deeply intrigued by the story plot. In fact, this is like the one of the very few korean dramas that I had watched. The story contained thriller, supernatural, romance, life, betrayal, friendships, and twist of plots.

Shin Ji Hyun lived the 49 days only to find out about the betrayal of her best friend and fiance, and their plan to take over her father's company. She possess Yi Kyung body and lived as Yi Kyung in daytime, lived her life around her fiance and best friend to find out the proof of evidence, and Han Kang, a male friend of hers who she thought he hated her but actually has loved her since young. Gradually, Han Kang realized it was Shin Ji Hyun who lived inside the body, but after knowing that she could not tell her identity, they pretended like everything is normal as both are clear about what's happening.

And the drama continued...

There are a lot of shocking moments.

As towards the end, especially the last two episode,s i found myself dropping tears non stop as i watched. You feel for the characters.

And the ending was shockingly surprising..

Spoiler:

After gaining the three drops of tears, waking up to see the family and lover after 49 days journey, Shin JiHyung lived one more week only to die again. Yi Siew, Yi Kyung's lover, came back to her only to say goodbye and wished her happiness after five years of waiting. In the end, we found out one more truth, about the connection of yi Kyung and ShinJi Hyung, long-lost sisters. It was probably the only happy thing about the ending part.

We could have wanted the plot for Shin ji Hyung to live happily ever after with Han Kang, and she reunited with yi Kyung sister with the family. That's what all the audiences wanted to see. But in truth is, nothing is perfect in real life. The ending like this on the opposite side, even if left regrets in me, made me think a lot. And i do not feel like 'oh, it's another happy ending, good for them.' cry cry, then throw it away; because it's a fairytale, and things such dramatic like this will never happen in real life.

After going through the journey of 49 days, it makes you realize you should treasure everyday like you have treasured the days in 49 days.

That's the message that they are trying to convey...

All in all, it's still a good drama. I liked the plot, 5 stars (take out one star for the ending), the characters too. Worth to watch.

Kichiku Megane BL game

2011-05-03T23:45:00.017+08:00

Kichiku Megane

鬼畜眼鏡

I first came across with this game through reading its

manga, based on Midou x Megane Katsuya.

A Synopsis of the game:

Katsuya Saeki, is a submissive type of white-collar worker, timid to voice and stand for himself, and was always working behind the shadow. Through a mysterious man-in-black, named Mr. R, he was gifted with a pair of special glasses that changed his life forever.

When he put on the glasses, he will change into this sadistic overwhelmingly confidence Katsuya who neither care about what others think and practically forced sexes (rape!) people!

So this is the interesting part of the game, you're able to play as both seme and uke through the main character. AND if you thought that 'eww! how can I picture a uke to be a seme?! totally out-of-character!" , DISCARD THAT THOUGHT NOW! Because this is the game that will change your mind,

and you'll know, self-cest is the best! :D

Characters:

1. Katsuya Saeki CV by Daisuke Hirakawa

Without megane, he's the complete submissive type of uke. He made good slutting voice in bed, and good training for a uke. :D Some might not find him pleasing because of his attitude but I don't. Here are the couples that can be played.

Midou x Katsuya

It's hard to picture this couple if one has read the manga version of this, but once I started onto this couple, I found it interesting and suits my taste. Storyline goes like this, Katsuya put on the megane in order to obtain the sale rights from Midou which he succeeded, but after they reached the required target sales set by Midou, Katsuya decided not to wear it because he could sense that Midou was not happy and made things difficult for their department because of what the megane side of him did last time. The target sales was increased ridiculously by Midou, Katsuya, having no choice had to obey what Midou said in order for him to withdraw that sale target, which is to 'service' him. And then the play, smex, rape beginsss...

For this couple, scene I enjoyed the most is probably the one on the bed, where he got f***ed first time by Midou. It's starting from that scene and onwards that I see the love grow

ing from inside of Midou towards Katsuya, even though he didn't say it. :D

Katsuya megane x Midou

Well, if you chose for Katsuya to wear the specs all the time, this storyline will change to megane Katsuya version. :D And in here, Midou is the superior uke who was played, tamed and raped by Katsuya megane. This happened because Katsuya wanted to 'tear off his mask' and made his arrogant side disappear, and to make him have nowhere to go except his side. After doing all those stuff, and he succeeded in strippin

g off the arrogant of Midou, he even take over his job with unscrupulous methods. When he finally realized the love he held for Midou, he stopped everything and let him go. Few years later, they met again...

The story can practically be read from manga. :D but it's more detailed if

you played the PC version. Katsuya megane is really a sadistic, and Midou is a strong uke who resisted everything he did, with failure. Despite that, they still fall in love at the end.

Honda x Katsuya

Katsuya and Honda were friends since high school, they played basketball? together. Even back then, Honda were already secretly admiring Katsuya. Katsuya felt himself inferior when standing next to Honda because of their completely different personality and that Honda was more charming and successful than he is. They started growing closer after the project, when Katsuya started behaving strangely due to the megane version with a contraindicated personality and even attempted to rape him in his house, Honda worried, kept on asking about what happened. And it all burst out when Katsuya was spotted talking to mysterious man, Mr. R one night. Katsuya complained and vented out his disappointment and anger to Honda, making Honda realized that he has to confess, which he did one evening. Things started changing between them after that.

What I liked about this couple is not the smex, but the storyline. It touched me and I really spend the time reading through the lines.

Megane Katsuya x Honda

kinda lazy to write this couple's story...

I don't really like this couple, even though it's unexpected that Honda's voice as a uke is pretty amazing and horny. :D bt the idea of him being the uke with that body size of his is still ... strange. there are lots of times when Honda begged for Katsuya to be the seme, but he always ended up to be the one being fucked.

Megane Katsuya x Katagiri

Hmm.. Katagiri is the superior to Katsuya in his department. Katagiri belonged to elder aged group uke. He's gentle, cared about house, and always maintain the same smiling face with everyone. Katsuya probably bored with it, and wanted to see soemthing more, molested and played him.

Katagiri is okay to me as a uke. This couple also did not inspire me much. but it was still not bad in general.

Megane Katsuya x Aki

Aki is another total uke. he's the type who has a girly personality. He likes to stick around Katsuya, (indeed, he has that intention and blurted out his love for Katsuya from the start). But Katsuya didn't have the intention of loving him as a lover, but as a pet.

This story got a lot of training session. :D

Taichi x Katsuya

Taichi is a high school student who works as a waiter in restaurant which Katsuya passed through every morning when he went to work. he admired Katsuya secretly as well. One day, megane Katsuya raped/played him in the restaurant, for which the reason I had forgotten.

Towards the end, we found out that Taichi is more than just high school student. He's the heir to a yakuza family!

And there's a sadist side within him. :d

There are also lots of bad ending, where the character killed megane Katsuya out of hatred, left out of disappointment, etc.

And also alternative ending with Mr. R, brought to the club R, ending up being raped by other gangs, there's extra scenes with 3P, n even ...

Nosebleed!

I liked the game. Love the opening. I listened to it while driving my car mostly everyday. The game itself does not contained self-cest, but there is another version called Kichiku Megane R where it is a fan disc made, it's a continuation of the previous story, and there contained the self-cest scenes. What I liked about the game is that the plot is not meaningless, the story progress good, it doesn't jump from one scene to one scene, which leaves you ideas of 'why is it so sudden?' or boring taste which was filled with all conversations. It's setted in a modern office setting, which suits my taste as well, as I preferred story similar to real life setting rather than a fantasy. And the most amazing thing is the CV! :D I loved mostly all their voices. :)

To download the game, read this page

Windows break down

2011-04-15T22:28:00.005+08:00

Technically, infected by malware. Something called windows vista antivirus 2011. DO NOT TRUST THIS PROGRAMME.

Few days ago, I noticed my computer started lagging behind but I blamed it on my memory ram. Then, later, there was something popped up from the windows when I was surfing the net, claiming that there are 25 infections on my computer and I need to buy the programme i.e., Antivirus Window Vista 2011, to clean it. I was scared because it sounds so true, so real, and some more it's from window itself, but my nod321 did not scan out any viruses from my computer. Then, it blocked me from going online.

How frustrating I was, then, I get myself spyware doctor, and went through the steps taught in the website. It works for a day, then, my computer started going crazy. The next day I started up, I couldnt' find my nod321, I lost chrome, mozilla, msn, skype, pps, microsoft, and even the control panel was not within my control. I have no choice but to reformat everything.

And now, I'm updating, and reinstalling everything, as I could. And my new version of computer desktop.... *rolls drum* TADA!

Dun feel like going back to vista as well after this, it's like a PTSD. :D windows 7 should be better. I hope.

Hanakage BL game

2011-03-08T12:42:00.012+08:00

花陰－堕ちた蜜華

花阴－浮世风华－

This game is a sequel to Hanamachi.

Official Website: Go Here

Seven years after~

Iori, the son from a prestige Samurai family strayed to become a prostitute in Hanabishi after his father commit suicide and the family business broke down. With his pride and ego, he acts stubborn against his customer, even refusing to serve them. Yet, he was in Hanabishi because he wants to protect his mother from going through hardship, and resulted in him alone carry up the responsibility to take care of the family finance. But the truth is more than that.

As for the characters introduction, it might be better if you can open this video and watch yourself. :)

My personal view is that Hanakage's art has become more beautiful than Hanamachi. Even though the character, Iori (and others) doesn't move their lips like Shuuri does in Hanamachi, the art is still beautiful to cover up for the defect. Another thing is that, most of the time, you will be reminded of similar character in this game from Hanamachi, provided that you have played hanamachi beforehand. Shuuri and seme,

東條巽 still appeared in Hanakage, but appeared seven years older. :D

Enough of cons, now for the pros/weighing for those who are deciding which one is interesting/good to play. Here are the things that you need to think of.

Uke vs

Hanamachi uke, Shuuri is a innocent, sweet uke. His appearance is just ... innocent.

Hanakage uke, Iori, is a strong-willed, stubborn uke, if you know Akihito from Finder, that's how I'd categorize him too.

I don't know how others view Shuuri as, But personally, when I first started played hanakage, I fall in love with Iori due to his strong personalized character. It is a plus point for someone who loved strong willed uke like me. However, Shuuri has matured into a beautiful and much more composed well-known prostitute after seven years in Hanakage, which is good enough for me.

Main seme vs

東條巽, is BDSM preferred?, cold-hearted but has a soft yasashii heart that is seldom shown.

桐島冬吾 is also cold hearted but is a very 专一 person, who shows only love to the main uke. In short, every cruel decision that he made is because he loved Iori, no matter how twisted the result might be.

Semes numbers vs

Hanamachi has six semes, all with HE and BE choices.

Hanakage has four main semes, Plus one seme with confirmed BE, and Plus one unexpected minor seme.

Music and BG music vs

Well, Op for Hanakage, as seen from the video is pretty good. There's a slight sad melody when you listened to it, and it's not bad for an opening. compared to Hanamachi OP, that has only rhythm.

Plot vs

Some said that Hanamachi plot is not very good. I do not know as I did not complete all the characters' line. But from what I searched, it's said that they have found a BL plot writer for Hanakage to write a proper storyline for it. I think it's good. Though some of the endings are kinda sudden.

Obviously, I biased towards Hanakage. haha.

The pairing I loved the most is Iori and Toudoro.

Game download in chinese version

here

Game download in Japanese version

here

Game walkthrough guide

here

(In chinese)

Hanakage Drama CD

here

下一站, 幸福

2011-02-10T23:13:00.003+08:00

有些人的人生，是直达车

有些人却是慢车，中间总要经过许多站，经历许多人。　

　　有人总是下错站，坐过头，不是错失了窗外风景，就是错过了身旁的人

　　没有人知道，能陪自己坐到终点站的人，究竟会是谁。

　　相爱的人，真的就能一路到达人生的终点站吗？

　　慕橙

　　一个不知道自己会在哪一站下车，也不敢任意在车上睡着的女孩，

　　光晞

　　却是一个只能坐上由司机专车接送到目的地，无法决定自己人生方向的人

　　这是一个

　　关于他们的故事

　　女主角慕橙天性善良透明，是这个世上再也找不出第二个的国宝级的纯情派，她不常掉泪，她水晶般的眼泪，具有扫净苦痛和恶欲的能力。

　　她懂得并期待真正的爱情，面对任何困难从不气馁，热情、正义，当她发现男主角任光晞保护她，并且爱上了任光晞。

　　眼看著幸福即将来临，却因为想让光晞有更大的几率活下去，慕橙为了光晞的病不得不让步。在光晞母亲的苦苦哀求之下，慕橙在光晞手术当天离开。

六年来，慕橙带著儿子小乐在花田村坚强而乐观的活著，患有第一型糖尿病的小乐是慕橙人生中最珍贵的礼物。

　　只有陪她一路走来的拓也了解，在慕橙平静的笑容之下有著深深的遗憾与感伤，没想到光晞会再次回到她的生命，面对失去记忆的光晞，慕橙只能压抑内心的悸动，为改头换面拥有美好生活的光晞送上深深祝福。

　　无意打开隐藏在幸运手环里的记忆卡，面对两人昔日相依的照片，所有失去的记忆排山倒海而至，光晞想起了慕橙，和他们之间的爱情。

　　面对光晞的埋怨怀疑，小乐的兴高采烈，以及默默陪伴的拓也。

　　幸福，将在哪里到站？

主演

　　吴建豪饰任光晞

安以轩饰梁慕橙

　　许玮甯饰何以茜

　　吴慷仁饰花拓也

　　温玄烨饰梁小乐

　　郑有杰饰许方国

　　刘亮佐饰小林律师（林世楷）

　　刘瑞琪饰方董事长（方德容）

个人评论：

很久以前就听说这个偶像剧了，也已经听过了丁当唱的 ‘我爱他’，很好听。。后来是因为想看看小小彬，所以一直抗拒台湾偶像剧的我，终于破例看了这部。

惩罚军服系列 4 - 激情军舰

2011-02-02T13:00:00.016+08:00

好啦，反正大家都知道我是风弄的忠实fan，不介意我再写一篇有关她的文吧。。嘻嘻嘻。

惩罚军服系现有5 部。但真正公开在网的我只找到4 部。。。貌似是还没写完。

惩罚军服系列之一背德假期

在假期结束之前，必须把哥哥调教到无法离开我才行！」　　从出生起就被高贵血统的光芒所笼罩，身为顶尖军校优秀生的天之骄子--孪生兄弟凌谦和凌涵，对被父母收养的长兄凌卫，一直怀着觊觎占有之心。　　孪生兄弟之间的白热化较量中，凌谦先下手为强。　　「绝不能让获得特权归来的凌涵独占哥哥！」　　充满军人气质的英俊长兄，澄净如阳光般的凌卫，在二弟凌谦狡诈技巧的胁迫下，被迫成为弟弟XX的调教对象，心理和XX，不断遭受既残忍又温柔的蹂躏。

惩罚军服系列二《危险军校》（《背德》续）（上、下）　　作　　者：风弄　　文案：　　充满了难言之隐的背德假期结束后，凌卫终于回到镇帝军校。　　两个拥有将军血统的恶魔弟弟——凌谦和凌涵，也各以不同身份进入校园，对凌卫纠缠不休，屡屡把凌卫拉入既痛苦又甘美的快感地狱。　　但为了保护心爱的哥哥，也为了让凌卫在军部拥有更好的前途，一直互相较劲的两人达成联盟，要不惜一切代价让凌卫成为镇帝特殊考试的第一名！　　「从今天开始，由我们充

当教官，好好训练哥哥！」　　体能、柔韧性、忍耐性、本能反应性…… 　　围绕凌卫展开的「全方位训练」开始，各种匪夷所思的「训练方法」，一一火热登场！

《惩罚军服系列3：欲望宫廷》作者：风弄 　　

楔子　　狭小的驾驶舱内，正进行着每日都必须坚持的苛刻训练。　　「呜────」极度压抑的，从齿缝里逸出的断断续续的XX，让驾驶舱内温度升高。　　「KV48，KI80，IN25，嗯，哥哥进步了很多，对战机上的按键越来越熟悉了。」少年一边用和年龄绝不相符的内敛语气说出夸奖，一边激烈地活动着手里的人造X具。　　「嗯──啊──啊！凌涵──呜──」赤*****着下身，在驾

驶舱内接受着调教的年轻男子，发出求饶似的X泣，却不敢稍微停下寻找按键的动作。　　「哥哥，再坚持一下，今天连续按键五百个不出错，就让你休息。」用平淡的语气安慰着，但在身体里搅动的巨型玩具，抽动得更令人无法忍受了。　　「呜──呜──！」　　有关战机的训练，自从另一个弟弟凌谦被带走后，就交由凌涵继续负责。　　每个白天，凌卫都必须依照凌涵的要求，做好书面功课，并且完成体能训练的要求

《惩罚军服系列第四部激情军舰》上下

淩衛終於成為艦長，躊躇滿志之際，卻愕然發現兩個弟弟出現在自己的艦艇上。一個是軍部特派的高級軍官，一個是為了追隨哥哥而從軍校輟學的下級士官，職位雖有高低，兩人可怕的佔有慾和勃發的熱情卻不分上下。「這可是哥哥的艦長處子秀哦。」「我想進行和哥哥歷史性的艦上第一次。」這兩個色迷心竅的家伙！居然在神聖的軍艦上隨時隨地發情，喂，昂貴的軍用設施可不是為你們下流的需求準備的！既要以艦長威嚴統領全體官兵，又要應付貪婪渴求著自己身體和心靈的弟弟們。看來，年輕英銳的指揮官要通過考驗，只有依靠他驚人的——決策力了！

惩罚军服系列 5 -

迷色联邦

我忧郁。。。

还没找到。

总的来说，这3P文，偶是比较喜欢看那H的，情节如何是大概懂。:D　攻都是霸道的，一个冷酷型，一个撒娇型，受呢。。强强咯，但最后还不是哭着求饶。哈哈。可怜的受。要读的亲们呢，到liulige 下载吧，不然到白度的文库里搜索，都能找到的。

风弄大人的最新经典长篇BL-- 金玉王朝

2011-01-28T16:37:00.005+08:00

2010！感动啊！！偶最欣赏的弄大有新作品了！！哦。。我的理解呢，是认为写的好的作家都只写一两篇经典的文章，大多数都会停了，弄大不同了，凤于九天还没完结，另一篇又有了。在她旗下的大坑文不是没有的，看了当然会心痛，但因为是她的文，我是不介意的。

这是弄大新文的开头：

“记得，弄弄在开坑前，已经先说明几点：

　　第一，开这个，是因为从未写过。

　　第二，那个时代，虽然动乱，但也有浮华奢靡的一面，没有法纪的年代堕落淫乱也有其绮丽之色，这文不写沉重。

　　第三，打死也不可能是悲剧啦！

　　第四，呃……跳吧，一定填！

　　这四点，弄弄会努力地坚持做到的。

　　喜剧啊！一定要喜剧结束！”

所以！弄大，加油！！

金玉王朝第一部完结。

Download：http://www.liulige.com/read-htm-tid-159035.html

标注类型：现代，民国，腹黑攻，别扭受

文章简介： 宣怀风简直恨死那个人了。若不是当年那家伙不知用什麼方法，竟潜进他的房裡过了一夜，他不会被父亲强迫送到英国读书，也不会……让他与真正喜欢的人分离。可在这既浮华又动盪的年代，没有人能保证谁能永远得势，当年贵為一方司令的父亲倒下了…… 而他，也从翩翩贵公子，变成阮囊羞涩的教师。就在他尝尽世间冷暖，打击连番而来之时，他喜欢的人没有出现，那个人却出现了。那个人── 当年的老同学，现在权势熏天的海关总长，白雪嵐

很喜欢这个受呢。

My rating: ☆☆☆☆☆

All my favorite novel links/recommendations part 6

2011-01-01T11:21:00.038+08:00

Woah, another new year is here. 沉溺于BL文也有一年半了。不敢想象自己已读了上百的文文。:D 还有更多的好文还没看呢。。

160。《重生之苏晨的幸福生活》

类别：重生，温馨，先虐后甜，隐忍受？校园

苏晨，男，二十九岁，生日当天，工作丢了，股票被套牢了，男朋友和别人跑了。不过此人个性凉薄，对钱财观念不重，工作可以再找，股票可能会升值，两条腿的男人满大街都是。于是，此君仍吃得香睡得好。  没曾想到一觉醒来，竟重回到高中时代！  一切重来之后，会有什么际遇？  金钱？会有的！  美男？也会有的——不过，不需要这么多吧


第一次读重生文，以为不好看，但是还很不错！ 虽然是老套的后悔 bla bla bla.. 这文是说失去和珍惜的故事，文到后面很甜蜜。;D 
My rating: ☆☆☆☆☆

161. 
《重生之扫墓》
类别：重生，温馨，先虐后甜, 误解，霸道攻。
 前世做了一辈子冤大头，终于命丧车轮下 却重生为十七岁的病弱美少年 我只不过心血来潮，想为自己扫一下墓 谁料得，竟然遇到自己上一世的仇人
My rating: ☆☆☆☆☆

162. 

报复


一次次的蹂躏，一次次的报复。。。。。。
可谁又知这里的愁肠百转。。。。。。


类别：明星记者，纠缠， 


情节预料之中。




My rating: ☆☆☆

163. 

《夏雪无晴》





类比：现代，虐心，受虐到傻，


一系列精心部署后，王晔终于捕获了情敌，和曾经叛逃而去的情人。
处置情敌轻而易举，但如何面对这畏缩在角落的单薄身影，却成为王晔的难题。
白湘宇，他当日小心翼翼爱护唯恐委屈分毫的白湘宇，曾经美如夏日下一簇耀眼的白花，为何如今伤痕累累，憔悴如斯？
惩罚的决心，在凝视那张苍白惊惶的脸时，渐渐动摇……




My rating: ☆☆☆☆☆

164. 

漂白的爱情》by 雨天
好文啊，真的是好文啊。几经波折的感情，误解背叛报复，最终都因为爱而得到了赦免。
个人觉得前几篇有些草率，但到后面虐时文笔却很好，美中不足的是没有太多的虐攻的部分，但值得一看。
吐血推荐（现代 商道 HE）
My rating: ☆☆☆☆
165.
《水滴声声
玩点灵异游戏，是无聊学生们常做的事，而我，刚入大学的新鲜人，更是乐此不疲，笔仙、碟仙，想得出来的有趣玩意儿我都试过，但什么事也没有发生，直到我和室友们四人在黑屋里玩了一个诡秘的游戏……莫名出现的第五人、清晰的水滴声和墙上的大片水渍，被狙杀的不只是玩过游戏的我们，只要住在308寝里的人都不能幸免；未知的恐惧、预知的战栗，紧紧包围着我们，停止不了的水声滴滴是死者眷恋人世的情人眼泪，还是无法哭泣的冤魂用血泪凝成的悲鸣？
强推荐！！！！！ 
A lot of unexplained and terrifying experiences/chapters. and even though it doesn't focus on BL love story, (but it does have) the gripping feeling have your eyes glued to the words all the while. And as read towards the end, and the truth is revealed one by one, goosebumps build up. It's a great story!
 My rating: ☆☆☆☆☆
166.

《妖孽横生》
十年前，三个青涩少年。一个自杀未遂，一个远走他乡，丢下丁沂一个人留守原地，承受冲动的惩罚。十年後，那两个跑掉的混蛋忽然回到他面前，全都一付释然的表情告诉他：一切都过去了，让我们忘了那件事吧，重新做朋友。可是，当丁沂信以为真的时候，才发现自己被耍了——统统是鬼话，他们从来没想放过自己！那些该还的债，债主从来没打算一笔勾销……
类别：现代，1 攻多受，受反攻？ 强强攻，冤家对头。
又是 苏特 的作品，品质我不质疑！没看简介会搞不清楚这文的主角到底是谁，谁又是攻，谁又是受？ 情节也耐人寻味，只是觉得其他的受（好多受哦）很快原谅攻，没太多虐攻部分，倒是为主角受那得不到的爱和这十七年的纠缠心疼。不错！
My rating: ☆☆☆☆☆
167。 

《惹火》作者：七优
单恋有了行动，就有了幸福　　江承泽第一眼看见吴靖亚，是个晴朗的夏天。　　一身便服，引人注意的冷漠容颜，寂寞的抽着烟。　　从来不明白什么是心动的他，却在那一瞬间找到了自己的心跳。　　而本以为他们只是无缘的陌生人，而上天却让他们有了交集……　　吴靖讨厌弱者，非常讨厌。　　因此他从来学不会同情，也讨厌那些对他有所祈求的人。　　所以他非常讨厌江承泽。 

类别：校园，现代，平凡受，渣攻?, 虐
看的我很楸心，受的执著，攻的狠心。。 HE


My rating: ☆☆☆☆
168。
《心蚀》
平凡壮硕的走江湖卖艺小厮石柱，机缘巧合之下被爱须眉不爱巾帼的翩翩浊世佳公子李承翰相中。不但三下两下被对方骗走了身，连心都忍不住为对方所侵蚀，沉沦···无奈他不知这一夕缠绵于风流成性的李大公子来说只可算是逢场作戏，过眼即忘。可怜实心眼的石柱毫不会意，傻傻地辞别了师傅，进了李家府邸，一心只想与对方长厢厮守···从李府到江湖，两人经历连番考验，到底将会何去何从？

类别：风流攻，平凡受，古代
不错的文，不是很虐，但文笔易懂。
My rating: ☆☆☆☆
168。

半熟
从小缺少家庭温暖的武志杰看似乖张霸道,实则内心脆弱,渴望关爱.当他遇到唯唯诺诺的小gay陈安居时,一时无聊,便起了逗弄的心思,利用暴力恐吓对对方的身体极尽玩弄,但在他心里,这只是男生之间的小游戏.他自以为从未将对方放在心上过,因而也不甚在意.直到有一天,他看到陈安居与别的男生走在一起,亲亲密密说说笑笑,顿感怒火中烧......而另一方面,可怜的陈安居,一直对武志杰的行为百般容忍,甚至半推半就,那么他对武志杰又到底抱有怎样的感情?这样的两颗心又该如何走近?
看那简介很吸引人对不对？哈哈，还好没让我失望。
My rating: ☆☆☆
169.

唐突美人
一个在国外生活 中文很烂 却回到中国古代去的文很特别~``也很搞笑
My rating: ☆☆☆☆☆
170.

《混混黑情》
http://www.dzxsw.cn/book/35893/
陆离就是一个小混混，他的不平凡就始于那一天，他的老大叫他奸了同属同一帮派的而且还是帮主之子的黑道大哥的孔雀。孔雀本想把他调到自己的羽翼之下再慢慢整死他，然而陆离聪明的用一点小手段换取了他的无法下手，手无法下，但心却陷落了，孔雀和陆离用着最不同寻常的方式眷恋着对方。陆离还是被利用了，被陷害被设计，但他得知真相之时却无法怨恨，因为这个男人一切都是以爱他的名义……
My rating: ☆☆☆☆
180.

《弃子》
类别：隐忍受，虐心，现代，强推荐！！！ 
他有二个情人，一个是被他捧在心上的，一个是把他捧在心上的。　　被他捧在心上的那个，自然是用上了心宠，愈发骄纵横恣，但他就喜欢他飞扬跋扈的模样，那种嚣张地扬溢著的青春神采实在光耀的眩人。　　追他追得辛苦，费尽心思才换得他一顾，愈加捧在手心上呵护。　　把他捧在心上的那个，勉强来说也不能算是情人，不过是他父亲小时候送给他的生日礼物，说好听一点儿是伴读和及至成长後现在的有力臂助，但说穿了不过是贴身仆佣和助理罢了。　　从小一起长大，也谈不上什麽感情，自然而然就习惯了，在青春期时忍不下好奇偷嚐禁果的第一次对象就是他，後来被父亲知道，他离开了一段时间，原来是他向父亲要求练习床技好随时满足自己，虚荣感和被服侍的优越感也让他多了另一种身份，固定的床伴。
看的我心楸， 看完了流泪，不要担心，HE啦，是一篇好文！！！  
My rating: ☆☆☆☆☆
181. 
《诱声魅色》作者：青罗扇子
N o b l e是家知名g ay店。神秘，高贵，奢侈，口口靡。男人们，在这相互角力、充满激 情与诱惑的圈子中，玩着征服与被征服的游戏。这是一个温柔腹黑的牛郎大叔的故事……JJ完结 出版书 哇咔咔~~ 
My rating: ☆☆☆☆
182. 
重生之名流巨星
杜云修努力动了动手指，没想到还能动弹。这令他有些吃惊，于是越发小心的试探起四肢，胳膊能伸展，没什么大问题，腿也有知觉，应该没断。
　　
　　他不禁有点不幸中万幸的感觉，毕竟当时那场车祸实在是太骇人了。
　　虽然只是一瞥，但他敢肯定开车的那个少年还未成年，车型是阿斯顿-马丁VANQUISHI，007詹姆士邦德开的那款。
　　
　　不过他也只看清这些。
　　因为下一秒他就被那个飙车少年给撞翻了。身体高高抛在空中，那种剧烈的撞击疼得他连声音都发不出来……
　　
　　劫后余生的惊喜过后，就是渐渐的淡然了。
　　他的人生还得继续。
My rating: ☆☆☆
183. 

《转角》
外热内冷自卑的小受,黑心腹攻，
My rating: ☆☆☆
184. 
一夜能有多少情

类别：现代，冤家对头，虐心，3P， 强推介！
但我还是气得发抖，“老头子怎么会教出这种儿子啊！他简直就是有爹生，没娘教啊！” 
“之信少爷你小声点呀，这句话绝对不能让雅浩少爷听见啊，他自小他妈妈就……” 
臣律师这句话还没说完，楼上就一个啤酒罐扔下来，刚好砸到我的头上。 
全场肃静三分钟。 
“鲁雅浩——！我杀了你——！” 
“之信少爷你冷静点，冷静点啊——！” 
“死男妓，你滚下来，你看我怎么干死你！滚下……” 
“哥。”在我喊的正起劲的时候，身后突然被轻拍了一下，接着传来之乐的叫声。 
“怎么？”我转过身紧张的看着他。不会是牛奶真的有毒吧。 
“这牛奶真好喝。” 
说着，之乐把手中那杯还剩一口的牛奶递给我。 
我干张着嘴久久无法言语。其实那刻，我真想趴在地上痛哭十回。 
I really liked this s tory. The descriptions and way of writing are good, unique. It's funny at the beginning but towards the middled, the heart-wrenching began. The story also made me shed tears for countless of times.. 
My rating: ☆☆☆☆☆
185. 喜新厌旧  by 敛一
主角叫杜常青（0），贺去灾（1）名字可能记不准了。。。俩人青梅竹马，0暗恋1,1大学教授风流成性，总是很迅速的喜欢上美女又很迅速的甩掉美女，然后0黯然神伤。。。对于1的风流，他自己的说法是不相信长久的爱，于是0暗自爆发，和1打赌说有这样的，于是表白，紧接着担心1和他绝交于对1下药使之生米煮成熟饭。。。于是1不理0决定和他绝交。。。中间有所纠结不过俩人确立了关系。但是1风流习惯了，而且0因为长期暗恋导致心理有问题，对1的独占欲很强。矛盾高潮是因为1在决定和0绝交时被人打伤（二人关系能够确定也是因为1受伤后0悉心照顾~使1明白自己的真心~）其实是因为0的计划，然后1愤然离家，然后0从卑微的乞求到后来把1囚禁。。。然后把1弄残（那里弄残了。。。），最后1虽然明白彼此相爱但是不能接受这种进逼的爱，于是。。。最后0疯了。。。我觉得我的剧透非常无聊非常看不下去，但是这真的是个不错的文~~希望看了我剧透不要对这文失望，可看性还是比较高的~~另外，这应该是老文了，而且作者敛一貌似只写了这一篇，我一直没有找到其他的文~~
Thanks http://tieba.baidu.com/f?kz=784798016 for the sypnosis
BE. its a BE.. Storyline is unique, but the writing is nt very good. 
My rating: ☆☆☆
186. 
《幸儿》作者：雪里红妆\
主要描写爱情与背叛的耽美故事~~本文虐身虐心，慎入~~~简介：幸儿自幼丧父，在继父的虐待下艰辛地长大，后来终于不堪忍受虐待逃走，后遇上画家沈其俊，被其收留，两人慢慢相爱，谁知沈其俊却为了获得支持一举成名，将幸儿送给某公司董事长展翔。一个月后沈其俊按照约定想把幸儿接回，然而，因为沈其俊的背叛而受到伤害的幸儿却不愿随他离开，宁肯做展翔一生的玩物…… 
My rating: ☆☆☆☆
187. 深宫囚

　　作者：鸠羽千夜
类别：古代，皇帝攻将军受，囚禁，
次次的逃脱，最终还是落在他手里。。。 
My rating: ☆☆☆☆ 
188. 

《绿石榴》
类别：校园，现代，逃离
梦里头的叶凉看着这人拿来蓝药水,预备把他已撩起的裤管再撩上去,不由自主的就往后靠,后头就是一面墙了,他已无处可去,于是硬逼着自己去开这个口:"我自己来就好……我够得着的……其实没有多疼……谢谢你了……”这人看见叶凉死死抵着墙，脸色比墙还白，整个人变成一只走投无路的兔子，就有些措手不及：原来叶凉你多少还是晓得一些了的……我还以为你什么也不晓得……他用一种又湿又热的目光直直看了叶凉一阵，轻轻将药放在叶凉面前，转身走了……
think that it can be better, the ending is abrupt, and some of the interestisng and important part, writer just briefly scribble through with a few sentences. it's quite a pity, seeing that the writer's writing skill is up-to my standard. 
My rating: ☆☆☆
189. 

《君臣》
作者：傀儡偶师
类别：古代，朝廷，黑心腹皇帝攻将军受，报仇，虐心，HE，
主角：瑞雪你是君，我是臣你要我忠诚，我给你忠诚；你要我牺牲，我为你牺牲；你要我死，我必定得死；然而，我的一切是否能够换回你一点的垂怜。在遍体鳞伤之后，你依然是我的君，我仍旧是你的臣。瑞雪，身为人臣，爱上了自己的君主。原本以为卑微的爱着就可以了，却没有想到他成为了皇帝利用的工具。当他爱的更加深，更加不能自拔的时候，这才发现所有加诸在他身上的悲剧，竟是自己所爱之人一手的杰作！呵呵，身为人臣，弑君是他所做不出的，既然如此，就让他远远的被放逐吧！再不相见对两人或许是最好的结局……也许可以不记恨，但再爱却也不能了……
I super love the ending. Well, it's a bit confusing bou the last chapter but after you read the extra chapter, it makes you think more about the story ending. 
My rating: ☆☆☆☆
190. 

《少爷的奴才》
作者：傀儡偶师
类别：奴役，古代，
“你从一开始就知道，对不对？”少爷在我怀里沙哑的问。“知道。从雨中遇见你，我就知道了。夫人一走，你就出现，太巧合……”“我骗了你。”“我心甘情愿。”“你还喝我的药？”“那又怎么样……我喝的时候，是看着你，喝的，便也是一种幸福。”“你骗我。”“你心甘情愿。”“我好庆幸，你还是你。”他抬头看我，我笑了。嫣然一笑。过往的一切，曾经的伤痕，受过的羞辱，在他的话里，都不重要了……这一切，都不重要了。
My rating: ☆☆☆
191。

《热病（SM）》
作者：傀儡偶师
主角：赵辉、孙浩这是一个真实发生的SM故事。一个不想再玩SM的小M和一个偶然找到他的小S两个人，在生活中，发生了许多平常人会发生的事情。SM部分慎入。也许很多人看过很多调教系的文章了。也许好多人已经对SM耳熟能详。我所要讲述的，都是真实发生过的事情，在我生命中的，那个特别的人。这个故事无所谓对错，也无所谓悲喜。一直到我和他终结的时刻。抑或是分手？抑或是生命直到死亡？我不太清楚终结究竟是何时何地。如此而已
 I usually wouldn't recommend a H story here, but this one, even if the title indicated SM with hinted of H, there isn't VERY explicit detailed H, but the story plot and the relationship are pretty good. 

My rating: ☆☆☆☆

192. 

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