Blair Waldorf and Angela Zhang

Angela Zhang 张韶涵

Blair Waldorf from Gossip Girl/ Leighton Meester

I'm recently watching Gossip Girl, and from the first time I watched, I had always thought that Blair Waldorf looked so much alike with Angela Zhang.

My favorite novels links/recommendation Part 2

老婆，亲亲！ 　人物图：云练

First part can be found here

38.

束缚

类别：虐心，黑道，强攻强受，

真的是虐心！！
不知不觉自己的眼泪越来越多， 冷不胜防的作者突然在Chapter尾段写下 “告诉我，你有没有流泪.....” 全 文 至少3/4，都是 留着泪看的。真是。。。强推荐!
My rating: ☆☆☆☆☆

39.

大叔，窝囊

类别：现代，大叔受，微虐，HE

大叔开了一间小商品店，平凡而悲微的活着，大叔很懦弱，爱心犯烂，小攻十八岁很有钱，

和父亲吵了一架后，离家出去，遇见大叔，并且打劫大叔，大叔不但不怪小攻，而且把小攻

安排在自家里，可是有一天小攻却把大叔QJ了，后来经历了一些事情，两人就相爱了，

可是由于大叔的自卑心理，错过了几年时间。最后也HE了，挺好看的。

写的真的是微微的虐，淡淡的幸福，主角们也很有特色。

My rating: ☆☆☆

40.

夹心生活

类别：虐心， 3P，

受升职了和朋友们去庆祝，同事给小受定了一位牛郎想叫小受快活快活，可是受却喝多了，迷迷呼呼的在马路上遇到了一对双胞胎， 双胞胎QJ了小受，自此3人开始了同居生活。 无法从双胞胎编织的网中逃离，小天从反抗到绝望，从绝望到适应，最后是怎样栽进了爱情这个深渊里，朋友的远离，只是单单作为一只宠物而活着，这样被给予的 爱情又能多长久？ 一生，就此毁灭。
My rating: ☆☆

41.

对面相思

类别：虐心，古代

林沉是一个很平凡喜欢弹琴的男孩，并不喜欢武剑，在偶然一次机会下，认识了李凤来这位风流美人，

并且被李凤来所吸引沉迷于他，但李凤来只拿林沉当替身，内心深处却爱着另外一个人，李凤来

根本就看不起林沉，只是玩弄他，说出一些极其可气的语言来伤害林沉，当林沉知道自己欺骗玩弄后，

悲痛欲绝，但也并未和李凤来分手，还是跟他交往，有一次机会林沉给李凤来下毒，并把李的手脚筋挑断，

囚禁在自己身边三年，后来有人把李凤来救了出去，当李凤来养好伤病时回来报仇时。。。却渐渐发现

自己原来喜欢林沉，以前内心的那个人早以忘掉。。。看着时候心挺酸的，挺好看。

My rating: ☆☆☆

42.
赌局 Part 1
赌局 Part 2

类别: 搞笑，古代， 情节

First few pages was similar to nong feng's “害”, because he won the uke by using a 'bet'. But different from all other yaoi that I normally read, this one did not play around their feelings, or relationship but more on the plot. Kind of similar feeling to “风于九天”, And the characters are cute and funny, always made you bursted out laughing non-stop.

My Rating: ☆☆☆☆

43.

囚鸟

类别：虐心，现代
故事内容：小受身世奇惨无比，还很倒霉的害死小攻妹妹，小攻为报复小受把他虐得死去活来，后来发现爱上小受又开始狂烈追求小受，终于小受卸下心防爱上小攻 之后竟然又被傻傻的骗离开小攻，小攻心灰意冷找回小受又开始狂虐，直到把小受虐掉大半条命之后开始觉醒，又开始努力讨好小受，还让小受反攻（汗～这里真的 很感人），后来小受恢复，两个人终于风雨后见彩虹～

To me, it's dun really got my tears. Only a little bit.. otherwise it's like a cycle going round and round.

My rating: ☆☆☆

44.

债．爱

类别：兄弟+双性人+年下+生子文
子明托著沈重的肚子从床上起来，从今天早上开始，他的肚子就开始胀痛，孩子也动得厉害，如果没猜错的话，他这是要生产了。
　　子明已经一天没吃东 西了，现在站起来也是摇摇欲坠的。他扶著墙慢慢走到厨房，给子健准备晚饭。子健最近好像很忙，好久都没有在家里吃过晚饭了，不过即便如此，子明还是会每天 子健准备晚饭，他不想弟弟突然饿著肚子回家却没有饭吃，而且这些饭弟弟就算不吃，大不了他第二天中午自己热来吃。
Strangely, this novel did not leave me an impression of 'woman' in the uke. The character development is good, there isn't much mutual love like other novels, concentrated more on the 'family' love.

My rating: ☆☆☆

45.
引狼入室 by 易人北
类别：现代
不知何时起，无尽的痛恨，变成了对那人绝对的独占欲；玩够了就毁掉他的心理，变成了要报复他一生的欲望——要他好好地活著，接受他秦我狂一辈子的报复！
他的父亲因为被人密告，死于一场枪战中，尸体更被海水泡的发胀！
他的母亲因此变得疯癫，熬了两年便离开人世，独留下满心仇恨的他！
花了三年时间，秦我狂终于查出当年密告父亲的仇人－－文勋豪，正当他想一报血海深仇时，却传来文勋豪夫妇车祸双亡的消息。
从此，一丝怨念，牢牢地系在了文家留下的独子天书身上，誓用他的血泪来填平自己的恨！
“文天书，你应该觉得骄傲，因为你是我第一个玩弄的男人，你也应该感激我没有把你交给我的手下，不过，你也不用太感激涕零，因为我只是想亲手品尝糟蹋你的感觉……”仇恨让男人俊俏的娃娃脸走了形，现在的秦我狂已经化身为复仇的鬼魅。
看文天书脸上极度屈辱的表情，使我狂报仇的心理得到了满足。这种方法要比把他揍个半死，敲断他浑身的骨头，更让他有发泄的感觉……
My rating: ☆☆☆

46.
俘虏
类别：现代
哎呀！他的新同事竟是早上在电梯里偷摸他小屁屁的大色狼！他芹生和也可要跟他保持距离以策安全才行。但是大色狼每天老是用饿了好久的眼神看他，又三餐外加 宵夜对他上下其手，最后还宣称自己得了「失忆症」，来个装疯卖傻不负责任。哼！天底下哪有这种事啊？他决定展开「反扑计画」……
为了跟暗恋十二年的和也有进一步的亲密接触，御堂馨想尽办法变成苍蝇黏在他身边。什么？他竟敢跟办公室的女同事搞暧昧，该罚！先来个咸猪手乱乱摸，再来个甜死人不偿命的吻；还想逃？干脆一不做二不休，扛起来往家里跑，来个大野狼欺负小红帽的戏码吧……
My rating: ☆

47.

燃 by 暗夜行路

类别：现代， 虐心
我第一次见那个小王八蛋的时候，他被人揍得鼻青脸肿，一脸肮脏，嘴角挂着血，正在酒吧后面的胡同里，坐在地上靠着墙喘着粗气。他的白衬衫又破又脏，领结歪 在一旁。我看到了刚刚的过程，对他嗤之以鼻，欠债不还，打死也是活该。本来这种事我才懒得再理，不过可惜，我是这酒吧的老板，他把我发他的制服弄烂了。

Quite special, in that the story is using the seme's POV.
My rating: ☆☆☆☆

48.

爱恨萧遥

Read this a few months ago, the plot and writing isn't really good but the H and SM is REALLY high. One of the techni that I remembered the most is the rocking horse.

My rating: as mentioned above.

49.
《被禁锢的男人》 by 作者：妖妖ka

类别：囚禁，现代，强攻弱受
At first glance, this book has the same title as my last one in the first part, but the story is different at closer look. Plot is good, characters are good, what I liked is also the little quotes here and there at the end of the story. But... because it is too lengthy, i kinda get tired as the story gets till the end where the seme and uke are separated due to family pressure (because you know they are going to be together anyway!)

欧阳湛想拉住他，却发现，自己无法做到。

无法阻止他。只能看著他离去。

他不在乎自己这次损失了多少钱，只在乎，丢了他。

而这次，他不知道，自己是否真的能做到原谅。

My rating: ☆☆☆
50.

不要..... 1+2 番外by不详

序
白净的少年躺在同样雪白的大床上，嘴被布料堵得严严实实，双手、双脚被四副手铐牢牢的拷在床上。
男人的手覆上他的腰，唇上浮出一抹淡淡的笑——没错，被他束缚在床的男人是他这两年的床伴，他甚至爱上了他，可是……他在接触他后的半个月就知道，他是个卧底，是个欲将他送进监狱的卧底的事实！?
贴到他耳边，轻声的说：“昨天晚上……忘记告诉你，那是……我们的最后一夜。不过，好象你已经这么想了？呵……”
——他知道，他今天要把得到的证据送去局里，他甚至在最后一刻都希望他不要那么做，可是——他没有。
手向下滑去，隔着裤子握住了对方的要害，他在发抖……浑身都在发抖，他知道……眼前的男人有多可怕，可是他现在连求饶都没办法。
“听说你从警校出来就开始做卧底，因此女朋友都快跟你吹了，这次是最后一次吧？把我毙了你想怎样？娶老婆生孩子？呵呵……”握紧。
“唔——！”
“你知道伤害我的下场吗？”脸上笑容依旧，但手上的力道却更重了，“你的一切都是我给你的，是我让你活到今天……懂吗？”
他甚至要疼昏过去，血已经从裤子的布料中渗出来，他终于放开了手，他站了起来，伸手进裤兜掏出一把水果刀，在他俊俏的脸上比画。
“你让我从哪里开始？”
……?

51.

《轻风过》

类别：虐心，强攻弱受
容……嘉毓！
这个名字像惊雷一般，突然间劈进原政毫无预警的心中！
学生时代那一段掩埋的过去，只有他知道那个天才少年和流言攻讦的完全不同，天真单纯和极度害羞让这个少年在他眼里完全不构成任何威胁。
自己一直是站在顶点的，哪里知道作梦都想要的机会，却被这个少年轻易夺走。不可原谅不能原谅，于是他折辱了他，摧毁了他。从此这个少年天才销声匿迹，像一颗运气不佳的流星，还没有发出光芒便已然消失。
再见到他时，原政已经功成名就，当年纤细美丽的少年却变成呆板拘谨体型瘦弱的高中教师，而且……彷佛忘了当年那件事，忘了他这个人？
一个人的心竟能够如此宽广，没有残留一点点恨意吗？蓦然升起一股不快，在他的三十五年的人生经历中，一直都是众人瞩目的焦点，还从来没有人能够将他原政遗忘得如此干净！

TOO SHORT FOR ME!!! I wished there is more because it is really good. T_T

My rating: ☆☆☆☆

52.
不是狗，是爱人ＢＹ爱之舞者
类别：调教，SM
爱他，所以不惜把自己变成修罗，踏足黑道，只为找到他。可是他看到他的第一眼就要跳楼自杀？！于是，决定，哪怕把他调教成狗，也要他留在自己身边！！

REALLY HIGH HHHH!!

My rating: ☆☆☆

53.
你流泪时我会哭 by 暗夜行路

类别：虐心，现代

Read this some time ago but I give up halfway because it's boring, now I picked it up again and read it because I knew this author is a good one. Only to realize that it IS good. :) And what's more is that this author seems to love write from seme's POV.

My rating: ☆☆☆

54.
下课后的契约
类别：虐心，师生
明明能力不差、薪水不低，大学教师周枫却卖了自己，陆铭清除了感到愤怒与不解，更因为心中的一点在乎，最后决定买下周枫。
这一买一卖，付出的应该只有金钱与身体，却都不经意将契约刻入了心，究竟这一纸契约，到头来是会逼出真心，还是迫得两人选择分离？
My rating: ☆☆☆

55.
老婆，亲亲！ 　作者：落雪寒烟

类别：BE，虐心，黑道，
文案：连成四大家族之一的少爷是从国外留学归来的高材生，由于对爱情的绝望和亲情的失望，心灰意冷，自甘堕落，成为恶魔，缘分的牵引使他遇到了天 使般纯美、温柔、善良的少年，他这一生中的真爱，这场狼与羊的对峙，恶魔与天使的爱情斗争，到底会有怎样的结果，请细看本文，答案自然揭晓。

哭啊！！！ It's Bad ending. Not only lots of the characters dead, the main couple died too. T_T
My rating: ☆☆☆☆

56。要定了你 作者: 金芹
不过是不小心将古董表遗留在澳门的饭店，居然特地寄来回机票请他去领，这种好康的事情人人都知道有鬼，只有向予恩不知道……

没想到现在饭店服务这么好，领完表，不但有总统套房供他休息，还有大餐随他享用……怎知，给他的红酒竟有四肢无力的副作用，正好让深夜到访的黑道老大享受「自助式无限吃到饱」──嘴下留人！他到底犯了什么错？

什么？竟然有人敢抢他的男人！颜面扫地的雷靳立刻在道上发出绝命追杀令……费了九牛二虎之力，逮到的却是对方的双胞胎哥哥，送他上西天的计画只好临时喊停，紧急改成「弟债兄还」……

good. rather sweet. ^^
My rating: ☆☆☆

57. 男儿也会流泪 作者：易人北

类别：虐心，古代，强荐
如果可以，我好想把你帶走，把你藏起來，讓誰也見不到你，找不到你！那時你是不是就是我的彖了……只是我的！
他曾允諾永不再踏進宮闈一步！如今為了那同母異父、地位尊貴的弟弟，他不得不破誓地再回宮廷之中，只是為了守護那一別十三年、不能相認的弟弟。
然，什麼時候起？他對他不再只是單純的兄弟情、不再是單純的手足愛，他該拿這份變了質的情如何是好？
　　看到彖從沒見過的溫柔表情，唐池的心臟像突然被人擰了一把。
　　「好芬兒，妳還真是懂得朕的心思。妳怎麼知道朕今日想要在外用膳？」走過去，攙扶起地上的賢妃，挽著她向花園中走去。
　　「臣妾猜的。因為皇上昨晚說這兩日天氣甚好，梅雨又剛過，所以臣妾便想……」
　　第一次，唐池覺得那細細柔柔的聲音是如此刺耳，想要捂上耳朵不去聽，卻不能不聽！第一次，唐池如此痛恨自己身為侍中郎，不得不隨時跟在皇帝身邊保護的身分，想要轉身離去不再跟在二人後面，卻又不能不跟！
不要去想不該想的事，守在他的身邊，好好保護他，讓他平平安安、健健康康的活到老，這樣就可以了。……

It's really good. T_T
My rating: ☆☆☆☆

58.
秘密关系 by 尾崎南
类别：现代
“——自己张开腿。” “你……” 我想不到他会有这种要求，一股无法如愿的欲望在身体内奔窜。 腿？张开？我自己？ 我说不出话来，克久很淡然地说道： “膝盖竖起来，张开……让我看看你所有的地方。” 咚……眼前一片错暗。我想象着那种姿态，不禁羞得面红耳赤。 “——做不到吗？” 漆黑又澄澈，看似冷漠的眼睛这样问我。

很甜蜜的。。

My rating: ☆☆☆

59.
终于花开 by 闪灵
类别：黑道，囚禁，
“嘶”的一声，雪白的衬衫应声而裂，裸露在众人面前的，是林雨明只穿了一件小背心的上身。早春微凉的空气和他身后冰冷的大理石贪婪地触上了他赤裸的肌肤，直到这一刻，他仿佛才如梦中初醒，shen体不由自主地颤抖起来，竟如一片狂风中的落叶。
程旭成功的捕捉到了他眼中忽然升起的惊惧，是的！就是要这样！他大步地走上去，在他的面前停住，毫不留情地拉住他身上仅存的背心，粗暴地双手一分，顷刻之间，……衣衫尽褪。
“不！不……”一声绝望的呻吟终于从他的双唇中溢了出来：“你要……做什么？”
“做什么？” 程旭面无表情，“两百万的货物，我起码该验一验货！”
肆无忌惮地打量着他清涩的shen体，线条精致的锁骨，因为挣扎而曲线尽现的脖颈，他忽然惊觉自己喉咙发干，该死！
下一刻，他的手已狠狠地攥上了他的下巴：“你太瘦了，这让我很不满意。因为……”他棱角分明的俊脸上浮起恶魔般的冷酷：“我怕撑不到他们侵犯你十次，你就会死掉

My rating: ☆☆☆

60.
色狼上错床 by 桃桃
类别：轻松，现代

「你不要离开我啦！你也不准赶我走！」唐祖宁暗哑的哭音叫着。
　　林杰轻笑：「那要看你的表现啊。」
　　唐祖宁爬起身子，用力搂住林杰。
　　「你叫我想清楚。那太难了，很多东西想不清楚的。我只知道我离不开你了，也不许你离开我，更不许你去找别人。你的男朋友是我，只有我！不许你花心！不许你对别人好！你是我一个人的，就只可以跟我好！」
　　林杰越听，心越涨满，唐祖宁这充满占有欲的情感，不就是爱吗？怎么这小笨蛋还不明白呢？
　　「那你呢？你规定了我这么多事，你自己呢？」
　　「我当然比照办理啊！」唐祖宁吸着鼻子理所当然地说着。
　　「你自己说的喔，我可没强迫你喔。你愿意这辈子就这样跟我过吗？」
　　「当……当然……」
　　「你家人怎么办呢？」
　　对喔……家人……
　　唐祖宁摇摇头说不知道。

I REALLY like it. ^-^ It's cute and funny, and described the relationship well.
My rating:☆☆☆☆☆

61.

《小白受骗记》

类别：小白受，古代/江湖
爹爹续弦的当天，
齐严对韩白一见钟情，
许下一生承诺。
十二年后，
齐严依旧执着，
小白却已经忘了个干净
所幸未来岳母帮他使了点小小花样，
让心上人主动投入了怀中。
Very funny
My rating:☆☆☆☆

62.
随爱沉沦
作者：天涯客
类别：SM， 虐心，现代
圣心孤儿院院长的办公室虽然装饰精美豪华气派，但当蓝跃走进来时，所有的华丽摆设在他面前都变得黯淡无光了。
沙发上的两位贵客惊讶得瞪直了眼，心里都在感叹一个十三岁的柔弱少年怎么能长得这么清秀这么精致。
。。。
Maybe it's because I'm already used to all the nue wen. I don't feel much feelings about it. though I'd admit that the way the writer described and nue the uke is pretty bad.
My rating: ☆☆☆☆

63。
攻受定律
类别：小白受攻，校园
攻？受？
名字可以决定一切？
还是此定律坚不可破？
……
Did not finish this because can't stand the stupidness/naiveness of both. = =
My rating: ☆☆

64.
告诉你, 我有所谓

类别：虐心，
主角：谢沐阳、谢承阳
A和B是长得并不相像的双胞胎，A是哥哥B是弟弟。
B从初中开始暗恋A，一直暗恋了十多年……
最后HE OVER……

It's a very good popular story recommended strongly by everyone. :) I'd say the writer's writing is very good.

My rating: ☆☆☆☆☆

65. 《变身》作者：甲小毒

暗恋，告白，拒绝，被痛殴强上……
十 八岁的林毅，一 颗 脆 弱的心，就这 么碎在漫天雨幕中。
即使失恋，日子还是要过下去。
林毅一觉醒来，发现身边躺着昨天才刚拒绝自己告白的王子！
诡异的是，王子老了，而且镜中的自己顶着一张陌生人的脸！
这是怎么回事？
难不成穿越了时空、与他人灵魂互换？
搞清楚状况后，林毅胆战心惊的扮演好「冯其让」的角色──
王子的同居情人，另一方面想找到十年后的自己。
就在林毅沉浸于自我幻想中时，围绕在他身边的大魔王和噩梦再度出现……

微微的 nue，故事的情节很值得回味。HE


My rating: ☆☆☆☆

66.

二分之一出租

作者：甲小毒
为逃避过去的枷锁，
徐成荣选择躲藏在这偏僻隐密的公寓；
离家出走只为实现梦想的邵献，也看上了这旧便宜的住所。
从此怀疑，到进入对方领域。
才华洋溢、热情活发的邵献，
让徐成荣有了再爱一次的勇气。
然过往的梦魔却紧逼而来，
他的心从中被割分成二分之一，
一边占满希望，一边则是逝去的爱……
结束一段感情，
再鼓起勇气展开新恋情究竟需要多少时间？
幸福，真是每个人都能追求？

My rating: ☆☆☆

67. 非暴力不合作

其实我已经得到他，已经是我能得到的最大部分。
只是和我原先的计算和料想有偏差。
我原本的计划是，要让他出自于自己心意地全身 心信任、依赖我。
现在看来，我怎样尽力，也只能无限接近我的目标。
也许我一生也达不到。
也许可以。
不过，无论何 种情况，都不能让他知道我到底做过些什么。
不能让他知道他现在的一切都是我给的，他的所有都在我掌控之中，除了那唯一的一样他自己的东西。
不 能给他运用那唯一的东西向我反击的机会。
一旦那样，我就会一败涂地，永远地失去他。
尽我所能地对他好，给他他所需要的温暖。
他 会觉得暗和冷是因为我，所以他也只能从我这里汲取光和热。
一辈子这样爱他。永不放手。

My rating: ☆☆☆

68.

别叫我弟弟

“何恺你这个笨蛋，有谁家兄弟会像你我这样拥抱，这样亲吻的。 我讨厌你讨厌你，我不要做你的弟弟，死都不要。”

My rating: ☆☆☆

耽美类别归类

我喜欢的多数是QJ （囚禁），虐心， 校园，现代，黑暗，黑道，黑腹攻，平凡受，美攻，小白受，有时也喜欢强受， 古代 和 穿越。

攻：
指同性爱中居主导位者，亦即是主动的一方。
  总攻 
不论对象是谁，总是只攻不受的角色。
  鬼畜攻 
SM系，多会使用道具，虐待对方的精神和身体，并让人害怕。
  隐鬼畜攻
隐性的鬼畜攻，又可称腹黑攻。
  玩具攻 
把受君当成玩具的攻，很无情。
  王样攻 
会使唤受帮他做事的攻君，同有女王攻或帝王攻之称。
 无邪气攻
经验很少的爽朗攻君。
  强气攻 
个性强悍的攻君。
  好人攻 
如字面上意义，又有善人攻之说。
 年下攻 
同性恋爱中，由年纪较小的那方担任攻君。
 美人攻
长相美型，漂亮的攻君。
 乙女（おとめ）攻 
指外型弱美，貌似少女，性格温婉的攻君。
 伪受 
伪装成受的攻方，到了床上便变成攻，而原本的攻则变成受


受：
指同性爱中居受导引位者，亦即是被动的一方。
 总受 
不论对象是谁，总是当受的角色。
 天然受
很单纯、没有表里性格，过度钝感的受君。
 健气受 
较阳光、健康、活力型的受君。
  强气受 
个性强悍的受君，让人攻了以后有征服感。
  弱气受 
比较女性化、较有情绪、有点内向或柔弱型的受君。
诱受 
诱惑他人攻自己的受君。
 女王受 
受的个性就像女王一样高傲且充满优势，不得不让人臣服於其魅力之下。
  鬼畜受 
SM系，多会使用道具，以被攻方虐待为快感的受君。
 腹黑受 
外表温柔善良、体贴攻君，其实内里坏心眼，存心积虑要成为攻君的受君。
 娘受 
指行为女性化的受君。
傲娇受
实际上个性很温柔而且喜好朋友，但经常装作冷酷而不跟人打交道的姿态。以强硬的口气掩饰害羞或其他内心真实想法。简单的说就是“外冷内热”。

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Patients and doctors BS

HIV- a short form of human immunodeficiency virus that causes AIDS. HIV is a virus, while AIDS is a disease. Having AIDS doesn't mean that you're dying soon but it will lead you to death. HIV destroys your immune systems, specifically your CD4+ killer cells. Our normal CD4 level are about 500 to 1000 cells per µL or more but in these patients their level dropped down to lower than 500. When this happened, they are prone to infections. Their immunity became so poor that even a small flu can kill them.
HIV transmission are through three routes, 1. unprotected sexual intercourse, 2. blood transfusion/sharing needle, 3. vertical route (mother to child in pregnancy)
HIV positive patients are able to lead a normal life is they follow the precautions and medications prescribed by doctor. They needed to take medications twice a day with a period of 12 hours in between, which means if they take it at 8am, they will take another one at 8pm. They have their own medication time; it differs from one individual to another.
The time for medication must follow the specific time they had set out since the first time. It is crucial for them to follow the medication on time everyday.

They shouldn't miss even a minute in taking them. Even a delay of ten minutes will cause the virus to develop resistances towards that medication, causing the virus to replicate. When that happened, the medication will eventually become ineffective and that's when you have to go on to the second line of medication. Second line of medication usually consists of more side effects, a much more severe one that will damage your organs. There is no cure for HIV. And there is not much drugs/medicine available for anti-viral, especially HIV. But they are able to lead a normal life if they managed it well. Some are able to live through seven to ten years.

For today's lecture, we were taught of how to break this kind of bad news to the patients. The doctor said that eventually, we will have to deal with this kind of things, and one day, the MO will just ask you to tell the patients about this bad news. I can kind of imagine it myself, no experience, with the report on my hands, walking and facing the patients. You'll feel nervous. But at the same time, you really dont want to just crush the patients' and family's hope with that 'I'm sorry to tell you that blah blahblah.' We'll see lots of death later in our life. I heard from the doctor telling about how a patient jumped down from the hospital 7th floor after hearing his report. I heard about how a orang asli (who were used to living in the jungle) who jumped down from the second floor of the hospital because he did not know that he was in a building. I watched a real video about how the orang asli in my country refused treatments in a hospital because of his belief that he might die in the hospital and a past experience that a friend of him died in the hospital after going there. I heard about how a patient tell a doctor about a secret that other people might not know, that he/she did not even dare to tell other people about.

Apart from all the knowledge we must muster, we are told to have to learn how to deal with the patients' feelings etc. We must try to give them some spaces of hopes and supports. but sometimes, there are limit that we would reach. Yes, doctors are human too. Just like you and me. Sometimes, you just have to be mechanical/not to be too attached to the patient. Else, you'd lead a sad life.

风弄的作家文集

I finished nearly 70 percent of her works, so might as well write something about it. :) The order is written from my top favorite, descending down to the least.

The most top top recommended is 凤于九天.
经典到没话说。运用上了科学，物理，化学，文学，古代战争策略。 真佩服弄风大人的思想能力， 可是这还没完结。 T_T

并非阳光

昔日黑道大族败落，天真任性，从出生那天起就被千万人捧在掌心的何家幼子君悦，在失去父兄的庇护后，顷刻一无所有。而曾经的恋人兼保镖，英俊夺目的安燃，却以其过人的手段成为了新的黑道帝王。君悦隐姓埋名，决定逃..

This is the book that I first read actually. The very first one that got me into reading this. It was a great friend from AF who recommended me into this. At first, because I had never touched chinese novels, it made me a little awkward to read it. But I got feelings very fast, due to the fact that it suits my taste. Angst. :)

玩具的秘密
与娱乐公司签下终身合约的律，在进入公司那天，被少爷京田宣布为私人拥有的玩具。两人的关系，随着主人和玩具之间展开的身体纠缠，焕发出丝绸般叵测的暧昧光华。任性又强势的京田少爷，深深喜欢上总被自己欺负得泫然...

玩具的野心
想，永遠和少爺在一起……毫不留情地拒絕那些投懷送抱的漂亮藝人們的少爺，是否會對自己這份不敢道出的野心深惡痛絕？小心翼翼的律，在京田強悍執著的佔有和調教下，苦苦忍受著自己想獲得少爺所有愛意的妄想。與此同...

This two books are together. One reason why I love this series is that the weak cute uke 律, gives you a feeling of wanting to adore him endlessly. He's the kind of 小白。and the seme is the kind of 霸道.

不要不要放开我
谁说长得瘦小柔弱就一定是受？虽然我段地在家里老是被弟弟欺压，到了学校还要忍受孔文的性骚扰，看起来是百分之百的小受典范，但这些都是假像！我忍气吞声、忍辱负重，为的就是等毕业证书到手，然后逃到很远很远很远.

I first thought that this is a angst book, but it turned out that i was wrong. This is another book that's similar to the 玩具 series above. It's another cute couples. :) yes, there are two couples in this book. A funny and cute plot.

悲惨大学生活
阳光一样的灿烂笑容，无论遇到什么坏事都乐呵呵的样子。长著一副时下流行的、让女孩尖叫的面孔，无法让任何人对他发脾气的帅哥。高大帅气，身材一流，光彩夺目的何永祺。这是他的表哥，也是他的大学室友。只是，这只..

Love this book because it's a relaxing book. :) if you want to take a break from angst, this book is great.

地狱之虐

SM. T_T T_T oh gosh, but there were a couple of pages that were removed by the authorities. I bet it's the nosebleeding scenes. Haha, anyway, great great. I must admit this is really good.

未曾忘记

AHHHH, unfinished work. T_T I love this book. Two really cold semes and a uke who's strong and not wanting to succumb to their doings. The kind of 'punishment' was too strong imprinted in my head, can't get it out. T_T

害

This one is similar to the book above, except that there is only one seme and the seme didn't really know that he loved the uke in the first place. He tried to bind the uke down with all the techniques he could find, threatening of his family, friends. etc... and until the end when he finally know that he wanted the 'love' from the uke, it was too late. The uke hated him till the heart. The ending is unexpected, can't give out the spoiler here, but haha, I can still remember it. :)

不能动

The LEGENDARY angst-est book. T_T Wacau. I was like... 'impossible', for this kind of plot is really impossible. so, i didn't really dropped too much tears about it. The kind of plot that make me dropped tears are those that are more trended towards the real life situations. Anyway, I still love the book, especially the seme. He's really determined about the uke(s), both the dead and undead one. ..

奴才

Love this one. :lovelove: why? because it's another weak uke. :XD: :lol: and kind of thickheaded too. :) anyway, the plot that leave the most impression isn't how weak he is, but how angsty it gave me. 'I remembered you never cried like now, so quietly, since when did you become like this?', and the part when he was tied in the pole in the midst of snow land, nearly frozen to death.... it was so sad...

太子
This is another part from the book above, characters are inter-related. A angst book, describing about the other seme (who's the emporer) and his love for another seme.

我是一只狗

Hmmm... I wouldn't say this is a good book, for me. The uke is a retarded... a sad story.

血夜
A 3P story. A happy ending. :) if you never discovered the part when the author admitted that she wanted to burn one of the two people to death. T_T

与爱无关

don't really remembered much about the ending... Just remembered that the seme cheated the love on uke only because he wanted a revenge because his father abandoned him for the uke's mother.. something like that..

背德假期
惩罚军服系列2危险军校

There's another new series going on recently. This 3P and incest, even though the uke didn't really have a blood bond between the other two semes. indication of SM.


袭警
拒捕

A series as well. Lol. Both are strong seme and strong uke, which leads to their fighting because the uke didn't like being the 'woman' and 'restricted' with chains and violence everything the seme takes him. We didn't know the reason until the end that the story revealed the seme has a disorder. :XD: and the second part tells us how the uke overcomes/conquered the seme's disorder.

凡人歌

A struggle of love between two boys since schooling. The uke 赵亚 love a boy named 徒颜 but separated school。At the same time, there is another seme named 张瑞 who loved him too in school. 亚 and 颜 were happily together, but not exactly having a relationship. Misunderstanding begins to tear them apart days by days when they showed affections for each other. Until one day, 颜's mother saw the uke kissing a photo of her son. Everything changed. The seme was sent out of country for study. The uke's school and study started dropping. Even with the help of 瑞, he couldn't get himself to forget about his love. He realized he could no longer hide his study performances from his parents when they decided to pay a visit to him. But what came in the end is nothing. His parents passed away in an accident on the way there. Shocked, desperate, sorrow eats him. He shoved off 瑞 in his mist of sorrow, only to find out 颜 returned to the country and had a unspeakable relationship with him the night before. The first words that came out of his mouth had sent the seme off angrily. His mother saw them all.
The uke dropped out from school, leave the house, and started a life at a new place.
He graduated and got into a company, where he met up with 瑞 once more. They decided to go out together, with the seme trying to make him forget the other seme, knowing that deep inside, uke still never forget about him.
颜 came back. Uke was scared. He couldnt make a decision, remembering the promise he had made with 瑞 that he will love him. He couldn't betray his trust, yet he couldn't force himself to forget about 颜. Finally, he decided to leave the decision to god. Whoever stayed in the end in his house, he will follow him.
When he saw 颜 in his house, he finally realized what was wrong. The 'love' he had been holding onto are only memories of the past. What's important are the love that he is having now....

>>> 蓝淋的作家文集

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建议以此顺序阅读
　　这是第一部分 这些作品之间存在人物联系~

01、双程1 归途 陆风，程亦辰
　　02、双程2 殊途 陆风，程亦辰
　　03、双程3 如果 陆风，程亦辰
　　04、双程4 房客 陆风，程亦辰
　　双程番外：简单年代 陆风，程亦辰
　　贪欢一晌 陆风，程亦辰
　　-----------------------------------------
　　双程之曲径BY 七七（蓝大的兄弟之作）秦朗，程亦晨（程亦辰
　　的弟弟）
　　双程之彼岸BY 七七 秦朗，程亦晨（程亦辰的弟弟）
　　-------------------------------------------
　　05、无处可寻 单行本 卓文扬，林竟 未完结
　　06、不可抗力(上) 单行本 谢炎，舒念
　　07、不可抗力(下) 单行本 谢炎，舒念
　　08、兄有弟攻(上) 单行本 骆邵恭，骆邵友 兄弟恋
　　09、兄有弟攻(下) 单行本 骆邵恭， 骆邵友 兄弟恋
　　10、迟爱(上) 单行本 柯洛，李莫延（LEE） 假戏真做
　　11、迟爱(下) 单行本 柯洛，李莫延（LEE） 百转千回
　　12、逆风而行(上) 单行本 肖玄，欧阳希闻 师生恋
　　13、逆风而行(下) 单行本 肖玄，欧阳希闻 挽回爱情
　　14、无非爱恨 詹落，温庭域 律师文
　　15、期待度 单行本 徐衍，颜可 明星情缘
　　16、非友（上）单行本 杜悠予，钟理
　　17、非友（下）单行本 杜悠予，钟理
　　18、边躲边爱（A.S.A.P） 徐佐正，方其 安志洛，韦可东
　　19、难言之欲(上) 单行本 肖蒙，林加彦
　　20、难言之欲(下) 单行本 肖蒙，林加彦
　　21、非卖品 单行本 叶修拓，林寒 后知后觉
　　22、意外事故 容六，肖腾 未完结
　　23、君子之交（上、中、下）任宁远，曲同秋
　　24、君子之交(续-童话)HE 任宁远，曲同秋
　　25、错觉 段衡，乔四（待编辑） 未完结 http://blog.sina.com.cn/s/blog_4a0e74e70100cjrz.html
　　26、潘多拉的魔盒 多个CP，双程+无处可寻续，另有相关角色出场 未完结
　　

这是第二部分
　　01、不可不爱 许尉御，承昊
　　02、请勿靠近 章咛，李至炫 未完结
　　

第三部分

　　01、101十一楼 一唯，咛浩
　　02、十一楼之哭泣的狼之子（十一楼的番外） 杨苛自述
　　03、拒绝，救赎 平卓原，平卓介 古文 坑
　　04、深沈的河流 ？，修里 背景是西方，坑
　　05、天真无邪 若典，钱笙池 坑
　　06、狼的报恩 杨修远，路非 短篇
　　07、骗子和我 李少非，萧慎，纪念 两攻一受
　

双程

Was mentioned already in my previous post.

无处可寻

This is unfinished work. T_T so, didn't leave me much impression.

不可抗力

mentioned too. Love this two books for buying my tears.

兄有弟攻

Just finished. The seme is a thickheaded uke, nonetheless a cute plot.

迟爱

For this kind of love, the uke 柯洛 is determined about the other seme that he loved, but the uke who was from 不可抗力 was in love with the other seme he liked. Sadly, LEE was desperately in love with 柯洛 despite his knowing that 柯洛 couldn't give up 舒念. It was an unrequited love for both 柯洛 and LEE. Their determination for each other hold on until the end of the second part. It was cute, and I couldn't help but think 'this is more like it.' with tears of happiness for them.

非友完整版加番外

一场音乐酒会的混迹，钟理与小学玩伴杜悠予重逢，相隔近二十年，在不同世界打滚的两人重温了旧谊。
　　不听话坏小孩的外表、少根筋的粗人个性，让钟理从小就替杜悠予背黑锅；而杜悠予外表的温柔无害，也总让钟理认定自己活该。
　　直到被杜悠予「拆吃入腹」，钟理心底的警铃终于大作，可他真能抗拒得了杜悠予的节节进逼吗？

Hmm... 介绍了很多人物角色，先看了。 两人分分合合。最后是因为听闻杜悠予的爱情史，使钟理彻底对他失望，故事进入高潮。看杜悠予如何使钟理重新接受他。

非卖品

This is kind of short... and gave me a so so feeling because I kind of forgot the plot after I read it. A male who bought a MB， 叶修拓 for a one night stand because the person who he liked couldn't love him back. But when that person returned his feelings, 林寒 有点动摇了。但是，当他发现自己对叶修拓 念念不忘时，惊觉原来最爱的人才是他。可是，自己的不确定，反而使 叶修拓 无法只接他的客。。。
Plot that draws my attention the most is that the ending let us wonder what other occupation the seme is.


Love love love this. :)

逆风而行

The uke is the seme's teacher. They got together quite often n walked closely to each other, mostly it was because the seme staying over at his house, for study, eating, etc. He lied to the uke about his family's poorness while the fact is that his family background is really strong. As time passes by, the uke realized that he had fallen deeper and deeper for the seme which he knew it was forbidden given their student-teacher relationship and the fact that the seme is still under-aged. But they succumbed to it. When one day, the uke found that about the lie of his family, and was about to ask him about it, he overheard another lie. The seme was only playing around with his 'love'. It hurts him straight to his heart and left the seme. He was forced to resign from the post too because of his claims that the uke seduced an underaged teenager. Angry and sad, the uke left the school. The seme came back to look for him, countless of times, to the point that the uke given in to him. The seme asked him out at one night.
When uke went to meet him, he found out that he was tricked, being beaten by a gang. He later found out that it was an order from the uke. (the fact is that they only called '肖少爷' and they were referring to the seme's brother) The beating had left him scars, and damages that could not be cured.
Years later, he met the seme again. Bearing that scars in his heart, he did not dare to be too close to him. He tried to date a new person, but he still could not forget him. In the end, they still broke up because rumor is that the seme seduced his 'bf'.
He re-entered for the lecturer post in university, and got selected in T uni. There, he met 林竟, 卓文扬. shocked by 林竟's confessions, he rejected him.
The seme still came looking for him every now and then. Until one day when he saw his engagement on the news, he couldn't stand it and threw cruel words to make him leave. He begins to meet up with dead ends again in works, police, etc... He thought of the seme's works again years earlier, the same methods.
The seme came back for him. They tried to talk in the car, and suddenly a gun shot was heard, the seme was hurt. He was rushed to the hospital. The uke finally found out that it was his brother's works all along, even the beatings six years ago were not the seme's fault....

无非爱恨

当他灰心得一声不吭离开的时候，还以为自己这一辈子，就不会再被人背叛了。
哪知道，居然会被同一个人伤害两次。真是够了，他是个大傻瓜……
一场意外的审判，让原本形影不离的学长和学弟，由亲密好友反目成仇。
数年后，温庭域成为了法庭上的必胜律师，过着日夜颠倒的忙碌生活；而詹落──那个曾经要好的学弟，却在此时再度出现。。。

《期待度》单行本

徐衍，演艺圈的天之骄子，一出道就挟带着家族势力与财力的护航，再加上自身的实力，声势如日中天。颜可，徐衍身边的小助理，为了生活与理想而委曲求全待在演艺圈。
在他人口中听到颜可的悲伤过往，非但没有激起徐衍任何的同情心，反将此事当作试探颜可脾气底线的把柄。日益微妙的相处中，以「不抱期待，就不会受伤」来面对一切伤害的颜可，对徐衍，真的没有任何期待吗？

A．S．A．P──Always永远
“进来。”
我推开门：“在勇哥你找我？”
俞在勇算是整个DWI上下最看得起我的人了。我也喜欢他，虽然已经是元老，可从不摆架子，比如总让我叫他在勇哥而不是前辈。
“可东，来，这边坐，我给你们介绍一下。”他拍拍左边的沙发，“这是安志洛，DWI未来最好的SINGER，这是可东，别看年纪小，在公司也呆了挺长一段时间了，办事可稳妥著呢。安志洛，以後你的伴舞队的事情就由他来负责。”
Short but sweet. :)

十一楼
Okay... it's a good fic but not very detailed/sad.

画心 (电影《画皮》原声带)

作曲：藤原育郎 作词：陈少琪
歌手：张靓颖

看不穿 是你失落的魂魄

kàn bú chuān shì nǐ shī luò de hún pò

Oblivious to your dispirited soul

猜不透 是你瞳孔的颜色

cāi bú tòu shì nǐ tóng kǒng de yán sè

Unaware it was in the colour of your pupils

一阵风 一场梦

yī zhèn fēng yī chǎng mèng

A gust of wind; a waking dream

爱如生命般莫测 (爱是生命的莫测)

ài rú shēng mìng bān mò cè (ài shì shēng mìng de mò cè)

Love, like life, ever so full of mysteries (Love is life’s deepest mysteries)

你的心 到底被什么蛊惑

nǐ de xīn dào dǐ bèi shí me gǔ huò

Your heart, what has bewitched it so?

你的轮廓在黑夜之中淹没

nǐ de lún kuò zài hēi yè zhī zhōng yān méi

Your outline fades into the dark night

看桃花 开出怎样的结果

kàn táo huā kāi chū zěn yàng de jié guǒ

Look at the peach blossoms, what fruits will it bear?

看着你抱着我

kàn zhe nǐ bào zhe wǒ

I watch you embrace me

目光似月色寂寞 (目光比月色寂寞)

mù guāng sì yuè sè jì mò (mù guāng bǐ yuè sè jì mò)

With eyes lonely like the moonlight (With eyes lonelier than the moonlight)

就让你 在别人怀里快乐

jiù ràng nǐ zài bié rén huái lǐ kuài lè

It’s time to let you seek happiness in the arms of another

爱着你 像心跳难触摸

ài zhe nǐ xiàng xīn tiào nán chù mō

Loving you has become intangible like a heartbeat

画着你 画不出你的骨骼

huà zhe nǐ huà bú chū nǐ de gǔ gé

I’m unable to construct your skeleton as I paint you

记着你的脸色 是我等你的执着

jì zhe nǐ de liǎn sè shì wǒ děng nǐ de zhí zhuo

To remember your expression is my stubborn way of waiting for you

你是我 一首唱不完的歌

nǐ shì wǒ yī shǒu chàng bú wán de gē

You are my endless song

你的轮廓在黑夜之中淹没

nǐ de lún kuò zài hēi yè zhī zhōng yān méi

Your outline fades into the dark night

看桃花 开出怎样的结果

kàn táo huā kāi chū zěn yàng de jié guǒ

Look at the peach blossoms, what fruits will it bear?

看着你抱着我

kàn zhe nǐ bào zhe wǒ

I watch you embrace me

目光比月色寂寞

mù guāng bǐ yuè sè jì mò

With eyes lonelier than the moonlight

就让你 在别人怀里快乐

jiù ràng nǐ zài bié rén huái lǐ kuài lè

It’s time to let you seek happiness in the arms of another

爱着你 像心跳难触摸

ài zhe nǐ xiàng xīn tiào nán chù mō

Loving you has become intangible like a heartbeat

画着你 画不出你的骨骼

huà zhe nǐ huà bú chū nǐ de gǔ gé

I’m unable to construct your skeleton as I paint you

记着你的脸色 是我等你的执着

jì zhe nǐ de liǎn sè shì wǒ děng nǐ de zhí zhuo

To remember your expression is my stubborn way of waiting for you

我的心 只愿为你而割舍

wǒ de xīn zhī yuàn wéi nǐ ér gē shě

My heart sheds only for you

My notes: I really love this song despite the fact that I never watched this movie, I don't even know what the movie is about. XD but the lyrics were meaningful and sentimental. "I watch you embrace me With eyes lonelier than the moonlight" Just this line had my heart all twisted up. :) This song becomes greater when I found out that the singer is a artist I know. Jane Zhang, won Third Place in the final round of Super Girl 2005 China. She is known for her dolphin's voice.