Yamada Ryosuke: Hidarime Tantei EYE

KYA, kawai, do you recognize who's the boy in the pic? >.<
Yes, Yamada Ryosuke from Hey! Say! Jump! Cute, he were biting his lips. This the last scene from his drama hidarime tantei EYE. He's always using a very serious troubled and depressing face thorough the entire drama. DOn't get me wrong, I totally love the boy with that serious look.

Yamada Ryosuke in last episode 

 And back to my topic, So, this is the only scene when he smiled so brightly that I had to stop and replay for at least 3 times just to see that smile! LOL! That totally melt me.
hmmm...........................................

Hidarime Tantei Eye Episode 6

why did I put such a long .............. there?
Reason is, for a long time, I never get why girls are so into Hey say jump, nor am I interested to find out.
In the very long due past, I watched jdrama because of certain pretty actress. Note: it's female actress. But now, I'm looking more on male actors. Okay, why did I keep on deviating from my talk..? Right,
Thanks to the recent event of finding out Yukito Nishii,

Pic grabbed from Yukito Nishii's blog

 I turned over to search for more his-age-alike young cute actors and I accidentally came across this guy, Yamada Ryosuke.

Episode 5 

Because his look in this drama caught my eyes immediately, (I think I'm a goner for guy with cute face, long thick straight hair with fringes.. T.T), and the interesting plot gives the story a more plus plus, this drama makes one of my top fav japan drama now. But, I had to shamelessly admitted, I fixed my eyes to this drama entirely on him. >.< oh gosh...

A bit review of the drama:
A detective drama.
Mystery, thriller, drama, and family.
A great combination for a drama.
The storyline came off very good, I think it's expect-able to be very good, considering that the writer for this drama is the same writer who wrote for Detective Conan.
All the cases were related, and the final biggest mystery is...
better not spoil you all..
The plot is interesting that makes your stomach twisted in knots, goosebumps all over the body when truth is revealed each time. Some moments where Ainosuke (Yamada Ryosuke) fought with his brother, and got depressed scenes because people were killed when he voiced out the truth touched me. I nearly cried.

But then even for me, after finished watching it just awhile ago, I don't like how the drama left in me.

It doesn't have a very mass effect of leftover thoughts. I think the last episode was the worst of all and thus spoilt it all.
I still do not understand what his elder brother intend to do by destroying the city.. the last few scenes were illogical as well (spoilers ahead!)

1. the stopping of the bomb with nitrogen liquid  (tension were less, where normally in the last episode, the tension and climax should be at highest, the bomb which he deactivated in the mall was even higher than this.)

2. the journey to his brother's aid (he was shot, for god sake, if he really want to save his brother, doesnt he know how to call an ambulance where all others has been doing FIRST thing in all the other episodes? even if he wanted to help the citizens, the first thing he had deactivate the bomb is to get ambulance. and yet he carried his brother until morning with all the movements and time wasted. of course he died! -.-)


but cause it's drama, I tried my best to ignore the illogicals..,
that's all for my plot review.



I loved his hair and his attire in this drama. His hair and look in Scrap Teacher doesn't suit my taste, probably because he was younger at that time. *check* two years ago to be specified, but for his sake, I'll keep "scrap teacher' on my next to-watch list. I heard lots of *love love* on Chinen Yuri, which until now, I don't find my interest for his peaks very high, at least not as high or higher if compared to Yamada Ryosuke.

Ops.. I just replayed that scene for another two times. XD Ops, did I mention that he bite his lips? yes, I did! Kyahaha. here's the pic for you!

Yamada Ryosuke as Tanaka Ainosuke. 

sceencap of the last scenes in Hidarime Tantei EYE

CUTE CUTE CUTE~!

*Melt to water*

headache

It feels like the temple of my head is squeezing everybit into my mind.

It is aching pain.. 

Results from getting all tensed up for the ACLS I"m taking on Monday. 

Well, why tense up..? cause it's the second time I'm taking and I don't want to fail it again. 

I think I give lots of 'what if' situations when I'm studying the algorithm, and ends up with ' what if she (examiner) came up this... oh no.. what should I do?' questions. 

I know where I screwed up in last exam. When my friends were taking the exam, I can answer the questions that the lecturer asked them in my heart. I know where I should be going. but when it reaches me... 

I panicked, kept my mind focused on the second part of 'getting the bp set, oxygen mask, iv lines' cause I scared that I might forget. THAT leads me to forget the straight away thing after checking responsiveness and call for help is check pulse.. 

A total wrong right from the start and I lose all the confidence.  

she says no pulse. 

start cpr immediately.
get defib, give oxygen bag mask, set up iv lines, and cardiac monitoring. This is where it should come.
the cardiac monitor shows this:

the second part I get wrong, is I didn't figure out it's a PEA activity. 

the screen shows sinus tachycardia. 

the examiner looked at me saying "are you sure?" when I said 'shock' patient.. then I took a lot at the screen again.. I know I'm not wrong. It shows "sinus tachy." THEN after like 5 seconds of looking, the chart pop into my mind. only VT and VF is shockable. I was like.. 'OH HELL!!' and it's a 'pulseless' and so it's a PEA. should not shock the patient! this is non-shockable rhtyhm. 

continue cpr for 5 cycles and then add in atropine 1mg iv every 3-5 min. 

check rhtyme and pulse.

then she continued saying no use. no use for two times and I repeated my answer with atropine two times.. 

so what should I do? 

yes, investigate the causes..

I listed out the 5T and 6Hs. but took some time again listing cause I was panicking already.. 

I was all 'crap crap' 

then she asked me what's the most possible cause in this patient. 

pt is young asthmatic. 

I said "hypoxia"

what else? 

eh... 

what others in young asthmatic? 

so. then after I paused for awhile i decided to give it a shot since it's the only answer in my mind, so I said "tension pneumothorax"

correct..

so what should I do? 

needle decompression. 

landmarks?

second intercostal space, midclavicular line. 

and you'll hear a hiss sound after poking

then what do you do?

check rhtyhm and assess vital signs. 

take x ray

patient returned normal

pulse present.

yay.. then..? 

what did you do just now?

I think think back.. needle decompression... 

insert chest tube! 

take x ray. 

asssess vital signs. 

patient returned normal

monitor. 

post resuscitation care.


so the most important thing for me is not to panic..  and have confidence. oh well.. I got the most difficult twisted case.

I studied hard for this time.
I must pass this time.
I can be a leader when I want.

best wishes for me. 

Kuroshitsuji Musicals 1 and 2 Download and Comments: Yukito Nishii

First Musical is named: That Butler: Friendship.
Ciel is by: Shougo Sakamoto.
Sebastian by: Yuya Matsushita

Download: http://aarinfantasy.com/forum/f218/t141178-kuroshitsuji-musicals.html
Sub softfile go to http://saeju12.deviantart.com/journal/Ohai-218368940

Ciel Phantomhive is busy preparing his manor for a ball when three new guests appear from Japan. As part of English hospitality, Ciel invites them to the ball. At the party, though, an unwelcome intrusion occurs, and it is the start of the mystery surrounding the three Japanese guests. (taken from kuroshitsuji wiki) 


First Musical is named: The Most beautiful Death in the world: Fallen Shinigami.

Ciel is changed to Nishii Yukito (probably because Shougo was too 'adult' to play Ciel anymore at that time? and his schedule was busy)
Sebastian remained the same.
Summary: read here

Comments on both musicals:

First Musical is more hilarious (Sebby-chan dropping utensils XD ), have more jokes.
Second Musical has more actions, less jokes, but lots of BL hints (kya!) even in the backstage videos.
Musics wise, I love both, esp by Yuya's and both Ciels' songs.

Comments on both Ciel:

1. Shougo Sakamoto as Ciel Phantomhive

He's cute in the musical as Ciel at same point, especially when he tried to *flirt* with Sebastian with his cane when Yuki mentioned his flute can exorcise demons. His way of speaking is fluent and doesn't seem to be awkward if compared to Yukito Nishii. The most amazing part that I love about him is his singing. Gosh, he sings really well and I totally fall in love with the song he sang with Yuki named Reminiscing by the window.

2. Yukito Nishii as Ciel Phamtohive

I actually watched the second musical first because that's the first subtitle that I'm able to find. (Quite hard to find the softsub english version.. took me lots of time to dig it up.) 

Yukito Nishii is a complete version of Ciel Phantomhive for me. kya! fangirl-ing squeal. 

The first entrance he made in the cage took my breath away. 

His act as Ciel truly brought out the child's version of seriousness Ciel should have. His face shape suits Ciel more as well. and I love how they put up the black smoky eyeliner on Nishii's eyes. XD 

His acting is really good. Why do I say this? 

1. 

I watched his backstage moments and the curtain call moment.

He is a cheerful person, a completely different person from the Ciel he's acting. 

He is quite shy and uncomfortable with camera on him when he's not acting, shown esp during the talkshow, he kept on playing with his cane, and backstage, where he kept on playing with his zip of jacket. 

He got really excited and smiled all over his face during curtain call. He came out to dance the shinigami dance, and I couldn't help stop, replaying it over and over again. His smile, his dance... awww.. He's just so cute! Ciel's dancing. XD 

2. 

I watched Confession, where he is one of the 3 main YOUNG actor and actress. By mean young, I mean all of them were just 15-16. He was the best actor acting psychotic and bipolar. He killed without blinking, carried his evil plan with smirks. Words just can't described it.
The drama won lots of titles. I can see how good the drama is. 

Though I have to say, if compared to Shougo, one thing is that his voice doesn't sound natural. Probably because he's soft usually, (or is it not reaching puberty yet, so his voice hasn't cracked. :P) and so during acting, he has to purposely lowered his voice to make it sound firm and serious. 

Nonetheless, his hard stare as Ciel is enough to melt me. he does give off the aura of a noble! :D

did you see the eyeliner?? XD

and he dressed up with the pink dress that appear in the anime! kya, look so cute and alike! 

And these are him at backstage

kya Yuya! what are you doing to Nishii!? XD so cute!

... ... ... um .. .. .. 

o.O

comforting. :D :D 

with Aberline

with sepai william and ronald

uwa.. he sticks out his tongue. XD this is the talkshow 

"kawaii... so cute that I want to eat him" said by Ronald. (played by: Yosuke Crawford) the one besides Ciel's left is William played by Nagaoka Takuya, the right is Aberlain played by Ise Nao.

Strange, I can swear I sense that Yosuke and Nagaoka take care of him very much. ^,^ 

So, yeah.. thanks to this musical. I'm officially Yukito Nishii fans. :) go Yukito Nishii! I wish you all the best for the future journey, and I'll keep an eye out for you! keep up the hard work!! Pray you'd be casting in more drama. ^.^

Another song from Kuroshitsuji II that I loved from this song is unmei (destiny) by Alan Humphries and Eric Slingby (played by Matsumoto Shinya and Taisuke Saeki) 

Their voices when duet together gives me upmost goosebumps.. It's soo beautiful! I can't 'tear' my ears away from it. so in love with this song. 

And although the song keeps on saying that they are friends.. we can see that what Eric had done for Alan were more than just friends. Eric turned into a fallen shinigami for Alan's sake. How is that possible between just friends? :P Though we all can't wait to group them up as pairs in this musical. Their story are just so beautiful! 

Although these two are not present in the anime itself, nor the manga I believed? but they are still characters created by Yana Toboso. Actually, they appeared in the OVA kuroshitsuji II, named The tale of William the Shinigami. If you don't purposely go look them out, you'll never notice them! Because they only appeared for 3 seconds in the OVA, to be specific, 2.51 their death syncthe, and until 2.56 where you will see Alan and Eric chatting away on the coach! I went like ... "WTF!" with their 3 seconds appearance. :D 

Yuya's singing again touched me. 

The first time when I see kuroshitsuji II ED, I fell in love with the song.

After I learnt that the musical sebastian is done by the same person who sing that song, my interest quirked. 

Indeed, the musical didn't disappoint me. I love all the songs inside, and the casts that they find: Grell and Mei Rin to be specificed, I have to say, they are both VERY alike to the anime-character. 

Kuroshitsuji Season II Ending, New Moon Drop Special Translation

SPOILER AHEAD!!

First season of Kuroshitsuji ended with Sebastian trying to take Ciel's soul.

Summary:

Second season begins with introduction of new characters i.e., Alois Trancy and his demon butler, Claude.
Sebastian re-entered the scene with lifeless Ciel, and he re-awakened Ciel at the start of season 2. Up until now, we are all in puzzled as to why Ciel has not died.

Story portrayed Alois Trancy, a character that never appeared in manga, as having a contrast opposite personality with Ciel Phantomhive. Alois Trancy shows his weakness to his butler, cling desperately to him, and  considers him as someone precious. HOwever, Ciel Phamtohive never shows his weakness to anyone, including Sebastian, disregards his help, and considers him as his pawn in his games. This was portrayed well in the Opening song of Kuroshitsuji II.


This characteristic personality makes Ciel a special soul that even Claude wanted to consume his soul.

Ahem.. forgive me for the perv mind. :XD:

It was later revealed that Claude had stolen Ciel soul when Sebastian was about to take Ciel. Sebastian was angry as he who waited by his master side for so long, carried out all his orders and in the end, would not be satisfied to consume an incomplete soul. He returned to the mansion with Ciel, who apparently has lost memories that he had already avenged for his parents. The demons then made a pact, for they both did not want an incomplete Ciel, to made Alois Trancy as a target of Ciel's revenge.

Alois and Ciel faced each other finally in a duet when their butlers are fighting.

Alois wins?

guess again.

Alois beg for his life.

but he didn't succeed.. this a pic of ciel slapping sebby for stopping him. watch on youtube, and close your eyes, listen to the slapping sound.. something dirty came to your ears. :D :D :D this only for fujoshii!!

another fangirl service. :D 

Okay, on with the story..


When Claude first tasted Ciel's blood (i.e, his soul) he realized that Ciel's soul is that soul he wanted. He killed Alois who he came to detest and sealed his soul in Trancy family ring for further use. He mixed up his memories with Ciel's and made Ciel think that Sebastian was the one who killed his brother, Luka. (Luka  was Alois's brother.)

Sebastian was ordered to disappear from his sight. He who still has the contract bound was forced to leave.

Hannah revived Alois's soul and conscious within Ciel's body and made Alois taken over Ciel's body.
He then made both butlers to go through a maze to obtain Ciel's soul.
In the end, we see that it was actually Hannah another demon who made a contract with Luka, and burnt the village, and thus having his soul consumed by Hannah. Hannah had came to love Luka. And thus, Hannah had stayed by Alois's side because Luka represents him very much. After learning the truth, Alois turned his back towards both butlers. When Ciel gradually regained his memories, he gave order to Sebastian.
"Come and eat my soul, until you have done that, to the very end, you're my butler."
to which Sebastian obeyed.



Ciel immediately loss consciousness and taken over by Alois.
Alois then made a contract with Hannah when both butlers struggled their ways to get to Ciel.

The final wishes:
are for the butlers to fight against each others. Only one demon will survive.
But neither will obtain Ciel's soul.
For Ciel will be reborn as a demon.

Sebastian won the match, but on his way to retrieve his prize, he was told about the wish.
Ciel awakened with the same red eyes as Sebastian in the water. To his anger, Sebastian plucked his fist into Ciel's stomach, OUCH... and blood splashed...

My thought was after Sebastian heard was Hannah said, he was trying to get to Ciel and killed him when he was still human. But Ciel woke up before he could deliver the death, frustrated, Sebastian released his anger into the little body.

Ciel of course.. survived, for he has became a demon who is immortal.
Sebastian is tied to him for eternity with no rewards because contract is still valid. He who could not consume his soul for his soul was no longer human, and because of the last order his master made (to be his bulter until the very end).

and Ciel Phantomhive died as a human.

First seeing the ending, I feel dis-satisfied.
This ending, made one feel as if Alois Trancy has obtained his triumph over everything even if he's dead. And Ciel does not at all sounds like himself after he became a demon.
From some angle, we can also perceive it as Ciel has won over this battle, he obtained his revenge, and at the same time, turned the table over on Sebastian and still has his pawn over him.
It depends on how you see it.
Furthermore, with this relationship, they remained to be master-servant for eternity, and the story gets to continue on.


If you had read my previous blogs, you'd have known I'm a fan of yaoi. So, for the rest of the story, if you're agaisnt yaoi pairing please redirect yourself away from this page.
Sebastian seemed to shows more affection towards Ciel. He regards Ciel's as his own, and shows jealousy and when Ciel let Claude kissed his foot. It made me giggled when I saw it.

This was also said by Ono Daisuke himself. If you don't know, Ono Daisuke is the seiryuu for Sebastian. He numerously stated that he has difficulty getting himself in Sebastian's character for he is not a person who can act so seriously with such low voice. Anyway, he says in a open seiryuu meeting with fans "New Moon Drop Special" after OVA
http://v.youku.com/v_show/id_XMjcxNDY1OTU2.html
 were done that Sebastian shows more human side of himself. Aside from jealousy, he shows sorrow, and smiles.


Top five scenes that were chosen by fans during the New Moon Drop special:
5. Will looking for his specs

4. Alois killed by Claude in the end of episode 8
Seiryuu Sakurai Takahiro comments that his own character's personality was clearly portrayed in this scene. His demon personality. This scene, supposingly to be a slow-motion scene, was brought out so sudden yet so briefly in one blink of second. It shows how Claude was suitably a demon in origin.

3. Claude walking in the hallway, open the window and shout out, "ciel phantomhive's soul is trualy a good thing~!!"  (Episode 10)
Other than to voice out his satisfaction, he said this to purposely annoy Sebastian too, for he knows he's nearby stalking them. hahaha.

2. The first appearance Ciel and Sebastian made in episode 1. When Sebastian took Ciel out of the suitcase and put his ring on. Fans stated that it was a total surprise because it was not expected that both characters will come back in Season 2. Same for me as well, because summary of Season 2 obviously stated nothing about this pairing. And thus I was most joyed as well to see them came back and that season 2 actually focus more on the first pairing rahter than the new one.
Ono Daisuke said that he was rather tensed when he had to voice out as Sebastian again for the first time after so long gap with season 1. Last year he was asked, "did you eat Ciel's soul in the end?" He said that it was hard to keep it a secret when he was asked to keep "Sebastian is coming back to the season" as a secret. It was burning at him that he wanted to shout it out to us during that interview previous year! And all the other seiryuus nod their heads incessantly. Hahaha. :)

1.... (rolls drum)
The last scene Ciel and Sebastian made.
Ciel becamse demon, Sebastian held the demon in his hand in bridal mode, standing in the field of roses, walking off with "Yes, My Lord" sounding at the end.

They are bound to each other forever...

Okay, there are some special events that seiryuu made their appearances.
All can be download from Aarinfantasy.com/forum.
First seiryuu event was in 2009, where they also announced as a surprise to audience that season 2 is confirmed.
Second seiryuu event named Red Valentines 2010 Jan, was held.
I had fun watching these events, but I hate to say, the translations available is very limited. I couldn't find a perfect translation for both videos.
As I can only guide you breifly where to get these translations.
First seiryuu event, read it from http://datekouji20.livejournal.com/tag/kuroshitsuji
Second seiryuu event, no direction, some suggested to find it on http://forums.blackbutler.net/ but I could not download from the section, i think you might have to register or something, but I watch the translated version in chinese from tudou.com.


Oh, and there's musical too.. I want to write about the musical parts in other blog. so here's just a brief direction to guide.Both Sebastian are played by the singer who sang the ending "bird" for season 2 ending.
Second musical: The most beautiful DEATH in the world:
http://v.pps.tv/play_30I2DS.html
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5aNkgb5flD4
In english sub: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B0pjXxNTjNk

More info go to my next blog: http://lisse88.blogspot.com/2012/01/kuroshitsuji-musicals-1-and-2-download.html

All my favourite BL books and recommendations part 8

Stopped reading BL story for a few months already because (shamelessly boasting) I had read nearly all the great legendary Good BL stories, more than 200, some are not included here.

Last night, I finally picked up the track and found yet another great author that I had overlooked. 

So here, I continued with the lists. 

200. 

《妖狐--育神之果》

类别：逃离，生子，HE，

文案： 
看着狐王怀里换了一个又一个男宠，除了忍，他还能怎样？尽管对方左拥右抱，不过自己到底在他心里占有一席之地，只要这样，他就满足了…… 
要不是那个人类出现了，紫雅这辈子也想不到自己会有爆发的一天。那人类不但独占了狐王，还口口声声喊着要把所有男妾赶走？自己就只有认命地被赶走吗？不！他不服！只要能让王上重新注意他，他连命也豁出去了！ 
冒险怀孕，就能挽回爱人的心吗？当王上抱着新欢说：「孩子是我的，我说他娘是你，那就是你……」 
紫雅的心碎了，再也无法复原。 

My rating: ☆☆☆☆☆


211。

《雪奴儿》

内容简介：
八岁那年，他将自己从雪地中捡回来，取名苗雪卿。
从此以后，夏侯勋成为了他生命的主宰。
「我需要一个无可取代的人，一个永远留在我身边、忠诚于我的人，你就是我要找的那个人吗？证明给我看吧……」
男人的声音如魔咒一般萦绕在耳际。无论被如何玩弄，无论被如何伤害，他都不能反抗，因为这是他欠了对方的，更因为他埋藏在内心深处的爱慕与敬仰。
然而一次任务失败，将苗雪卿的命运彻底改变。
「废了他的武功，再丢到外面去喂野狼，这样行了吗？」
多年以来的忠诚，最后换来的就是这样的下场？
呵呵，既然自己的命是他救的，那就把命还给他吧！
无望的爱以此为解脱，未尝不是一件好事呀……

My rating: ☆☆☆☆

222。

《恨爱囚笼》

类别：现代，

砰！ 
一道枪声划破了黑夜的平宁静，余音在空旷的房间里不断回旋。 
男人扑通一声，跪在地上，中枪的大腿淌出一片骇人的暗红。 
“呜……”他痛苦地呻吟，摁着血流不止的伤口。一柄冰冷的枪抵上他的额头，他仰起那张英俊而魅惑的苍白脸庞，深深地凝视着拿枪的少年，子夜般的黑眸里没有一丝恐惧，有的只是无尽的深情和认命。 
“动手吧……”他闭上眼，唇角勾起若有似无的自嘲笑容。 
少年拿枪的右手忽然剧烈颤抖起来，冷若冰霜的伪装在这一刻土崩瓦解。男人脸上的平静刺痛了他的心，他努力调整自己的呼吸，发抖地以双手持枪。 
枪口对准眉心，食指艰难地勾住了扳机，他屏着呼吸，使劲扣下去！ 

My rating: ☆☆☆

223。

《天神之宠》

类别：天神`，逃离，QJ，生子

内容简介：
他是狐王 
他是天帝
一个是臣, 一个是君
无法掌控的命运 不甘心的屈服 
肆意的掠夺 全心全意只为换取爱人的笑容、

My rating: ☆☆☆☆

224。

《我的幸运星》

内容简介：
主角：邝伟东、李昱峰
倒霉，倒霉，好倒霉！先是出车祸，接着被炒鱿鱼，钱包手机都被抢，房子还被烧了！天啊！为什么倒霉事都压他一个人头上了！算命的说会有个「幸运星」来搭救他的，幸运星你快点出现啊！我就要被流氓揍死，横尸街头了～～～
就在邝伟东走投无路的这一刻，「幸运星」果真出现了！！啊啊——
竟然是这个家伙？老天爷你不是跟我开玩笑吧？这个家伙，害我高中生涯的后半部分都在受煎熬，他怎么会是我的幸运星啊！
这可不？说要给他安排住处，结果自己却被压在床上了；说要给他安排工作，结果自己却被压在沙发上了；说要带他去旅游，结果自己却被压在飞机厕所的墙壁上了！
你哪是幸运星？你根本就是「压人星」！

My rating: ☆☆☆


225. 

《父子关系》

超俗重生文，一个弱受如何成长为强攻的故事！

My rating: ☆☆☆☆


226. 

《凌漫》

类别：血缘，兄弟，逃离，

内容简介：
他轻轻颤抖了起来，似乎眼前已经看到了自己的未来。 
离他说的那个时候还有多远呢？ 
我还能坚持多长时间？

My rating: ☆☆☆

227。

《病人》

类别：QJ，虐身虐心

“我叫何允，你叫什么名字？”他的嘴唇又抿了一下，神情暗淡，刚刚稳定下来的眼神中又流露出痛苦，只是摇头。 


“没关系的，告诉我名字我才能叫你啊，你不希望听我叫你的名字吗？难道你的名字很难听？不会吧？”我只是想开个小玩笑而已，没想到他咬着嘴唇眼泪都要下来了。“别哭别哭，我开玩笑的。”哎呀，我最怕见人哭了，手忙脚乱的安慰他，突然想起从他清醒开始，我就没听见他讲过一个字，在他怕的要命的时候也没听过他喊“别过来，别碰我，救命”之类的话，他的一切情绪和想法都是通过神情和点头、摇头传达的。难道……我用怀疑加征询的眼神看他，他点头，一直在眼中打转儿的眼泪终于滑了下来。 
My rating: ☆☆☆
228.

《绛雪(上)》

为了到北方投靠在大户人家金府里工作的舅妈，左小草和母亲历尽了千辛万苦。
为求生活能就此稳定下来，小草希望能在金府中觅得一份差事，却没想到金府的背景并不单纯，竟是一个恶命昭彰的杀手组织。
瘦弱又势单力薄的小草没有反抗的机会，不但被强迫灌入药物改变外貌，甚而被打扮成金府的三小姐嫁入金府的对手──孙家，去当卧底……
孙颢只消一眼，就能看出他的新娘不是女人。
被欺骗愚弄的怒气，一时虽遮蔽了他的理性，但小草的美丽、善良与淳朴，却每每令他感到迷惑。
这少年分明是金府派来的细作，可为何能如此天真？

《绛雪(下)》

济南城有了一个传说。
传说里富贵的孙家大少爷，在大雪里捉到一身雪白的妖精。
从此以后妖精便被锁在孙家，只有孙家的大少爷才可以窥见雪妖精的美。
因为打击太过庞大，难以承受之下，小草失去了那段最疼痛的记忆……
他不懂为什么大家看他的眼光，好像是在告诉他你病了。
他不过是跟娘在家里种种田，过平凡日子──但世界好似跟他的记忆完全不同了，
不但娘变了，他的邻居福来跟他记忆里的也不太一样，还改了名，把福来改成颢。
但是他比较喜欢现在这个有着宽广的肩膀和温暖怀抱的福来……
只是，福来不是讨媳妇儿了吗？怎么突然之间又没有了？
然后，他发现，自己竟然变成福来的媳妇儿了……

类别：(虐心文+替身小受+虐身~+HE~)  

My rating: ☆☆☆☆


229. 

《早已盛开》

类别：逃离，黑心腹受，强受，衷情攻，后知后觉

段仲思一直在游戏人间中寻找，
寻找一个强悍的足以与他对抗甚至能让他俯首的人物。
然而当小猫们在他的温柔下渐渐收起了爪牙，他也渐渐得从欣喜走向了失望。
当段仲思再一次完胜归来的时候却被告知，这场游戏中他才是真正的输家……
叶晴奕一直在等，等待那个笑容温柔的男子将他如一只小猫般遗弃。
不过三年，他终于如愿以偿，把从天堂跌落地狱的感受还给了抛弃他的男人。
他叶晴奕那么早就已经看穿了结局，又怎么会成为这场游戏里的输家？
他是第一个让那名高高在上的男子尝到失败滋味的人，他用了那么多的算计和忍耐，还有这么多时间的等待，这一次，游戏要从他开始。

照好看的！小受用尽心机，只是要渣攻明白，爱不是支配，是共享。
文章也好，内容也好，讲的故事也好。望之处一片春和景明晴空朗朗；读之处满篇文笔流畅行云流水。与耽美界开门便是一片H、道具或是暗色系的□大有不同，实是一篇别样好文。虽是隶属与□文，字字句句冷笑嘲讽，然所行之处却丝毫不感觉冷酷，只是教人随着他们或欣喜或欢笑或拍案。为爱为情为机智为搞笑，或喜或忧或捧腹不止。全文虽已对话贯彻其中，却不感觉累赘；描写不多，不过寥寥数笔耳，然一个个人物却是有血有肉，让你感觉自是气质儒雅风度翩翩。虽也偶尔讲讲道理，却丝毫不嫌呆板，感觉就是这样水到渠成的事情。文笔畅然，字字如珠玑，不忍中途停止，非得一气读完方可过足瘾；笔调淡然，却不乏活泼之处 
他们的爱情，原来早已盛开。
My rating: ☆☆☆☆☆


230. 


我的同性恋人


本故事内容真实存在，只是在部分情节和时间上做了适当的调整和更改，生活中的原型人物也通过艺术加工，不断特殊化、艺术化.整篇小说分为三十章，四十五万字，细腻的讲述了一对同性恋人的情感故事。 

故事从2000年的夏天在阳光沐浴和主流社会下偷偷发生和展开的，主人翁麦季平是某高校的学生，2岁时父母就已离异，造成他的性格孤僻而又懦弱，在学校总是受到同学的戏弄和欺凌，从小到大没有交到过一个朋友，然而性格决定了他的生活，他不敢反抗，也不愿意跟任何人诉说，内心的寂寞和痛楚、毕业高考的压力和胆怯，再加上父亲再婚，至小留在内心的阴影使得他更加害怕和恐慌，就在生活乱七八糟的时候突然柳伊晨闯了进来，他乐观向上，季平被他的快乐深深感染，并从他身上学到了很多人生的真理，渐渐两人成为了朋友，但是日子一天天过去，季平心里竟泛起一种异样的感觉，内心开始矛盾和不安，是不是他也可以尝试另一种恋情。 

两人终于决定和上天，和世俗对抗，他们相爱了，爱得无怨无悔，但是社会容不下他们，同学、老师、家人的极力反对，使他们的爱情苦涩不堪，他们无法承受和面对，也曾经一度失落，甚至想要放弃过，但两个孤独的灵魂互相爱抚，互相激励着，于是他们决定离开这里，到一个没有人认识他们的地方然后好好的生活，虽然逃离，但是厄运和灾难并没有与他们隔绝，一次次的袭击和摧残，使得他们心力交萃，最终他们分开了，晨晨的背叛让季平崩溃，几乎失去了生存的信心，就在这个时候，上天又一次怜惜了他，赐给了另一个深爱他的人，这个故人的出现使季平的生活再一次绚丽和灿烂，然而生活在继续，更多的苦难在等着他们。 

夜深人静的时候，我总是站在角落祈愿，愿 天放过一对恋人，让该发生的永远别发生！ 


好长，看得我好累。。 可悲结局却是个大BE。。 
没有太多的H，故事主人公谁是攻谁是受也不大明确。。 
两人分分合合，父母阻拦，背叛，堕落，染上HIV。。 
描述真实故事，看了让我不禁想起当年，自己发生的事。。 

他们的爱，很伟大。。 遗憾的是，结尾结束的有点太突然，还想知道晨晨留给季平的盒里装的是什么，但 却没有。

My rating: ☆☆

Messiah: BL game

Hello everyone. it's been sometime since I posted something. :D
Just recently I started out with a new BL game, and I got addicted to it.
There I thought I had finished all the good BL games that I loved out there, and here came something that I realized I had never gotten my hands on. In fact, I had heard about this game few years ago but never bother checking it out because I thought the art was not my taste. Turns out that the art is not a problem AT ALL.

Game is focused on a boy named Takuto Katsuragi, a beautiful boy who 'subconsciously' turned all men around him to want to 'do' it with him. There are only two semes for you to choose from, Haishima Koh/Kou, a lonely gentle but fierce... get this VAMPIRE!!! yes, kya, the blood sucking vampire! and.A close friend, Sasamori Ryouta.

Story started off with introducing Takuto and Ryouta as roommates and Ryouta developed admires of 'more than just friend' towards Takuto and Takuto, who realized it, pretended not to notice it because Ryouta has been his one true friend and he wants it to remain the same.

Koh came into picture to florist shop where Takuto worked. Takuto took notice of him almost immediately, and realized they are the same kinda people, lonely.

One day, Koh tricked Takuto into coming to his mansion, Ryouta followed, both ending up locked inside the mansion with no way out....

And there goes the H scenes

Koh and Takuto

Vampire motions: 

 Koh is trying to turn Takuto into a vampire as well, through 4 ceremonies, but in the process, was actually intended for Takuto to come to hate him and kill him in his hands when he revealed the broken fragments of his lost memories -- he killed his own stepfather, the monster that killed his parents was Koh, and that to get near him, Koh killed the girls who were acquitance with him.

















The 'true ending' story is very touching..

I broke into tears, not because Takuto decided to stay, but of how Takuto and Ryouta said 'goodbye' in front of the mansion when Takuto told him his decision. After which Takuto returned to the mansion and found Koh, told him his determination, and went through the last ceremony, where he too, became bonded to the darkness for eternity, with Koh by his side.

As for Sasamori Ryouta, choose carefully, as one wrong step usually turn Ryouta into the jealous monster, rape him and get Takuto over the edge of breaking.

Surprisingly though, there is an option of how you can turn Takuto into a seme and Ryouta into a uke, by making Ryouta fired the shot at Koh. 

I turned out to like this ending very much, seeing Takuto as seme. :D

 

And another ending of how Ryouta destroyed Takuto, and Koh turned Takuto into his slave.









Some other vampires thingy are, the red eyes, that turned someone who looked at it to unable to resist commands that were carried out by that vampire. Kinda reminds me of 'the Vampire Diaries'.
Other than forcing Takuto to do 'embarassing' stuff during H scenes, he also forced Takuto to trigger the shot at one of the endings. I thought that was quite .. frustrating, especially when Takuto with trembling hands and tears fired the shot, calling Koh a 'coward!' for not daring to face his love.

All in all, rating (in my view):
Story plot: ☆☆☆☆☆
H scenes: ☆☆☆☆
Characters: ☆☆☆☆
Music: ☆☆☆☆☆


Love the music very much. 


BY the way, this is the original version of the Messiah game, there is an extra game produced by the same company (core), named Messiah Paranoia Paradox, there is no translated version for this game, neither in chinese and english yet. I installed the game with ATLAS and AGTH to play the game. 

Download:
Messiah BL game in chinese:
Otomedream chinese version


Messiah 攻略：
攻略


Messiah BL game in japanese:
Aarinfantasy

Messiah Paranoia Paradox:
Aarinfantasy


Messiah CG Packs: 
Messiah CG
Messiah Paranoia Paradox CG