I'm going to be 22 years old soon and I can't help but to think that I have been single for so long and I wished to find one bf soon, someone who I can be devoted to and loved and who loved me as well. This year, I learn to dress up and make up (a little). I tried to speak up a little more, and I tried to be comfortable, just be myself around people. But there's still a lot lacking, my confidence. I can't help thinking I'm inferior to other girls out there around me. It's so different world from Sibu, KL is full of pretty girl and attractive girl, both in appearances and personalities, I mean, hell yeah, I got some confessions when I was back in my hometown, but now? I shrink and shrink into nothing, like an unnoticed dot in the black board. I wanted to straightened my hair or maybe curl my hair, I remembered myself taking lots of pictures when I was in college, hell, I missed my straight hair. My hair itself is not very curly but still.. messy. wat the hell.. I don't knw why I'm even blabbling in here, but it's really bugging me. When will cupid of love shoot its arrow at me, with the right man? :|
feel like stopping in the halfway because there's not much H and the love is not so mutual. But then, as I started seeing the 'love' grow and the plot deepened, I continued and found myself glued to it. It's unlike typical BL story that i had read, where it focused more on weak or old-fashioned story, this one is more towards their intentions.
类别：现代，虐心， 以“渣攻” 出名。。。- Bastard seme There's two version of which the writer re-write the plot. Some said that they are not satisfied with how the BAD gong get away and get back the love so easily when the uke was hurt too much. But I personally think that the original ending is good enough. maybe I'll go and read the other ending one day. My rating: ☆☆☆ *Added to the to-read list 81.
Another one title that i loved and matched with the story line... It's a sad story as both characters died, the uke changed a lot, the seme too, we thought maybe the seme might continue to love the uke, but it was wrong, the uke was cruel enough to kill the seme and his own sister with his own hands. In the end, even after he fought such a long way for his lover, the lover no longer loved him.
Give a very faint feelings, described more on the way how the main character/uke watched the one he loved from far aside as his friend but the seme realized his love towards the end. My rating: ☆☆☆
Damn, right after Ghost Whisperer and Gossip Girl, now I'm obsessed with Supernatural, Thanks to my hubbie, saku and my priest, yina. No, seriously, I know I am into supernatural themed movie/tv. And so, this title catches my eyes. Besides the great plot, it's the best hinted BL TV series. You can't say that the these two boys, Jensen and Jared, aren't hot!
Okay, I'm gonna kill anyone who said they aren't!
There are just lots of BL moments in the series that my head shouted 'C'mon, I want to see more than that! Don't just stop there!' but of course, no. So, I have to rewind back and watch it again. fangirl.
For example: In S02E10, 'Hunted', Dean was held captive by Gordon, and there, Sam came to rescue. After the fight, he came to untie Dean, and the first thing that crossed my mind when Dean hurriedly untied himself while Sam undone his legs was... I was squeaking insides while thinking of it. hehe. And then, it came true! Dean held up Sam's head the first thing he was freed and studied him! I meant, studied him!! and the next moment, he was all furious, ready to kill, just for Sam! >.< why didn't he just kiss him!? ugh.. is that me...? pardon me. Ahem. I normally don't behave like this. That's the powerful imagination for us fangirls. Now some more pics for you/me to drool on.
Individual Photos: Jensen Ackles This handsome boy sucked me in just by these photos. His eyes... something about his eyes that made me irresistible to his charm. So, don't blame me for having more pics of him than Jared. Jared Padalecki I liked him in the first episode, oh, don't take it the wrong way, I DO love him! but idk his hairstyle changed a little as the episode progresses... just that I preferred his hair to be a bit more like below.
Looking back at my time, suddenly realized that the last 22 years in my life was blank as paper. Nearly. They said that if someone knew that one's life is near death, he/she will have a list of to-do list, wanting to finish them all off before life's over. You wouldn't know when your time will be over. Every day, you set a target for yourself to achieve. Life's short if you think about it. Before you knew it, ten years passed. How many more ten years do you still have? You wouldn't know.
We're young for a reason. To live it. Enjoy it. Savor it. To the fullest.
First few pages was similar to nong feng's “害”, because he won the uke by using a 'bet'. But different from all other yaoi that I normally read, this one did not play around their feelings, or relationship but more on the plot. Kind of similar feeling to “风于九天”, And the characters are cute and funny, always made you bursted out laughing non-stop.
类别：兄弟+双性人+年下+生子文 子明托著沈重的肚子从床上起来，从今天早上开始，他的肚子就开始胀痛，孩子也动得厉害，如果没猜错的话，他这是要生产了。 子明已经一天没吃东 西了，现在站起来也是摇摇欲坠的。他扶著墙慢慢走到厨房，给子健准备晚饭。子健最近好像很忙，好久都没有在家里吃过晚饭了，不过即便如此，子明还是会每天 子健准备晚饭，他不想弟弟突然饿著肚子回家却没有饭吃，而且这些饭弟弟就算不吃，大不了他第二天中午自己热来吃。 Strangely, this novel did not leave me an impression of 'woman' in the uke. The character development is good, there isn't much mutual love like other novels, concentrated more on the 'family' love.
My rating: ☆☆☆
45. 引狼入室 by 易人北 类别：现代 不知何时起，无尽的痛恨，变成了对那人绝对的独占欲；玩够了就毁掉他的心理，变成了要报复他一生的欲望——要他好好地活著，接受他秦我狂一辈子的报复！ 他的父亲因为被人密告，死于一场枪战中，尸体更被海水泡的发胀！ 他的母亲因此变得疯癫，熬了两年便离开人世，独留下满心仇恨的他！ 花了三年时间，秦我狂终于查出当年密告父亲的仇人－－文勋豪，正当他想一报血海深仇时，却传来文勋豪夫妇车祸双亡的消息。 从此，一丝怨念，牢牢地系在了文家留下的独子天书身上，誓用他的血泪来填平自己的恨！ “文天书，你应该觉得骄傲，因为你是我第一个玩弄的男人，你也应该感激我没有把你交给我的手下，不过，你也不用太感激涕零，因为我只是想亲手品尝糟蹋你的感觉……”仇恨让男人俊俏的娃娃脸走了形，现在的秦我狂已经化身为复仇的鬼魅。 看文天书脸上极度屈辱的表情，使我狂报仇的心理得到了满足。这种方法要比把他揍个半死，敲断他浑身的骨头，更让他有发泄的感觉…… My rating: ☆☆☆
46. 俘虏 类别：现代 哎呀！他的新同事竟是早上在电梯里偷摸他小屁屁的大色狼！他芹生和也可要跟他保持距离以策安全才行。但是大色狼每天老是用饿了好久的眼神看他，又三餐外加 宵夜对他上下其手，最后还宣称自己得了「失忆症」，来个装疯卖傻不负责任。哼！天底下哪有这种事啊？他决定展开「反扑计画」…… 为了跟暗恋十二年的和也有进一步的亲密接触，御堂馨想尽办法变成苍蝇黏在他身边。什么？他竟敢跟办公室的女同事搞暧昧，该罚！先来个咸猪手乱乱摸，再来个甜死人不偿命的吻；还想逃？干脆一不做二不休，扛起来往家里跑，来个大野狼欺负小红帽的戏码吧…… My rating: ☆
Read this a few months ago, the plot and writing isn't really good but the H and SM is REALLY high. One of the techni that I remembered the most is the rocking horse.
My rating: as mentioned above.
49. 《被禁锢的男人》 by 作者：妖妖ka
类别：囚禁，现代，强攻弱受 At first glance, this book has the same title as my last one in the first part, but the story is different at closer look. Plot is good, characters are good, what I liked is also the little quotes here and there at the end of the story. But... because it is too lengthy, i kinda get tired as the story gets till the end where the seme and uke are separated due to family pressure (because you know they are going to be together anyway!)
Read this some time ago but I give up halfway because it's boring, now I picked it up again and read it because I knew this author is a good one. Only to realize that it IS good. :) And what's more is that this author seems to love write from seme's POV.
My rating: ☆☆☆
54. 下课后的契约 类别：虐心，师生 明明能力不差、薪水不低，大学教师周枫却卖了自己，陆铭清除了感到愤怒与不解，更因为心中的一点在乎，最后决定买下周枫。 这一买一卖，付出的应该只有金钱与身体，却都不经意将契约刻入了心，究竟这一纸契约，到头来是会逼出真心，还是迫得两人选择分离？ My rating: ☆☆☆
类别：小白受，古代/江湖 爹爹续弦的当天， 齐严对韩白一见钟情， 许下一生承诺。 十二年后， 齐严依旧执着， 小白却已经忘了个干净 所幸未来岳母帮他使了点小小花样， 让心上人主动投入了怀中。 Very funny My rating:☆☆☆☆
62. 随爱沉沦 作者：天涯客 类别：SM， 虐心，现代 圣心孤儿院院长的办公室虽然装饰精美豪华气派，但当蓝跃走进来时，所有的华丽摆设在他面前都变得黯淡无光了。 沙发上的两位贵客惊讶得瞪直了眼，心里都在感叹一个十三岁的柔弱少年怎么能长得这么清秀这么精致。 。。。 Maybe it's because I'm already used to all the nue wen. I don't feel much feelings about it. though I'd admit that the way the writer described and nue the uke is pretty bad. My rating: ☆☆☆☆
63。 攻受定律 类别：小白受攻，校园 攻？受？ 名字可以决定一切？ 还是此定律坚不可破？ …… Did not finish this because can't stand the stupidness/naiveness of both. = = My rating: ☆☆
I had had another blogspot named lisse88 which used to be my main blogger, but recently, I can't seem to be able to assess it, keeps redirecting me to some stupid ad.. "All about yaoi" is my new place to rave on. But I still prefer my old blogger, so if anyone knw a way to get rid of that ad.. please tell me. Thanks.
