My top favorite BL writers (chinese)

进这排行的是因为我喜欢她们的笔文风格,多数虐心,每一篇她们写的也很有保障。有些作者呢,只写一两篇经典文,我没放在这。

1. 风弄
2。蓝淋
3。黑色禁药 (从这起不计较排名先后)
4。苏特
5。易人北
6。lolovi

Sunday, December 6, 2009

风弄的作家文集

I finished nearly 70 percent of her works, so might as well write something about it. :) The order is written from my top favorite, descending down to the least.

The most top top recommended is 凤于九天.
经典到没话说。运用上了科学,物理,化学,文学,古代战争策略。 真佩服弄风大人的思想能力, 可是这还没完结。 T_T

并非阳光

昔日黑道大族败落,天真任性,从出生那天起就被千万人捧在掌心的何家幼子君悦,在失去父兄的庇护后,顷刻一无所有。而曾经的恋人兼保镖,英俊夺目的安燃,却以其过人的手段成为了新的黑道帝王。君悦隐姓埋名,决定逃..

This is the book that I first read actually. The very first one that got me into reading this. It was a great friend from AF who recommended me into this. At first, because I had never touched chinese novels, it made me a little awkward to read it. But I got feelings very fast, due to the fact that it suits my taste. Angst. :)

玩具的秘密
与娱乐公司签下终身合约的律,在进入公司那天,被少爷京田宣布为私人拥有的玩具。两人的关系,随着主人和玩具之间展开的身体纠缠,焕发出丝绸般叵测的暧昧光华。任性又强势的京田少爷,深深喜欢上总被自己欺负得泫然...

玩具的野心
想,永遠和少爺在一起……毫不留情地拒絕那些投懷送抱的漂亮藝人們的少爺,是否會對自己這份不敢道出的野心深惡痛絕?小心翼翼的律,在京田強悍執著的佔有和調教下,苦苦忍受著自己想獲得少爺所有愛意的妄想。與此同...

This two books are together. One reason why I love this series is that the weak cute uke 律, gives you a feeling of wanting to adore him endlessly. He's the kind of 小白。and the seme is the kind of 霸道.

不要不要放开我
谁说长得瘦小柔弱就一定是受?虽然我段地在家里老是被弟弟欺压,到了学校还要忍受孔文的性骚扰,看起来是百分之百的小受典范,但这些都是假像!我忍气吞声、忍辱负重,为的就是等毕业证书到手,然后逃到很远很远很远.

I first thought that this is a angst book, but it turned out that i was wrong. This is another book that's similar to the 玩具 series above. It's another cute couples. :) yes, there are two couples in this book. A funny and cute plot.

悲惨大学生活
阳光一样的灿烂笑容,无论遇到什么坏事都乐呵呵的样子。长著一副时下流行的、让女孩尖叫的面孔,无法让任何人对他发脾气的帅哥。高大帅气,身材一流,光彩夺目的何永祺。这是他的表哥,也是他的大学室友。只是,这只..

Love this book because it's a relaxing book. :) if you want to take a break from angst, this book is great.

地狱之虐

SM. T_T T_T oh gosh, but there were a couple of pages that were removed by the authorities. I bet it's the nosebleeding scenes. Haha, anyway, great great. I must admit this is really good.

未曾忘记

AHHHH, unfinished work. T_T I love this book. Two really cold semes and a uke who's strong and not wanting to succumb to their doings. The kind of 'punishment' was too strong imprinted in my head, can't get it out. T_T



This one is similar to the book above, except that there is only one seme and the seme didn't really know that he loved the uke in the first place. He tried to bind the uke down with all the techniques he could find, threatening of his family, friends. etc... and until the end when he finally know that he wanted the 'love' from the uke, it was too late. The uke hated him till the heart. The ending is unexpected, can't give out the spoiler here, but haha, I can still remember it. :)

不能动

The LEGENDARY angst-est book. T_T Wacau. I was like... 'impossible', for this kind of plot is really impossible. so, i didn't really dropped too much tears about it. The kind of plot that make me dropped tears are those that are more trended towards the real life situations. Anyway, I still love the book, especially the seme. He's really determined about the uke(s), both the dead and undead one. ..

奴才

Love this one. :lovelove: why? because it's another weak uke. :XD: :lol: and kind of thickheaded too. :) anyway, the plot that leave the most impression isn't how weak he is, but how angsty it gave me. 'I remembered you never cried like now, so quietly, since when did you become like this?', and the part when he was tied in the pole in the midst of snow land, nearly frozen to death.... it was so sad...

太子
This is another part from the book above, characters are inter-related. A angst book, describing about the other seme (who's the emporer) and his love for another seme.

我是一只狗

Hmmm... I wouldn't say this is a good book, for me. The uke is a retarded... a sad story.

血夜
A 3P story. A happy ending. :) if you never discovered the part when the author admitted that she wanted to burn one of the two people to death. T_T

与爱无关

don't really remembered much about the ending... Just remembered that the seme cheated the love on uke only because he wanted a revenge because his father abandoned him for the uke's mother.. something like that..

背德假期
惩罚军服系列2危险军校

There's another new series going on recently. This 3P and incest, even though the uke didn't really have a blood bond between the other two semes. indication of SM.


袭警
拒捕

A series as well. Lol. Both are strong seme and strong uke, which leads to their fighting because the uke didn't like being the 'woman' and 'restricted' with chains and violence everything the seme takes him. We didn't know the reason until the end that the story revealed the seme has a disorder. :XD: and the second part tells us how the uke overcomes/conquered the seme's disorder.

凡人歌

A struggle of love between two boys since schooling. The uke 赵亚 love a boy named 徒颜 but separated school。At the same time, there is another seme named 张瑞 who loved him too in school. 亚 and 颜 were happily together, but not exactly having a relationship. Misunderstanding begins to tear them apart days by days when they showed affections for each other. Until one day, 颜's mother saw the uke kissing a photo of her son. Everything changed. The seme was sent out of country for study. The uke's school and study started dropping. Even with the help of 瑞, he couldn't get himself to forget about his love. He realized he could no longer hide his study performances from his parents when they decided to pay a visit to him. But what came in the end is nothing. His parents passed away in an accident on the way there. Shocked, desperate, sorrow eats him. He shoved off 瑞 in his mist of sorrow, only to find out 颜 returned to the country and had a unspeakable relationship with him the night before. The first words that came out of his mouth had sent the seme off angrily. His mother saw them all.
The uke dropped out from school, leave the house, and started a life at a new place.
He graduated and got into a company, where he met up with 瑞 once more. They decided to go out together, with the seme trying to make him forget the other seme, knowing that deep inside, uke still never forget about him.
颜 came back. Uke was scared. He couldnt make a decision, remembering the promise he had made with 瑞 that he will love him. He couldn't betray his trust, yet he couldn't force himself to forget about 颜. Finally, he decided to leave the decision to god. Whoever stayed in the end in his house, he will follow him.
When he saw 颜 in his house, he finally realized what was wrong. The 'love' he had been holding onto are only memories of the past. What's important are the love that he is having now....

>>> 蓝淋的作家文集

Most of her characters in her books are inter-related. Try this page to see how they are connected.


New list pages

建议以此顺序阅读
  这是第一部分 这些作品之间存在人物联系~

01、双程1 归途 陆风,程亦辰
  02、双程2 殊途 陆风,程亦辰
  03、双程3 如果 陆风,程亦辰
  04、双程4 房客 陆风,程亦辰
  双程番外:简单年代 陆风,程亦辰
  贪欢一晌 陆风,程亦辰
  -----------------------------------------
  双程之曲径BY 七七(蓝大的兄弟之作)秦朗,程亦晨(程亦辰
  的弟弟)
  双程之彼岸BY 七七 秦朗,程亦晨(程亦辰的弟弟)
  -------------------------------------------
  05、无处可寻 单行本 卓文扬,林竟 未完结
  06、不可抗力(上) 单行本 谢炎,舒念
  07、不可抗力(下) 单行本 谢炎,舒念
  08、兄有弟攻(上) 单行本 骆邵恭,骆邵友 兄弟恋
  09、兄有弟攻(下) 单行本 骆邵恭, 骆邵友 兄弟恋
  10、迟爱(上) 单行本 柯洛,李莫延(LEE) 假戏真做
  11、迟爱(下) 单行本 柯洛,李莫延(LEE) 百转千回
  12、逆风而行(上) 单行本 肖玄,欧阳希闻 师生恋
  13、逆风而行(下) 单行本 肖玄,欧阳希闻 挽回爱情
  14、无非爱恨 詹落,温庭域 律师文
  15、期待度 单行本 徐衍,颜可 明星情缘
  16、非友(上)单行本 杜悠予,钟理
  17、非友(下)单行本 杜悠予,钟理
  18、边躲边爱(A.S.A.P) 徐佐正,方其 安志洛,韦可东
  19、难言之欲(上) 单行本 肖蒙,林加彦
  20、难言之欲(下) 单行本 肖蒙,林加彦
  21、非卖品 单行本 叶修拓,林寒 后知后觉
  22、意外事故 容六,肖腾 未完结
  23、君子之交(上、中、下)任宁远,曲同秋
  24、君子之交(续-童话)HE 任宁远,曲同秋
  25、错觉 段衡,乔四(待编辑) 未完结 http://blog.sina.com.cn/s/blog_4a0e74e70100cjrz.html
  26、潘多拉的魔盒 多个CP,双程+无处可寻续,另有相关角色出场 未完结
  

这是第二部分
  01、不可不爱 许尉御,承昊
  02、请勿靠近 章咛,李至炫 未完结
  

第三部分

  01、101十一楼 一唯,咛浩
  02、十一楼之哭泣的狼之子(十一楼的番外) 杨苛自述
  03、拒绝,救赎 平卓原,平卓介 古文 坑
  04、深沈的河流 ?,修里 背景是西方,坑
  05、天真无邪 若典,钱笙池 坑
  06、狼的报恩 杨修远,路非 短篇
  07、骗子和我 李少非,萧慎,纪念 两攻一受
 

双程

Was mentioned already in my previous post.

无处可寻

This is unfinished work. T_T so, didn't leave me much impression.

不可抗力

mentioned too. Love this two books for buying my tears.

兄有弟攻

Just finished. The seme is a thickheaded uke, nonetheless a cute plot.

迟爱

For this kind of love, the uke 柯洛 is determined about the other seme that he loved, but the uke who was from 不可抗力 was in love with the other seme he liked. Sadly, LEE was desperately in love with 柯洛 despite his knowing that 柯洛 couldn't give up 舒念. It was an unrequited love for both 柯洛 and LEE. Their determination for each other hold on until the end of the second part. It was cute, and I couldn't help but think 'this is more like it.' with tears of happiness for them.

非友完整版加番外

一场音乐酒会的混迹,钟理与小学玩伴杜悠予重逢,相隔近二十年,在不同世界打滚的两人重温了旧谊。
  不听话坏小孩的外表、少根筋的粗人个性,让钟理从小就替杜悠予背黑锅;而杜悠予外表的温柔无害,也总让钟理认定自己活该。
  直到被杜悠予「拆吃入腹」,钟理心底的警铃终于大作,可他真能抗拒得了杜悠予的节节进逼吗?

Hmm... 介绍了很多人物角色,先看了。 两人分分合合。最后是因为听闻杜悠予的爱情史,使钟理彻底对他失望,故事进入高潮。看杜悠予如何使钟理重新接受他。

非卖品

This is kind of short... and gave me a so so feeling because I kind of forgot the plot after I read it. A male who bought a MB, 叶修拓 for a one night stand because the person who he liked couldn't love him back. But when that person returned his feelings, 林寒 有点动摇了。但是,当他发现自己对叶修拓 念念不忘时,惊觉原来最爱的人才是他。可是,自己的不确定,反而使 叶修拓 无法只接他的客。。。
Plot that draws my attention the most is that the ending let us wonder what other occupation the seme is.


Love love love this. :)

逆风而行

The uke is the seme's teacher. They got together quite often n walked closely to each other, mostly it was because the seme staying over at his house, for study, eating, etc. He lied to the uke about his family's poorness while the fact is that his family background is really strong. As time passes by, the uke realized that he had fallen deeper and deeper for the seme which he knew it was forbidden given their student-teacher relationship and the fact that the seme is still under-aged. But they succumbed to it. When one day, the uke found that about the lie of his family, and was about to ask him about it, he overheard another lie. The seme was only playing around with his 'love'. It hurts him straight to his heart and left the seme. He was forced to resign from the post too because of his claims that the uke seduced an underaged teenager. Angry and sad, the uke left the school. The seme came back to look for him, countless of times, to the point that the uke given in to him. The seme asked him out at one night.
When uke went to meet him, he found out that he was tricked, being beaten by a gang. He later found out that it was an order from the uke. (the fact is that they only called '肖少爷' and they were referring to the seme's brother) The beating had left him scars, and damages that could not be cured.
Years later, he met the seme again. Bearing that scars in his heart, he did not dare to be too close to him. He tried to date a new person, but he still could not forget him. In the end, they still broke up because rumor is that the seme seduced his 'bf'.
He re-entered for the lecturer post in university, and got selected in T uni. There, he met 林竟, 卓文扬. shocked by 林竟's confessions, he rejected him.
The seme still came looking for him every now and then. Until one day when he saw his engagement on the news, he couldn't stand it and threw cruel words to make him leave. He begins to meet up with dead ends again in works, police, etc... He thought of the seme's works again years earlier, the same methods.
The seme came back for him. They tried to talk in the car, and suddenly a gun shot was heard, the seme was hurt. He was rushed to the hospital. The uke finally found out that it was his brother's works all along, even the beatings six years ago were not the seme's fault....

无非爱恨

当他灰心得一声不吭离开的时候,还以为自己这一辈子,就不会再被人背叛了。
哪知道,居然会被同一个人伤害两次。真是够了,他是个大傻瓜……
一场意外的审判,让原本形影不离的学长和学弟,由亲密好友反目成仇。
数年后,温庭域成为了法庭上的必胜律师,过着日夜颠倒的忙碌生活;而詹落──那个曾经要好的学弟,却在此时再度出现。。。

《期待度》单行本

徐衍,演艺圈的天之骄子,一出道就挟带着家族势力与财力的护航,再加上自身的实力,声势如日中天。颜可,徐衍身边的小助理,为了生活与理想而委曲求全待在演艺圈。
在他人口中听到颜可的悲伤过往,非但没有激起徐衍任何的同情心,反将此事当作试探颜可脾气底线的把柄。日益微妙的相处中,以「不抱期待,就不会受伤」来面对一切伤害的颜可,对徐衍,真的没有任何期待吗?

A.S.A.P──Always永远
“进来。”
我推开门:“在勇哥你找我?”
俞在勇算是整个DWI上下最看得起我的人了。我也喜欢他,虽然已经是元老,可从不摆架子,比如总让我叫他在勇哥而不是前辈。
“可东,来,这边坐,我给你们介绍一下。”他拍拍左边的沙发,“这是安志洛,DWI未来最好的SINGER,这是可东,别看年纪小,在公司也呆了挺长一段时间了,办事可稳妥著呢。安志洛,以後你的伴舞队的事情就由他来负责。”
Short but sweet. :)

十一楼

Okay... it's a good fic but not very detailed/sad.

Friday, November 27, 2009

画心 (电影《画皮》原声带)

作曲:藤原育郎 少琪
歌手:
张靓颖

看不穿 是你失落的魂魄

kàn bú chuān shì nǐ shī luò de hún pò

Oblivious to your dispirited soul


猜不透 是你瞳孔的

cāi bú tòu shì nǐ tóng kǒng de yán sè

Unaware it was in the colour of your pupils


阵风

yī zhèn fēng yī chǎng mèng

A gust of wind; a waking dream


生命 (是生命的莫)

ài rú shēng mìng bān mò cè (ài shì shēng mìng de mò cè)

Love, like life, ever so full of mysteries (Love is life’s deepest mysteries)


你的心 到底被什么蛊

nǐ de xīn dào dǐ bèi shí me gǔ huò

Your heart, what has bewitched it so?



你的廓在黑夜之中淹没

nǐ de lún kuò zài hēi yè zhī zhōng yān méi

Your outline fades into the dark night


看桃花 出怎

kàn táo huā kāi chū zěn yàng de jié guǒ

Look at the peach blossoms, what fruits will it bear?


看着你抱着我

kàn zhe nǐ bào zhe wǒ

I watch you embrace me


目光似月色寂寞 (目光比月色寂寞)

mù guāng sì yuè sè jì mò (mù guāng bǐ yuè sè jì mò)

With eyes lonely like the moonlight (With eyes lonelier than the moonlight)


你 在怀里快

jiù ràng nǐ zài bié rén huái lǐ kuài lè

It’s time to let you seek happiness in the arms of another



着你 像心跳触摸

ài zhe nǐ xiàng xīn tiào nán chù mō

Loving you has become intangible like a heartbeat


画着你 画不出你的骨骼

huà zhe nǐ huà bú chū nǐ de gǔ

I’m unable to construct your skeleton as I paint you


着你的色 是我等你的

jì zhe nǐ de liǎn sè shì wǒ děng nǐ de zhí zhuo

To remember your expression is my stubborn way of waiting for you


你是我 一首唱不完的歌

nǐ shì wǒ yī shǒu chàng bú wán de gē

You are my endless song


你的廓在黑夜之中淹没

nǐ de lún kuò zài hēi yè zhī zhōng yān méi

Your outline fades into the dark night


看桃花 出怎

kàn táo huā kāi chū zěn yàng de jié guǒ

Look at the peach blossoms, what fruits will it bear?


看着你抱着我

kàn zhe nǐ bào zhe wǒ

I watch you embrace me


目光比月色寂寞

mù guāng bǐ yuè sè jì mò

With eyes lonelier than the moonlight


你 在怀里快

jiù ràng nǐ zài bié rén huái lǐ kuài lè

It’s time to let you seek happiness in the arms of another



着你 像心跳触摸

ài zhe nǐ xiàng xīn tiào nán chù mō

Loving you has become intangible like a heartbeat


画着你 画不出你的骨骼

huà zhe nǐ huà bú chū nǐ de gǔ

I’m unable to construct your skeleton as I paint you


着你的色 是我等你的

jì zhe nǐ de liǎn sè shì wǒ děng nǐ de zhí zhuo

To remember your expression is my stubborn way of waiting for you


我的心 只愿你而割舍

wǒ de xīn zhī yuàn wéi nǐ ér gē shě

My heart sheds only for you





My notes: I really love this song despite the fact that I never watched this movie, I don't even know what the movie is about. XD but the lyrics were meaningful and sentimental. "I watch you embrace me With eyes lonelier than the moonlight" Just this line had my heart all twisted up. :) This song becomes greater when I found out that the singer is a artist I know. Jane Zhang, won Third Place in the final round of Super Girl 2005 China. She is known for her dolphin's voice.


Friday, November 6, 2009

Heise's novel- 污黑

他们总是想将自己的颜色染在男人的身上,可染得太深,终究会变成最污秽的黑色。
Like the quotes very much. :)
Align Center
傲哲天
4P



Heise wrote BL novel!? woahooo!! I'm so glad I can read it. :) This is a great story. A fantasy type, with demons, darkness, spirits etc etc. The first time I started reading it, I felt like the main character 傲哲天, is a man who attracted EVERY guys to rape him. :XD: sorry, but yeah, that was what I felt. But luckily, I insisted to read on, had a hunch that this will be a great story. AND it is true. :) The interesting part started when 傲哲天 died (the way he died really wrenched my heart.) and travelled back to the past, and you finally get to know what happened, and why everyone, specifically those three demons, seemed to be attracted to him.
This is a angst type story. Kills my heart reading it when 傲哲天 is being betrayed again and again by people he loved, and the man he loved. And you'll be surprised to find out what truly happened in the past. :) Heise, 黑色禁药, do produce great arts and novels. :) Only wished she could finish her other novels that are unfinished.

Other links to view her arts related to this novel:
http://www.verycd.com/groups/@g1364334/211014.topic

her blog

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Thursday, October 29, 2009

Problems with P1 Wimax


This is my Izzi broadband speed.

and The second one is P1 Wimax. Home Plus.


But in comparison, Izzi might be better than P1 wimax which has a limit of 20 Gb. Once the 20 Gb is up, the speed dropped down to a incredibly fast rate. Heard a lot about complains on P1 wimax, and here is one from me. The billing has problem. the first month calculated was supposed to be paid with RM 70, but the billing on my account showed RM 113. when my mum and me confronted the booth where we purchased this, they agreed that P1 might have make a mistake with this. And they told us to call directly to enquire about it. The thing is... when I called the headquater, they told me to go directly to the HQ. Their excuse is, they made a mistake in our package, something about 'what's written here isn't Cut Now Promotion package' but other (which I don't know) so, I hv to go to the HQ and showed the billing to them. I mean what the heck>> Do you know how troublesome it is for one to travel from Bukit Jalil to Petaling Jaya WITHOUT transportation? Teksi? Walau, you eat money ah?! Lrt also not cheap, okay? Even if we can reach their through lrt, still need teksi to go to God-know-how-far place. -_-. isn't this supposed to be done by the people?? Why need to waste our precious time, money and effort to travel so far there JUST TO PROVE that we're using the right package?? -----

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

All my favourite novel links



The first pic from here hadn't read this one yet.

Due to the fact that I can't bookmark/register at that site (it needs money, man...) and because i found that there are a lot of story that I read and come to love. XD again, I needed to made a personal bookmark for it. so here I am again. :XD:

☆: Characters are not well developed, the writing style are not that great. I might be able to remember the plot but the story isn't my taste.
☆☆: Characters are developed, writing style is okay. The plot isn't good, can't really remembered it, but it's still not bad.
☆☆☆: Plot okay. I might like the writer's writing style. Characters well developed.
☆☆☆☆: Everything are good. But it's still not enough to make it my favourite.
☆☆☆☆☆: Everything are GREAT. It's my favourite book that's worth reading again and again.

1.

凤于九天

类别:穿越,轻松,
http://www.lcread.com/bookPage/10678/index.html

As said in my previous blog, I love this story. The best I had come across. Though I really wished to find a colored version of feng ming and rong yoe. :sigh:

My rating: ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆

2. All 风弄's works
http://www.lcread.com/book/author/11/index.html


Yeah, I'm in love with all her works. ^^

My rating:
☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆

3.

绑上花轿嫁了狼

类别:穿越
http://www.lcread.com/bookPage/39397/index.html

It's too bad that it requires VIP registered account to be able to read chapter 74 onwards. T_T so, I didn't manage to finish this great book. T_T

My rating: ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆

4. 父债子偿

http://www.lcread.com/bookPage/77556/index.html

Not really my taste because the story progress a little too fast. and everything seemed quite fake, but it's really new and the author is updating very fast.
Plus, i do want to know what happened to the couple. :D

My rating: ☆

5. 质子殿下

类别: 穿越,轻松
http://www.lcread.com/bookPage/67722/index.html

Why is it a VIP again? T_T This one is great too. :D kind of similar to the third one.

My rating: ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆

6. 新黑公子传奇(黑蛇传)

http://www.lcread.com/bookPage/22442/index.html

7. 我是神兽不是神受

类别:4P, H居多
http://www.lcread.com/bookPage/27936/index.html
A 3P/4P fic.

My rating: ☆ ☆ ☆

8. 流年忆(强攻弱受,微虐)


类别:虐心,现代,成长,囚禁
Angsty type, it has a similar feeling to 并非阳光. This is one of the my favourite novels. :) AND one of the rare novel that made me drop tears.

My rating: ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆

9. 夜泉

Extra written: http://www.lcread.com/bookPage/32426/index.html

类别:虐心,虐身, 校园,血腥
divided into two parts. and it's still unfinished. T_T Schooling is supposed to be a very bright novel, but this novel is a dark one. Rape, bully, murder, blood, torture, all kind of dark acts are included. Why is it divided into two parts? Well, the first one was written by Fatty but he/she didn't finish/not a good ending. So, the new writer wrote a sequel for it.

My rating: ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆

10 骗子和我 by 蓝淋

类别:校园,3P,
强攻弱受, 虐心

I heard about this author before, and decided to start with the shortest novel that was recommended in her lists. And wow. I was happy to have discovered it. :D angst, a bit but happy ending.

My rating:
☆ ☆ ☆

11.

难言之欲

Extra: http://www.lcread.com/bookPage/66780/index.html

类别:虐心, 现代,强攻弱受
A gay x straight guy story.
A bit angst.
Strong seme and weak uke
The stubborn seme didn't want to admit his love for the uke, but he doesn't want him to leave his side. He let him live in his house when he was cheated by a girl, they started doing it. But the uke is straight, and it is hard to get this uke to fall in love with him, and what made it more difficult is that, the seme is stubborn and didn't want to admit his love to the uke too!
This is a really sweet story. ^^ I love the stubborn seme. His way of showing his affections melted my heart. :D

My rating: ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆

12.

双程

类别:虐心,校园,现代,成长,

wa... 把我弄得一把鼻涕,一把泪的。写的真是一个‘绝’字!描述了一对兄弟各自的坎坷禁恋。 原本以为是一个青春校园故事,可作者描述的却是一段真实世界里,同性恋们会遇到的种种难体,社会唾弃,父母反对。。 重要的是这还是第一个我看到角色进入到年老时期。也不是太老啦,是40余岁。

“ 两个男人之间,即使到了我们这样的年纪,也还是没有婚姻,没有责任,和男女不一样。

只靠著彼此相爱而已。

说不爱了,厌倦了,连性也不需要了,那就到尽头了。

男人跟男人之间……是没有保障的。”

In English:
"The difference between two men and a normal couple love, is that between two men, once they stepped into our ages, since there is no bound of marriage, there won't be any responsibilities.

With only the love they have for each other...

When one said he no longer love, he is tired, even sex is not needed, then, that will be the end for them.

There is no indemnity... between man and man."

说的真好。。

EDITED: 看了第二次,没想到还是弄得我狂掉泪,是我太感伤还是什么。。。 但就是写的很好。

My rating: ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆

13. 一个爹爹三个娃

类别:搞笑,轻松
Funny. Very Funny. The uke is a father of three sons, and his ignorance towards the biggest son's love is exaggerated enough to make you want to hit the wall. There isn't much mutual love in this novel due to the ignorance, needless to talk about the H scenes. XD but it's still, good. :)

My rating: ☆ ☆ ☆

14.

不可抗力(上)

不可抗力(下) by 蓝淋

类别:虐心,强攻弱受,主仆
I'll quote what the reviewers said,
"心痛的感觉一直伴随着,一种不能呼吸的感觉".
"是流泪不是哭"
It's exactly what I felt. :) Even though I know it's not real, I couldn't stop my tears from rushing out. Not the type of crying that needed to feel after reading. I cried along with the story. T_T My throat just go tightened and tears dropped.

My rating: ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆

15.

缠 by apple000777

类别:校园,虐心

弟弟是小攻,被母亲虐待后来被哥哥一家收养,两个人小时候便在一起了,长大后弟弟很优秀变成大集团的CEO,和哥哥一起同居,由于弟弟强烈的占有欲导致哥哥觉得难以忍受于是出逃几次,后来发现弟弟竟然被其亲生母亲利用来当复仇工具

-- another 经典的。作者的文笔真是好。那H的更是好!

Rating: ☆ ☆ ☆


16. 囚

类别:校园,虐心, 囚禁,现代,强攻强受 (个人认为受害算坚强)
孤儿孟浩天被齐思音的父亲所收养,而齐思音与他的朋友韩静.方唯都对孟浩天有兴趣,而韩静那变态的表达喜爱的方式令孟浩天苦不堪言,于是齐思音从韩静手 中"要来"了他,而孟浩天并不知道,在齐思音手中要比在韩静手中危险数倍...于是,孟浩天便又被“囚禁”在齐氏集团公子齐思音“变态”的“爱情”中,身 心倍受虐待,而韩静与方唯的“追求”更让浩天的情况雪上加霜...之后他还被齐家人出卖给了敌人,而齐思音也毅然为了他而放弃结婚,但是孟浩天会接受扭曲 却真实强烈的爱么?而最后,他又会接受谁?

This is okay... didn't get my tears. :) but I like the story. the ending was abrupt, and I kind of wish the uke confirm his feelings of love for the seme. anyway, it's a happy ending.

My rating: ☆

17.

噩梦

类别:囚禁,校园,现代,
“賤人……你這賤人……殺了我兒子……”臉上已經腫了,身上也被打得遍體鱗傷……可是我已經不覺得痛了,只是微微發著抖……為什麼……明明已經逃離他了……
邪肆的臉是張揚的魅力,我看在眼裏卻是個惡夢!……這張臉,帶給我的是無法磨滅的惡意,我不自覺的按著肚子……如果不是他……我的同學……我的噩夢……
為什麼還要我遇到他,我幾乎流下淚來,雖然在過去的日子裏我已經不知道流了多少淚……

个人评价:由于主角是个变性人,再加上男男生子,我无法把这个小受现象成男的。

My rating: ☆

18

204纪事

花开的温度


类别:校园,现代,虐心,强攻强受

The first part of the story was okay, but when the second part came, I couldn't help but wanted to go punching the uke. I wished he wasn't so determined with his ex (even though undeniably the other seme really loved him), keep on rejecting the seme that I liked. :P and until the last chapter, I still wondered, if this pair will get together.
Luckily, they got together, or at least, the writer gave us a feeling that the uke finally accepted the seme. Feeling a little bit unsatisfied with the ending. It's like going round and round a big circle and then only they returned to the set point.

My rating: ☆ ☆

19.

好人难为 by 易人北

类别:强攻弱/强?受,现代,黑心腹攻,
Heard about this author some time ago from somewhere. Indeed, I love this one. The seme was really bad in the first place, bullying the weak, poor uke from the start. Gave me a feeling of okane ga nai, but this uke is very strong in heart, which is why I like it more than OGN. The front part was a little angst, but it became really funny and cute towards the end.
My rating: ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆☆

Note:I re-read this again. T_T

20.

空白

类别:现代,虐心

为了他,他亲手埋葬了他俩的爱情,熄灭了自己多舛的命途中来之不易的幸福。换来的,却是他近乎疯狂的残酷报复。
为了他,他愿付出一切,甚至不惜像女人一样躺在他身下。换来的,却是他的背叛和唯一亲人的惨死。
他在他难以言喻的情感漩涡中苦苦挣扎。

Another legendary great angsty story. The specialty about this book is the, the main characters. We can't be sure who's the uke who's the seme. The seme gave us a feeling of weakness (the typical uke) but when it comes to the first time sex, (and the one after they got together), he becomes the seme. And the supposing-ly uke is the one who tortured him and locked him up etc etc. I admired the author's thinking & plot, leads me back to the time when I did my own fanfic. A lot of things are complicated, and you can''t really understand what's going on when you're reading, eg. some little details. But after you finished the whole book and you tried to connect them together, it's really good and touching. Good, I especially love the extras.

My rating: ☆☆☆☆

21.

长夜未央

类别:强攻强受,现代,虐心,黑心腹 & 受,

如果只能在夜晚爱上你,
我情愿,
长夜未央。

Was on the verge of letting go of this book at the start because it was boring.. but it gets better and was about to cry when the main character died. Lol. turned out that it was fake. they started a new life together.

My rating: ☆☆

22.

致命诱惑

类别:强攻强受,现代

吸引和被吸引是同步调的过程……
引诱的同时也是被引诱的堕落……
如果是不相信爱情下的吸引,男人与男人的诱惑……会不会失控?
于是,美丽的事物都是诱惑的,诱惑的事物都是危险的……
那么,会不会致命?

My rating: ☆☆

23.

对头

Date finished: 14th Dec

类别: 强攻强受,现代, 校园

从第一次见面开始,他们就是对头——
在澄澈蔚蓝的泳池畔,
痞到骨子里的肖野,和阴沉高傲的殷卫
总是如此看待对方。
直到殷卫第二次差点毁了肖野终身“性福”,
肖野终于忍不住在无人的池畔,
彻底压制了这个高傲、倔强得像只小豹子的男孩,
也开始了他们纠缠难解的孽缘……

My rating: ☆

24.

冲冠一怒为蓝颜

by 易人北

Date finished: 16th Dec
类别:强攻弱受,古风,虐心

果果从小看着少爷长大,没想到一直跟随身旁喊着果果,果果的孩童在成年后竟然也和别人一样不把自己当人看。他不明白,继承其美母亲的眉目,综合上其父的线 条分明──挺直的鼻梁,削薄的嘴唇,坚毅的下巴的面孔,不知倾倒了多少待字闺中的佳秀,荡漾了多少已为人妇的寂寞春心的少爷,要什么样的女人没有?为什么 老是抓住他来发泄性欲呢???

Finally am able to read a satisfying novel. :yay: 易人北's works are great. *added to my favourite authors list*

My rating: ☆☆☆☆

25.

非卖品

Date finished: 17 Dec
类别:强攻弱受

love this one.
My rating: ☆☆☆☆

26

天神右翼


Date finished: 23 Dec
类别: Fantasy, 虐心, 强攻强受, 历史

真正的忘记,不需要努力
The relationship inside here is messed up and a tragedy for everyone inside. The plot is superb. I was actually complaining about how sudden the truth is revealed at the ? chapter. and I thought that it was all a joke but no.. And the angst is there. I love the way the writer arranged the plot, but sadly, what's lacking in here is.... it's unfinished!! T_T

My rating: ☆☆☆

27.

错落

类别: 虐心
主角:石斌(小攻)
顾瞻林(小受)
not really a angsty fic. There's no sex too. but What is really great about this fic is the characters. It's really hard to find a fic like this couple. Both of them aren't really straight with their feelings. The seme is really bad to the uke, he hit him, kicked him, and bad-mouthed him but he actually really loved the uke.
My rating: ☆☆☆☆

28.

动物凶猛


类别: 虐心, 校园,黑道,类似"夜泉"
林重生:“我就是一胆小懦弱,卑鄙无耻的无赖!我只是个小人物,所以我的心很小,容不下太多事,介意不了太多的人。”
彭涛:“你的梦想,我帮你成就;你的责任,我帮你扛;你的痛苦,我帮你受;你的幸福,我帮你守着!”
郑天霖:“如果不能全心爱我,就杀了我,不然总有一天你会死在我手上。”
南宫宇:“走进这扇门,我就不是南宫宇,你就不是林重
My rating: ☆☆☆

29.

无法 part 1

无法(下)

类别: 虐心, 校园, 现代, 类似 弄风的 未曾忘记
那年下雨的高三毕业旅行,向德恩与三个死党无聊的玩起国王游戏。注衰的他连庄输家,惹上了莫东紫、方温奇、姬流这几位校园风云人物,将自己的身心搞得几乎破碎。
即使转学了,他还是摆脱不了三人──游戏持续在每个周日,向德恩如一份大餐,任由他们轮番享受。
欣羡紫、奇、流三人的同学们不明白,向德恩却看到了,那戴着面具的魔鬼们……
My rating: ☆☆☆☆

30.

马夫 (上)

马夫(下)

类别:贱受,虐心
马夫一点一滴的慢慢把陆弃拉拔长大,不但教他武功,还疼他疼到连身体也给了他。马夫不求什么,只想那小狼崽子别忘了自己。只是当陆弃功成名就时,见了新人忘旧人,这一切全成了马夫自以为是的独角戏…… .

Dun really like this book because of the characters. Even though it's said to be a really good angst story. The uke kept on shamelessly clinging to the seme who doesn't like him, and the seme was cruel to abandon the uke with words and everything.
My rating: ☆

31.

FAINT

类别:清水,师生
The uke teacher 'attacks' the seme after he was drunk. The seme was disgusted by it originally, but he gradually realized his love towards the uke and confessed. The uke has a weak personality and is always afraid, and has low self-confidence. Due to the seme's family background, he was forced to leave the country to further his study. The seme didn't want to wait for him because he didn't want to delay/destroy his future. To make the uke believed in him and that he will come back for him, "I love you." is the only three words that the seme wanted to hear from uke as his confirmation. Time limit was until the time before he boarded his plane. Receiving no call or news from the uke, he waited and waited, until he was at the verge of giving up and the uke finally appeared by his gate.

My rating: ☆

32

风飞花

BY lolovi (现代年下虐文HE)

受是攻的管家,两人从小一起长大,两人挺相爱的,

但攻占有欲太强了,为了不让受分心,把受的全家杀死了,还虐受的身与心。

受很隐忍,渐渐内心产生了恨,就默默跟在攻身边,想尽一切办法想板倒攻,

最终把攻板倒了,受就开始囚禁攻,把攻的全家也杀了,并且剁掉了攻的

一个手指,可是攻还是爱受,爱得很变态,攻告诉受,只要受高兴,

把他手剁了都行,还微笑面对受,其实最后最后的胜利还是属于攻的,

纠结恨了好多年,其实谁也离不开谁。但结局HE(这文咱很喜欢)

I love it too. :) The story plot is really unusual. Unusual as in you can't expect what's happening if you don't read this. Because a typical uke will not dare to do things like 'chop off seme's finger, kill seme's family, torture seme etc' but this uke will and will never hesitate. and the meaning behind all this torture are .... kind of special. :]

My rating: ☆☆☆☆

Taken from here, part 2 or Here


33.

伤(lolovi)

The seme is the uke's slave. For ten years, he stayed by his sides, with brain better than the master. But in the end, uke realized that it was all an act, to trick him into telling a secret, a betrayal. That resulted in a killing of all his family members in front of his eyes, he alone survived and was turned into a 'sex slave' for the seme, the uke couldnt' forgive himself, couldn't forget how his mother and family hatred at him before they died. When hurting the seme couldn't work out, he tried to hurt himself. But was stopped, drugged, returned, drugged. In the end, when the seme accepted the offer to marry a princess, he killed the princess just because he heard his ukes cried behind the curtain. They ran away. The seme was still not satisfied. He wanted the strength and power back. And started to team up with another king. The king had eyes on the uke, try to rape him but was killed by the uke in his defense. He got more freedom but was still unsatisfied, he didn't understand why the seme cared about the wealth and power. When uke learnt that the raping was planned by the seme, he planned for death.
The uke jumped off the cliff in front of the seme, saying the words he had once promised the seme "I promised you I'll not die before you do."
he did not die, hid underneath, waiting for the seme's response. Just as he thought that the seme did not care for him, and was about to jump off himself,. he saw him, in the air, wearing expressions of shock to smile and down towards the death. He follows.

Woah. THIS IS THE ONLY FIC that I had read where both the characters die. T_T Real good...

My rating: ☆☆☆☆

34.

被禁锢的男人

类别:囚禁,年下受,黑心腹攻
The niece fall in love with his blood-unrelated uncle when he caught him having sex with his father. After his father death, he gained control and power. He started his move and showed his affections to his uncle. The uke couldn't accept it, decided to run away. Seme did not allow and track him down, using his little brother (同母异父)as bait. Out of love, uke came back for his brother, resulting in him and his brother being held captive. Uke tried to escape from the place but failed. He was on the verge of killing himself when help came. He managed to escape once more and decided to seek revenge. He succeeded and freed his brother from the seme's control. They ran out of country. The seme still managed to come back to him after two months. The ending was kind of ... giving us wide imagination. :) seems like uke did accept him.

My rating: ☆☆☆☆

35.

清江映雪

类别:囚禁,古代

靠捕鱼为生的受,是个长得不算壮的贫因青年,为了给生病的母亲买药,在寒冷的白浪江边作着摆渡生意,

却没想到遇到白衣冷酷美攻,攻把他就QJ了,并把他代回了家当发泄品,受逃离了攻,娶妻并生子。

但攻却把他找到了,强行代了回来。。

My rating: ☆☆☆☆

36.

被禁锢的爸

类别:囚禁, NP, 虐心

Two semes locked up the uke and his only son for eight years. Uke wanted to escape but for the sake of his child, he bears down all the humiliations. As the child grows up and started to understand what is going on, he begins to try escaping, but in vain. One of the semes gave him up and left, but came back again after a year.

I like the prequel, there's more plot to it and romance but it's unfinished!!! >.<>骗局
类别:虐心,校园,师生,类似FAINT

向来心高气傲的蒋行磊无意中得知这个当了他论文的土气男教师是个同性恋后, 一场恶意的计划便在友人们的怂恿下形成了。 剥下那道貌岸然的外皮,他要看看将会是怎样一副脸孔! 将鄙夷包裹在温柔之中,他冷笑着向原庭信靠去…… 一切只是一场骗局而已,为了嘲弄那扭曲变色的面孔! 「老师,不如和我交往吧。」 在向好友告白失败后,对于这个莫名接近他的男孩忽来的请。。。
My rating: ☆☆

《夹心生活》 BY:花开的表情 (完结) 受升职了和朋友们去庆祝,同事给小受定了一位牛郎想叫小受快活快活,可是受却喝多了,迷迷呼呼的在马路上遇到了一对双胞胎, 双胞胎QJ了小受,自此3人开始了同居生活。 无法从双胞胎编织的网中逃离,小天从反抗到绝望,从绝望到适应,最后是怎样栽进了爱情这个深渊里,朋友的远离,只是单单作为一只宠物而活着,这样被给予的爱情又能多长久? 一生,就此毁灭。 《燃》+《燃着》虐心文~ 被抛弃的小受(简直就是小铁人)+霸道攻 (完结) will continue to add. :wahaha:

Friday, October 16, 2009

凤于九天 by 风弄

This is chapter 22.
http://www.lcread.com/bookPage/67545/index.html

and this is chapter 23
http://www.douban.com/review/2353120/

Extra which I love
夜宫
http://www.lcread.com/articlePage/117275/index.html

character illustrations
http://www.txtxz.com/read.php?tid-334506-fpage-0-toread--page-1.html

I really love this original BL novel so much. I have to record it here so that it's easier for me to find the links in future.

And lastly all the quotes that I love:

1.天下壮丽江山
  吾与你共享
  世间轰烈快事
  吾与你分尝
  惟有灾难
  吾一人独挡

  2.若是凤鸣要我放弃江山
  西雷王朝送你又如何

  3.纵使成为十一国之主
  你是我的容恬
  纵使兵败国亡
  你是我的容恬
  就像我
  永远是你的凤鸣

  4.他是容恬的
  可容恬是不是他的呢?

 
 5.虽然我对你一厢情愿的牺牲深恶痛绝
  但为了你的微笑
  我会好好保护自己
  若我的生命不能为你付出
  那么
  我的生命属于西雷——
  那片你深爱并且拥有的大地

  6.-天下虽大只有一个凤鸣
  -笨,这叫弱水三千,我只取一瓢饮
  7.一宵欢言,窗外渐明
  容王确已不再如昨日般确定
  怀中人的生命,可以永远被自己的双手保护

  8.“纵使日后挫折种种,凤鸣也绝不后悔来到这个时代!绝不后悔遇到容恬!”
  “纵使日后灾难种种,容恬一人来挡”他顿了顿,转头看着凤鸣,轻声道,“凤鸣,我不会让你后悔”

  
9.“不要伤害我的凤鸣”
  “你要得到他,就不要伤害他”

  10.凤鸣
  你已长大
  我多希望你可以永远纯真如初
  不知人事险恶
  那样
  你会比现在幸福得多

  11.“容恬纵使有朝一日成为十一国之主,心里仍有一个永远不会变的地方,天下苍生可以不知,只有凤鸣,不应该忘记这点。”
  风停,弦断。
  凤鸣的眼泪,一滴,两滴,砸在紫金色的地砖上。
  “我不会忘记。”
  “纵使成为十一国之主,你是我的容恬。”
  “纵使兵败国亡,你是我的容恬。”
  “就象我,永远都是你的凤鸣。”

  12.东凡的千军万马,挡不住你手中的宝剑
  我相信的

  13.从你昏迷的消息传来的那刻开始,我就发誓,七天,我忍耐七天,如果七天你还不能醒来,我一定要亲自赶来唤醒你,不管那是刀山火海。你要觉得我太傻,不配为王,可以尽管责骂我

  14.“你是大王,怎么可以这样胡来?”
  “我是大王,当然可以胡来。”
  “你...你还是那个运筹帷幄,目光远大的容恬吗?”
  “如果你在身边,我就是运筹帷幄,目光远大的容恬,”容恬叹道,“要是看不到你在眼前,我就只是凤鸣的容恬而已。”
  只要有一丝不辜负你的可能,即使傻瓜才会做的自杀行为,我也会毫不犹豫地做
  生生死死,不过如此.

  15.容恬豪气地大笑:“大丈夫怎能没有雄心壮志?我誓得天下!”再重重亲凤鸣一口,迈开大步走了。
  大丈夫怎能没有雄心壮志?凤鸣看着容恬高大的背影,自豪无比。
  想帮你。帮你夺这天下,我的容恬应该站在高山上看芸芸众生,够资格指天笑骂。相信你一定可以让天下太平,再没有战争。那个时候,我就把所知道的科学知识贡献出来,让所有人更加富足。

 
 16. “一龙一凤,我与你共享这江山。”

  
17.“万一不是计,而是你真的病重,我却没能进来救你。岂不是要我后悔一辈子?”
 
18.“东凡是你的,而你是我的。”

  
19. “容恬,不要离开我,生离或死别,我都无法忍受。”
  
“我们不会的,生离或死别,都不会。”

  20.“凤鸣,在这个世上,你能害死的人只有两个。”
  “两个?”
  “一个是你,另一个,就是我。你如果不好好爱惜自己,我就会为了你心疼而死。”
  凤鸣沉默,他问,“那你呢?你可以害死多少人?”
  “很多。所有令你伤心难过的人,我都可以让他们死。”
  “包括若言吗?”
  “包括若言。”

  21.“庸人之爱,只想着怎么疼惜保护对方,实际上,这只是成全了自己。王者之爱,却是不管付出多大代价,却要成全对方。”

  22.,“容恬,我让你成为这片大地历史上,最幸福的君王。”
  容恬在瞬间,竟觉得眼眶隐有热度。
  他知道自己注定纠缠在战乱和阴谋的漫长一生中,能够遇见凤鸣是一种幸福,却不知道,会是这样幸福。
  “凤鸣,我已经是最幸福的君王。”
  “还不算。容虎说,王,都是世上最寂寞,最辛苦的人。因为他们的身後,永远没有别人可以依靠, 只能做一个保护者,王者一旦失败,他所爱的人,所要保护的人,都会遭到覆灭之灾。所以,身为王者,不管伤得多重,只要还有一口气在,就必须挺身站著,面对 自己的敌人,保护自己心爱的人。”
  “我也是王者,西雷鸣王。所以你不会寂寞,也不会独自辛苦。我虽然笨笨的,而且胆子小,很怕死,但我要依丞相的话去做,不断磨练,成为一个可以独当一面的鸣王。”
  凤鸣用微不可闻的声音,说出生命中份量最重的诺言。
  “从此以後,我受伤了,有你。”
  “你受伤了,有我。”
  “容恬,你的身後,有我可以依靠。”

  23.「这是我今晚献给海神的祭品,就以这尾用我性命相搏而来的鲨鱼,向海神禀告,我身边这位非凡的剑手——子岩,将会是我贺狄一生中,最珍爱的人!」

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Lone

Alone is great when I'm want it.
Being single is great when I was heart-broken.

But when time dragged on, and I healed from it.
It changed.

the problem is,
it's not easy to find one.

only fate decide this for us.

even knowing this,
I still wish.

Wish for the fate to visit me one day soon.

Friday, August 28, 2009

Elective in General Hospital Sibu


this is me at A & E, got nothing to do, posing. XD hey, this is my first photo taken in labcoat. wohoo. though, the labcoat was borrowed from my friend's father's shop. a little too big for me. amniotic fluid, this color signified that the baby's in fetus distress. (If I'm not wrong)

cute, isn't it?


Alright, I'm finally finished with my report. Later in the afternoon, I'm going to meet my new mentor to pass it up. What's written in the report were was happened during the elective, but not everything was recorded in it. haha.

It was fun, truly. I get to know new friend, a crazy friend. Lol... other than that, I got to witness many cases, patients, procedures. We were even offered to do the IV drip. The time we stayed was from monday to friday, from 8 till 5. But because I don't have the transportation, I had to stay until 6/7 for the first week. Lots of Unimas students who's also on elective come into the A & E department only after 5. The nurses said that there were lots more of patients and busier after 5.
I also see that how the doctors there were mostly MO and HO. Due to the fact that they are on call overnight at that department, they don't really have the enthusiasm to teach us. (not all, Dr Jesse was the best we met.)

At the O &G department, we got to witness baby birth. Aw... the baby was so cute. Really, I saw countless of baby delivered over the week. Some mothers took lots of time but some fast. I saw one of them, who took like... one hour for the delivery. She was an obese chinese. And she really took a lot of effort and was constantly at the point of giving up during the process. Okay, this is the bad part. At first, the nurses were advising and encouraging her nicely to push, teaching her the correct technique. But the mother couldn't get the correct method, and results in the baby couldn't reach the birth canal after half an hour. In the end, the nurses were becoming more impatient. I can't blame them because what they said was true. The baby was stuck in there for too long, no oxygen, it's bad for the health of the baby. The mother just had to suffer for a few minute, but if it delays, the baby might suffer mental problem for the rest of her life. Yes, it's a she. In the end, she managed to do it. luckily, phew.

on a side note, I kind of understand why M'sia government hospital lacked doctors. Look at their working schedule. Their working time for a HO were from 7 in the morning until 11/12 at night for the first 10 days at the new department. and then, the on call time will depend on number of people available in that department. Most of the things were left for the HO to do, and during on call, if there's emergency especially at the medical ward, I heard that it's the HO that'll be wakened up first. The HO has to solve the problem by him/herself before you can call up the MO. Ma, I guess, I'll worry about these later in my life.

Saturday, August 8, 2009

Scanlations




Page 4
Days to be noted this year. *16th
15, 16, 17
...Mi...Ki.
(Brother)
Misaki
(quilt is an incredible inventory.)
Misaki.
....uh...
Get up now. You''re going to be late.
... ten more minutes...


page 15
Haru...
(Slam) Hurts!
?!
What are you doing? (wet, wet) The reason why you seldom use this shower is..
because if you insist on not using it, the other members would feel bad about using it too.
Other people's feelings... (tick-da, water falling) Those people's feelings who are abandoned by you...

page 16
shouldn't you think about them for a little bit, tanabe?
You said you forgot? what did you forget? (grab)
that day
uh (Surprised)

Page 24
Are you being hated by someone? When did it start?

Are you worried about me?
Don't change the topic!!

Why didn't you say anything? Go back to class now. You'd better stay away from me.
... I can't do that.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

No Sicko again ?

Starting from Jan this year until now, I had had a total of three times of flu. Considered quite often for a person of my age, huh? It was not like this, I remembered I rarely get sick during my college year, and back then, unlike now, I had no mother to 'mother' me by my side. And now, I'm feeling sore throat again. Should I expect another one coming in close future? Please... no.... I really hate it. >.<

How come it's different now? Isn't it supposed to be the other way round? :sigh:

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

RIPE

RIPE as in rifampicin, isoniazid, pyrazinamide, and ethambutol are drugs (first line) for tuberculosis.

Isoniazid, toxicity-- hepatotoxicity, bone marrow suppression. It reacts with pyridoxal to form complex that is easily excreted out the urine. As pyridoxal is important for the nutrition of nerve, low in pyridoxal after excretion cause peripheral neuritis, and convulsion, especially in malnourished people.

Rifampicin toxicity -- pseudomonas coliitis, CNS disturbancces (thus causing dizziness, confusion), liver damage, nausea, rashes. Give orange tinge to saliva. Also induces liver enzymes -- thus more degradation of for pts on warfarin, glucocorticoids, oral antidiabetics, i.e. less effective for these drugs to work.

Pyrazinamide toxicity -- hepatotoxicity. inhibits renal excretion of uric acid -- thus causing hyperuricaemia.

Ethambutol toxicity -- optic neuritis (blurred vision, green/red color blindness), GIT disturbances, headache, giddiness (huh? XD).

SECOND LINE ANTI TB
PAS (para-aminosalicylic acid)
toxicity -- epigastric pain, hypersensitivity reactions (fever, joint pains, rashes.)

Ciprofloxacin For NON - TB induced TB (atypical TB)
Ofloxacin for Mycobacterium tuberculosis induced. TB.

Monday, June 15, 2009

Huh..?

I know I had said this for more than thousand times, but I couldn't help to say this again.

WHEN WILL EXAM END??
DON'T GIVE ME "Until you die" THING!!!

Ahem. Am I being aggressive?
Sigh... I so wished the exam would finish. Studying could be so painful some times especially if you have two full stack of papers (each measured approximately 4cm height) to read, without knowing the border of the exam questions... It was so different from my high/college school, where we could estimate what questions would come out in the exam by doing lots of past year questions... Back then, all my 'As' are taken for granted.

But now, there's nothing like this. >.<
:puppy eye-ing the yaoi manga and anime in my laptop:

Friday, June 5, 2009

Kuala Kubu Bahru

two days without yaoi. XD I already felt really disconnected from my life just two or three days ago. Even though I heard how horrible the hostel is, I never expected it to be this worst.

The room, accomodated eight people, with four double decker beds. It was fine at first, but as night grows on, it get hotter and hotter. THe air that is circulating inside couldn't get out from the room, the result? It's stuffy and hot. And all thorough the night, I didn't sleep...
Second worst, No water. NO kettle. The water I tried to boil from my friend's kettle but the water stink. I had to buy the bottles with RM2 every day. -- money wasting.
Third worst, No food. The mamak and canteen doesn't suit my taste. while the town needed a fifteen min walk.
Fourth worst, need to stay over during weekend. Our group is the only group that needed to stay over for six days five nights. And it's only three weeks left till final n I still hadn't started to study seriously!

I came back by a friend's car, I am really grateful for that, but I still need to get back there tomo morning.. that still means my heart is... feeling very blue. I know I'm fussy. I know I'm complainiing... I know I'm selfish. I know I'm perssimistic. I know.

But I can't change that.

Saturday, May 9, 2009

hot

Symptoms: Hot, Burning, Stress, high Heart rate, Restless.
Duration: 4 hours and still continuing.
Complications: Unable to concentrate, Fail Exam
Treatment: Online surfing, Aarinfantasy, Reading fanfics.
Adverse effects: Again, neglect studies
Management: Bury myself in the stacks of books for the next week.
Laboratory test: blood film test.

Diagnosis: Lazy worm parasites.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Unfair, Furious...

I'm sitting here, right in front of the laptop, feeling really unfair and upset.

Shock, is what you called it.

Maybe to others, it might seem to be only a minor problem, but to a competitive person like me, I'm really really feeling unfair. And when I know that there's nothing I could do about it, all I could do is going into a 'shock'/'trauma' state.

Right now, my mind is ..... BLANK ....

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Time flies

Time flies.
We always say that.
Time flies without us noticing it.
But how many of us actually appreciate the 'time'?
Everyday, waking up, eat breakfast, go to school, eat, lectures, come back, eat, studies, and sleep. Routine goes on.
Before we noticed it, one week passed.
Before we knew it, one month passed.
When we looked back, one year passed.
To think that I will be reaching adulthood in just a few more months, it makes me wonder...
next time I looked back, what will I become?

Monday, January 12, 2009

Lazy

What am i doing here? It's only the second week since school started but i felt like i had tons to catch up. Okay, starting from the basics, everyone are finding reference books, and yet i felt so carefree. then, i thought i had really finished reading all the lecture notes, but i still feel not enough since others are trying to get the books to read. From time to time, i will ask myself, WHy the hell am I in medicine again??

I know this's not the first time i felt like this. I'm just lazy... Curse me.

Today, i heard from my friend that there are people who have to repeat their year. I feel lucky enough that I didn't have to repeat the semester. If not, i won't have the guts to continue studying and repeating the same thing all over again, besides, I won't have the confidence to continue in this career. so, if i'm forced to repeat, I'd rather drop it.

Enough. ENough... I can't waste my parents money.
Time for revision.
Like hell!!